I'm stoned and pissed off. Here is what I have to say.
Have you ever got really stoned and just wondered? About everything. Just sat there and wondered. I hate that shit. I'll just be sitting there and I'll be like, "What the fuck?? Why?" And I'll just start thinking about everything. Life, religion, sex, all that shit. I have come to a few different realizations. Here are some of my thoughts.
1. God
I dunno if I believe in God. If there is a God, then I don't think he would mind people not believing in him. Oh yes the bible. We are supposed to worship and praise someone in a book written fucking hundreds of years ago. If I could just recieve some proof. Just a nice little piece of some kind of fraction of some proof. Maybe just some guy popping out of my wall and saying, "THEIR IS A GOD." That's all I would need. I'd be a fucking born-again christian. But no. We have to believe in a book from 2000 years ago or else our souls will burn in eternal hell. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SHIT???? How do we know that christianity isn't like satanism to the afterlife and all christians are going to hell? And OHHH you better not be in a cult!!! Oh no evil people!! How could people believe in UFO'S and the kingdom above heaven?? They are so lost. NEWSFLASH ASSHOLES: MOST RELIGIONS BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A BIG GUY IN THE SKY THAT MADE US ALL WITH MAGICAL POWERS. They believe in Adam and Eve and Noah and Moses and all that shit. Lets say the Heaven's Gate cult was right. What if they're just laughing now on a UFO while were sitting here saying, "Oh poor unguided souls." It's fucked up.
2. Marijuana
This is probably the topic that pisses me off the most. Why. That's what I think of when I hear stories like a guy gets busted and goes to jail for 93 years for growing little green plants. Why. That's what I think of when I see my friends get punished by the law for putting what they want into their bodies. Why. That's what I think when I see a drunk-driving crash on T.V. Why. That's what I think when I see my friends uncle breath through a whole in his throat. Why? WHY IS MARIJUANA ILLEGAL? It poses absolutely no danger to a human being. Oh no you lose memory. NO FUCK YOU. When I get stoned I don't lose my damn memory. I just forget shit because I don't wanna remember it. Fuck you I wanna keep my mind fresh with interesting thoughts and good ideas. Alcohol is legal...celebrated on TV with cute little commercials, beautiful women, etc. Yet thousand die every year because ALCOHOL MAKES YOU LOSE CONTROL. I drink myself and I've lost control over myself a few times. That's why people get in driving accidents and kill each other and beat their wives and accidently kill them. Thats why women unwillingly have sex. BECAUSE ALCOHOL MAKES YOU LOSE CONTROL. On the other hand, marijuana STIMULATES your mind. You become so in control of yourself that you think of thoughts you've never thought before and go to new frontiers in your mind, body, and soul. No one has gotten high on weed and beat their wife till she died. But I bet someone has gotten high on weed and FORGOTTEN to beat their wife. That's because they are thinking of better things...greater things. And on to the final one. Tobacco. Don't even get a fucking buzz off it. It's just nasty flavored air. Rolled like a joint. Its just harmful killing stinking smoke. OH SIGN ME UP. Give me a fucking break. How many times have you seen a guy that only smoked weed with lung cancer and a hole in his throat? Never damnit, never. I don't even have to elaborate on this because I'm so fucking right. Next subject.
3. Sex
I'm horny. As I am writing this, I am horny. EWW YOU PERVERT! Hey I'm horny..I can't fucking help it. Sorry if a chemical in my brain makes me want to reproduce with the closest female around. Sorry if the raging hormones in my body make me want, think, and thrive for sex 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. I'm so sorry. I think the fucking people in this country need to take themselves a little less seriously. It's just sex. BUT SEX SHOULD BE BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE WHO LOVE AND CARE FOR EACH OTHER. Give me a break. Give me 2 breaks. What the hell is love anyway? Huh? What is love? When you like someone a whole lot? Guess what? I LOVE ALL WOMEN. Yeah thats right. I don't care what you do how you act I love you. And if you can find it in your heart to love me then I will treat you like a damn queen. I'll be the first one to admit it...I AIN'T BRAD PITT. Yeah I could lose a few pounds, get a haircut, get some designer Tommy Hilfiger clothes, but I don't. I am who I fucking am. And if you can find it in your heart to love me for who I am and what I think then I don't care what you do. You could be a complete airhead but if you could accept me I'd take you no matter what. Or maybe I'm just reverting back to the horny thing again. And another thing. How many times have you heard of a man getting raped by a woman. NEVER. And if there is a few, they are schmucks. See, I'm not a woman. Maybe sex is different in your minds. It probably is. But to me, I'll pretty much have sex with any female human on earth (WITH A FEW EXCEPTIONS) If a women comes up to me and says "Fuck me!! Ride me like a wild stallion!!" Then I will get a huge ass smile on my face and I'll screw her brains out. But if a man walks up to a woman and says something like "Lets do it" or "Hey sexy" he is sexually harassing her. Why is the females outlook on sexuality so different from the males? Don't women get horny? And how come horny women that enjoy sex are considered "Sluts" but men are just men. FUCK THAT GIVE ME A SLUT. Give me a woman that knows how good sex is and will share it with me.
