| Big Show!!! | |||
| 10:20pm 06/08/2003 | |||
|
Event Location: The Castle Street: 50 Gingerbread Castle Rd City, State, Zip: Hamburg, NJ 07419 Phone: (973) 827-1617 Notes: Charlie Splatterhead Presents SUNDAY BLOODY SUNDAY Sunday Aug 17 @ The Castle Gingerbread Lane Hamburg NJ 1PM-9PM ALL AGES $10 21+ $15 under 21 The Tombstone Brawlers Broken Heroes Bitter Hearts Speed Crazy Devil Spades Somewhere Between Murder and Suicide More Bands TBA |
|||
| Post | |||
| Might As Well | ||||
| 04:02am 06/06/2003 | ||||
Last car ride: 20 Minutes Ago Last kiss: 20 Minutes Ago Last good cry: About A Week Or So Last library book checked out: Fuck If I Know Last movie seen: At The Theatre, Matrix Last book read: I Can't Remember Last cuss word uttered: Asshole Last beverage drank: Mt. Dew Last food consumed: Pasta Last crush: Zacher Last phone call: Zacher Last tv show watched: Croc Hunter Last time showered: This Afternoon Last shoes worn: My Work Sneakers Last cd played: Lords Of Acid Last item bought: Produce For Work Last downloaded: Then Came Silence Last annoyance: Don't Know Last disappointment: A While Ago Last soda drank: Mt. Dew Last thing written: More Checks For Bills? hehe Last key used: E Last word spoken: Goodnight Last sleep: About 24 hours Ago Last IM: My Rockstar Intern Last sexual fantasy: That's A Secret Last weird encounter: Zacher In A Dress Last ice cream eaten: Strawberry Cheesecake! Last time amused: 22 Minutes Ago Last time wanting to die: Few Days Ago Last time in love: A Long Long Time Ago, But I Might Be On My Way There Now Last time hugged: 22 Minutes Ago Last time scolded: About 5 hours Ago Last time resentful: I Don't Know Last chair sat in: Desk Chair Last lipstick used: Red Last underwear worn: Camo Sparkley Thongs Last time dancing: Earlier Today At Work Last poster looked at: My New 'Godless Wicked Creeps' Poster That Zacher Got Me Last show attended: Tattoo Expo 03' (Live Bands) Last web page visited: punk.ws |
||||
| Read 4 - Post | ||||
giddy| Quiz Time!!!! | |||
| 02:28am 15/05/2003 | |||
 i am extremely intelligent and very wise. i think logically and rhetorically in order to get problems solved. if i'm not mad now, i'm getting very close. how mad are you? this quiz was made by piksy |
|||
| Post | |||
| Just a song i can across tonight.. | ||||
| 02:19am 15/05/2003 | ||||
As if the word was ending Things seem to spin uncontrolled They're all paper faces Some withered, not old, some legends uproot evil Some made of silver & gold But why is brimstone worthless When we're all so cold No, you showed it all before me You threw it in my face But still I can't believe you're not at fault Circumstance allowed me to seek out my revenge When I find you I'll feel peace again I see love from Angels I saw no love in the past I thought you made us perfect I guess you're laughing last Your thoughts don't seem much greater But still you're better than us Why don't you check your mirror? Will it break your trust? Repeat Chorus Instilled the ways of hate I understand that it is too late to save you know From all the dirt in hell There, you saw it, you know it's all inside the eyes The weakness & sadness To feel you've burned alive I forgot I could feel it And fear it, and be it The thought that I'm alive Unchanging my standing I feel used up inside I can't bear anymore The screams have fought Into my dreams And the snakes they speak just like me I see love from Angels I saw no love in the past I thought you made us perfect I guess you're laughing last Some legends uproot evil Some made of silver & gold But why is brimestone worthless When we're all so cold Fuck This song makes me think a lot. I don't know if it's good or bad thoughts though. |
||||
| Post | ||||
confused| Loud, raw and violent | ||||
| 01:26am 03/05/2003 | ||||