4. Miscellaneous drug-induced insane ramblings
I was sitting here wishing I was sober so I could stop fucking thinking. But oh well. I have realized one of the many reasons the world is fucked up. Missinterpretaion. The human beings on this planet have pretty much gathered that a person becomes an adult at age 18. If you ask any teenager this is wrong. Why are teenagers so horny all the time? Why do they get so mad at their parents? Because in their mind they are adults. Thats when humans really become adults...WHEN THEY FEEL IT. Its not the day when you reach the 18th year of your life. It is the day when you can think and act or yourself and when you feel you can survive on your own. Unfortunately these feelings are kept inside by strict discipline and shit like that. They just put more and more restrictions on teenagers and youth in general. The teenagers are just built up with all these hormones and thoughts and feelings of an adult yet they are still treated like a child. They either have to take out their built up aggression and tension on something such as sports or other peoples skulls or they just hold it in until the point when they explode with rage. Its dangerous and it needs to change. And here are some more things that suck:
Phone companies
AOL
All those drugs that kill
Child Abuse
New pipes (They taste fucking disgusting)
Briefs (ouch)
Disco
Two Years Later
Well Today is May 7, in the year of 99. I think it's been two years since I wrote on this page. First of all, I'd like to thank all you wonderful stoners out there that have ever commented on the page (good or bad),signed my guestbook,sent me a pic/sound/other,hit on me, etc. I know I'm sure I've pissed off people by not putting their pic up, or not linking them when they request it, and I'm sorry. I have an insane schedule I live by and it's hard to write on my little magic box as much as I'd like to. And I'd like to acknowledge the many,many,many people that have wrote me and "connected" with me and have said something like "Dude I totallly agreee with what you say mannn!! Yur like reading my mind man!! Uhhh I'm stooned hehe" etc. I used to think all my thoughts were crazy, but now, after all this feedback from people, I feel as though we're sane and the rest of the world is crazy. There have been some issues in the last 2 years I need to comment on. Now I just have to remember them.
Colorado Killings
This is the one that you can't turn on a tv and not see something about it. I picked this one first because it's the first one I remembered, and it really hit home with me. First of all, I'd like to say I'm not condoning the senseless, brutal murder of innocent people. Ok let me start with school. I have had BAD experiences with school. I'd rather not go into them now, but they are not pretty. Many people's school experiences are different. But let me try to sum it up. School is an unforgiving, unfair, crude political mosh pit of stupidity and conformity. I really don't wanna start explaining why but I know that some of you are reading this now and totally know what I'm talkin' about. You are the people like me. The people that have felt the anger and powerlessness. Your just forced from the time of true human consciousness to go to a place where people like you will judge you and start separating you into groups. First the ugly and obviously different. From preschool to high school it is the same way. Somewhere along the line the same kids that were "cast out" realize..FUCK EM! FUCK THESE COCKSUCKERS! These cocksuckers and their cliques, and their fuckin bullshit school. My life has been shit all because of you , school!...Inside the kid is thinking this but outside he is doing nothing. Well these kids finally did something. They did what EVERY kid that has every gone to school has thought of. "No Blaze I've never thought of that I'm not psychotic" Bullshit! You have, maybe for only a moment, but you have thought of it before. Some of us more than others depending on our school experience but everyone has. I don't want fuckin letters from people saying "You bastard! My Uncle Leeroy was the janitor at Columbine and they blew his fuckin brains out! How can you understand why the kids did it? Because the same way I can understand why blacks rioted in L.A. An extreme act to bring an extreme injustice into the public's eye. Blacks rioted to show America that they were a strong force, and the Majorities can't shit on them anymore or shit will happen. The same way these kids commited an act that was as brutal as their own high school experience. This showed the public that, "hey, your fucked up school system is backfiring and producing some fucked up kids. And were sick of getting shit on.." Maybe some good can come out of this somehow. Maybe kids in school will finally stop now with the fucking cliques and gangs and all the bullshit that makes school so fucking horrible......Ok Jesus thats enough about that.
Marijuana part 2
Ok......WHY THE HELL ISN'T IT LEGAL YET??? Ok that's all.
Crazy ol' Clinton
God how refreshing it was to have a human president! To have a president that fucked up! A president that committed a deadly sin. And I'm not the only one. 70% approval rating for cheating on his wife! That shows a shitload about our society. The same reason Wrestling and Jerry Springer get the highest ratings. Our fuck up society needs a fuck up president to run its little fucked up government.
Well that's it for now. I must sleep now, and return to my normal life where I commute in society and work for a living. I have probably offended you in some way. I don't really care. I'm my own fucking person and I can say and think whatever the hell I want. Don't be afraid to share your thoughts with me... I'm open to yours too. Until then, keep smoking and thinking for yourself, cause your the only one who can do it.
Hi there. How you doin? Today is February 1st 2000. I never thought the world would make it this far, but here we are. The world is still as lame as it always was. I just poured myself a bowl of count chocula and sat down only to discover there is a hole in the bowl and milk just dripped all over my crotch and pissed me off. But I'll be alright. First of all, I'd like to apologize. Lots of you have emailed me, and I haven't responded. I'm sorry. It's a long story, but its not my fault damnit. I will try my best to answer all my emails from now on. Second of all, I operate on different hours than normal human beings. 5 nights a week I work till 4 in the morning..so if you go on ICQ or something to try to chat with me and never see me..it's because your normal. If you really have the urge to chat, try after 4 am I'm usually always on. Ok few things sparked by ranting tongue again. The state of music 2000
"I like girls that wear Abercrombie & Fitch" When these words emitted from my idiot box, I lost it. I gazed my eyes upon my TV to reveal 3 young men with absolutely no music talent whatsoever and lyrics out of a fucking Dr. Seuss book. I am so pissed its hard to form my emotions into words. What the fuck happened to music? What the fuck is this pre-packaged generic fucking garbage coming out of radios and TVs? What happened?? Oh sweet jesus make it stop. It's not even about music anymore! All you have to be is young and good looking..and you can be a star! I have friends that are very talented musicians and try and try to get a break and can't and then these talentless fucks like the backseat boys or nsuck make millions because of some old guy that got them voice lessons and taught them to dance and prepackaged their music. Jeesus it pisses me off so much. And if it's not a fucking boy band it some motherfucker like Puff Daddy. Oh Puff Daddy. You shameless motherfucker. Not only does he exploit the death of his fat ass dead ass best friend..but he cannot produce one fucking ounce of original work. I mean sampling is ok...it's what hip-hop is about...thats how it all started. But Puff...stop. There's a limit. And if you miss that fat bastard so much then keep hangin around with those gun-toting friends of yours and maybe you'll get capped and you can join him and make the world a better place, you talentless M.C. Hammer lookin motherfucker.
I'm goin through chaaaaangeeees
When I first wrote this...I was an angry at the world teenage boy. Now I'm an angry at the world adult. I still haven't changed much...just about everything I still agree with. Except the "Sex" part. Let me explain... I still don't believe in a God. I don't believe there's an all powerful magical man in the sky that made everything and controls everything. Don't get me wrong, I respect religion. Society needs religions. Some people need the fear of eternal hell to keep them from doing wrong. Many of you disagree. Blow me. I can have my opinion and you can have yours. But let me tell you somethin. Whenever you want something, instead of praying to God, pray to a box of fruity pebbles. Tally your results, and compare them to your results when you prayed to God. I can almost guarantee they come out about the same. "But Blaze, it's in God's plan." So if God's only gonna do his plan, why the fuck pray in the first place? "Ok big shot, then what do you believe in?" Well, jerky, I believe in being decent to people. Treat them like you would want to be treated. Don't steal, don't kill...be a decent fucking person. I know to do the right thing, I don't need the fear of eternal damnation to keep me from doing bad things. I believe in keeping an open mind. I don't know why were here. I don't know where we came from. I don't know why the fucking sky is blue, why the grass is green, why my left testicle hangs lower than the right. But I do know this. Life is very fucked up. There's a very good chance that this is all there is. So shut the fuck up and go enjoy life. And if there is a God then I'll see you in hell.--Marijuana..still not legal. All the presidential candidates are fuckin chotchies. It won't be long guys. If it still ain't legal by the time I'm 35 I'll fuckin run and make it legal. Do I got your vote?--Sex. This is where I've changed the most. In the sex story I say "What the hell is love anyway? Huh? What is love?" I claim to love all women and will have sex with pretty much any woman. Well I've matured slightly since I wrote that. I'm still a horny bastard, don't get me wrong. But I've gone through a lotta personal shit since then. I do know what love is now..and I won't just have sex with anyone. It amazing how a person can change over a year or 2. So anyway, wanna fuck? >=) Me
Hey none of you probably care but since the link to this page says "ME" I guess I should write a little about myself. Well first of all my name...my name is not Blaze. My real name is very ugly. Everyone I know calls me B. Even my own mother. If you really wanna know my name you have to earn my trust first. I'm a male. Duh. I'm 18. I'm a high-school dropout. Now I know some stereotypes are floating into your head.. Like I'm some lazy slacker dood that just sits around all day and smokes weed and plays with his computer. Well I am a lazy slacker, and i do smoke weed a lot. But my school experience is really complicated. You see, I was in a gifted program through all of elementary. I was in all honors classes all the way to the middle of my 9th grade year. Then I got expelled for getting in one fight, the first fight of my life. The reason for this is because the teacher that tried to stop us got pushed against a locker and got her wrist broke or some shit. After I got expelled, I think I changed as a person. I mean I was always a stoner. Ever since 6th grade I had smoked weed. I mean before school and shit..while maintaining a 3+ GPA. But after I got expelled..I moved to a different place...got a new group of friends. I just went real like downhill. I kinda got back on track, passed 10th grade. Then I came to school the first day of my 11th grade year and they had me in 3 classes I had already passed. I talked to my guidance counselor and she said pretty much sorry cant help you so I said fuck you and walked out and never came back. I got my GED (good enough diploma) and will be going to college this fall. I live with my moms in a suburb of Cleveland, OH. . My dad is a convicted heroin dealing hillbilly. I have two half sisters, one of them 7, one of them 25. My younger sister lives with my dad and his brothers kids and his brothers ex-wife who he slept with and caused the breakup of their marriage. His brother is a minister. My older sister lives on her own. She prefers the company of black men. I have a niece Destiny and a nephew Tre and another little one due in October. They live in florida with my older sisters grandparents. I have by far one of the most fucked up, sick, twisted, and corrupted families in the world. I could keep goin on about it but I don't want to scare you off and you probably don't give a shit. Let me just say just because my family is fucked up doesn't mean I'm fucked up. Well ok, by reading this, you already know I'm fucked up. So who the hell am I trying to convince? I work at a restaurant as a line cook. I work 5 nights a week from 7pm to 4am. My job has turned me into a nocturnal beast.Anyway..I currently don't have a girlfriend. I didn't really get a steady girlfriend until I was 16 because I was a big fat ass my whole life. I've had some pretty bad experiences with women. Hmm what else. I love all types of music. Dave Matthews Band is probably my favorite band but I love so many more. I really love movies. A lot. I consider myself a movie buff. Clerks, Mallrats, Chasing Amy, Dogma, PULP FICTION, resevoir dogs, kids, four rooms, scarface, goodfellas, a clockwork orange, half baked, homegrown, fear of a black hat, a bronx tale, primal fear, lock stock and 2 smoking barrels, go.........I could go on and on but you don't give a shit. I'm currently learning to play the guitar but I suck. I like to sing. I workout pretty regularly (not as much as I should) I smoke weed. Yeah I'm sure your shocked. I like to drive around for no reason. I like to write a lot as you can tell. I write poems...I had written almost a whole screenplay and started a buncha others but it all got erased when my computer crashed. That sucked. I like to film movies. I love taking a camcorder to public places like Tom Green and fuck with people. I like to go to Super K-mart at 3 in the morning and arrange the stuffed animals in pornographic positions. I love claw machines. I love cereal. (Fruity Pebbles) I smoke cigarettes because I'm a fucking moron. I drink occasionally. I've done coke a few times. Kind of a lame drug. Never will do it again. I love shrooms. I've tried to do ecstasy but it was not ecstasy it was something else like rat poison and I got all sick and wigged out. (That was New Years by the way) So I don't really wanna try it again. Let's see..I love storms. I masturbate a lot. I love the Simpsons, Sopranos, Tom Green, and those real life shows where people die like "When animals get real pissed and sink their teeth into your nards #4" (#3 is better) I love to travel. Especially spontaneously. I love Crazy Taxi. I love women. I love you.
Hellllloooo again! It's the Summer of 2000! I'm just havin a blast. Let's see what's goin on these days.. I've been gettin into shrooms a lot lately. Them little buggers are grrrreat. I actually documented my trips for a couple months and will soon have a page with those on it. I just got back from a Dave Matthews show. It was fucking incredible. Let's see...I got that Eminem CD..that guy is fucking hilarious. Oh yeah check this out:
My father's criminal record
Well that's just Texas but soon I should have the rest!
Well that's it for now.If you enjoyed what you just read, agreed with me on something, etc, it would be really awesome if you voted for me on the Hemp 100 Just vote for www.weedfulthings.com. It would really bring some sunshine in my life to see my website in the High Times Hemp 100. And of course, don't be afraid to email me, chat, whatever. I love you all, don't forget it. Buh bye.
I'd just like to dedicate this section to my love of mushrooms. No not the kind on your pizza. The other kind. Yeah. The kind that let you see the other side of reality. If you've never done shrooms..I can't put into words the fun you are missing. Just make sure your in a good environment. If you've done them before, you know what I'm sayin. Soon I will put my Shroom Journal up, a three month journal of my trips and the things I saw, felt, etc. Happy shroomin'
High dudes. As I write this I am currently in college waiting for my next class, which is Algebra. What a pointless fucking class. Anyway, how you doin? I'm aight. It's good to be back in school after 2 years. I never thought I'd say that, but it is. Mostly because my family has the impression I'm a big failure, ever since I dropped out of high school. I know I shouldn't care what they think, and really I don't. It's just that the reunions and get-togethers run a lot smoother when I tell them I'm in school. Plus the birthday money seems to be a lot more gracious. Currently, my love life is nonexistent. The girl I loved and still do I had to end it with because of circumstances out of my control. I'm currently very sick, persistent coughing and wheezing. I haven't seen a doctor yet but he's just gonna tell me to quit smoking so fuck that. Anyway, enough about me lets talk about things. Napster, Metallica, and greedy fucks in general
Hey Lars. Shut the fuck up you greedy arrogant asshole. I used to be a huge Metallica fan man, from Ride the Lightning to the black album. I even stood by as Load and Reload were released even though they were garbage. I went to the 01-01-00 concert in Cleveland and it was amazing. Now I can't stand Metallica. What the hell happened? What could turn one fan's view of a band completely 180? Greed.
Napster for those of you who don't know is basically a website that allows the trading of Mp3's. What napster opposers are concerned with is no one is gonna buy music anymore. That they are just gonna get in Mp3 form off the web. I am pro-napster for a few reasons. First of all Mp3s are not standard. Most cars, homes, boomboxes, etc dont have Mp3 players. A lot of people have them on their computers. Wooptyfuckindoo. I can get all the porno I've ever dreamed of on my computer but I still go buy porno's and porn mags. Just like I can hear any song on my computer yet I still go and buy CDs. Now I can only speak for myself, but when I really enjoy an artist(s) music, I go and buy their CD. And I think most people are the same way. So Lars, shut the fuck up. If little Billy hears Enter Sandman and really digs it, odds are mommy is going to buy it for him. What the fuck is he worried about, anyway? He's a multi-millionaire. If he didn't sell another record for the rest of his life, in 20 years he'd still be taking first class flights to Maui while I'm jamming to Nothing Else Matters on Mp3. So Lars, do everyone a favor, ride the lightning to hell and die,die,die my darling.
The cell
Dude if you haven't seen this movie, see it. This movie blew my fuckin mind. It's so sick and twisted and crazy. Just go see it, now. Preferrably on shrooms. The Shroom Page
My shroom page won't be up for awhile. I lost a large portion of my documentation, and it's hard to organize what I have left. Odds are I will do the whole project over. I'm an asshole "Dude where's my link?" "Dude when are you gonna put my pic up?" I'm sorry guys. I'm sorry for every link, picture, poem, whatever I've forgotten to put up. My life seems nonstop sometimes, with school, work, and all the fuckin drama in between. So if I forget you, just remind me over and over till I do it, ok? Ok I have to get to class now. I have a lot planned for this page in the course of the next year, so get ready. Remember I love all of you. Keep tokin. -b
If you agree with me, disagree, want to feed me your thoughts, anger, whatever you can email me, or talk to me ICQ. My number is 826411.