I ended up going out to eat with my family while i was waiting for the phone call from work to call me in. So after we ate and they still hadn't called i figured i could run down to the car show and check out some cars, see what kind of deals i could make. That was an OK time. My sister made it suck very badly for me though. Don't feel like typing out the whole story right now. *shrugs* So still after that, no call from work, by this time it's about 9PM. I say to myself, fuck this i'm going over to Lora's house. Just so happened everyone was around. H was there rollin a blunt and La had picked up some Vodka. Not a bad night i must say. Now i'm home and trying to get myself ready for bed. What a week it's been. haha. I've been thinking a lot lately about people in my life. Or, people i'd like to have in my life. I wonder how rockstar is doing. If he's back home. If rockstar phone's home, make sure i'm on the list. :o) That's all for tonight, i have to work tomorrow 3 till close. Whenever that might be. There is a band playing tomorrow night. |
||||
| Post | ||||
| You Can't Tear Us Apart | ||||
| 01:25pm 01/05/2003 | ||||
Anyways, i started working out and taking some stuff to keep me healthy and going. Hopefully this will work this time. I'm watching what i'm eating and all that jazz. :o) I have been doing some waitressing at Franks Castle Grille. Not bad over there. I made a bit of money last weekend. I took a day road trip up to Wyoming, NY. If you don't know where that is... trust me.. you shouldn't know. It's the worst place upstate you could possibly go. That and the damn CANADIAN'S!! I don't know what else to say right now. But i think i will be trying to update this more often. :o) |
||||
| Read 2 - Post | ||||
creative| My So Called Life.. | ||||
| 12:42pm 03/03/2003 | ||||
I had such a scarey thought today. I was sitting here at work this morning checking my calendar here and i was amazed that it's March 2003 already. So D had to do the *tick tick tick* thing. For some reason i just blurted out "Damn look at the time i gotta get married soon". Than after i said it i realized just how bad that sounded. Like wow... me? married? Holy crap... i don't know. I mean i could.. and would do it. But now? I don't think i was thinking damn i need to get married like tomorrow or anything. I think i need to be in a relationship that looks like it could go that way though. I'm getting older and i don't wanna start a family when i'm 30 or anything. So i need to start a relationship like that soon. I've been having so much going though my mind lately about my life and my happiness. I like where i am and all, but i want so much more. I'm starting to be able to aquire all the little things around me that i've wanted and longed for. But there's still such a gaping hole. I'm going to stop this bitch-fest and get on with my life. |
||||
| Post | ||||
contemplative| Fa La La.. | ||||
| 10:54am 24/02/2003 | ||||
Jenny my sister went in for surgery Friday morning. She's doing a lot better now. But i had gotten out of work early that day to go down to the hospital to see her and stuffs. I ended up driving my father home with me and we went out to dinner and picked up some beer. We went the long way home and just talked and listened to good tunes. :o) I love hanging out with my daddy. Saturday morning we woke up nice and early to get to the hospital before the doctor saw Jenny. She got to come home though! So we all made our way home. It was so rainy and RT 17 was horridly flooded down there. We saw the craziest accident too! So we got home and Jenny relaxed and was able to eat something. She ended up having a few of her friends over and by than it was too late for me to go out and do something major. So i went over to Lora's house to drink and smoke with everyone. It was damn good times. :o) That was a crazy long night. So than Sunday i went to go see Stephen. :o) We had lots of fun. It was a really good time. hopefully we can see eachother soon. It's kinda a haul to get to him. But next time, it'll be his turn to drive to see me! :o) Nothing much else is going on lately. I've been working a lot and trying to keep to myself. Just hanging out with a few people, nothing major. I haven't gone to Q's in ages. Nore do i think i really want to. You know? Well i heard from Rockstar! :o) I hope all is well in his neck of the woods. I'll try to update again soon when something worth writing about happens. |
||||
| Post | ||||
| Record Amounts... | ||||
| 09:23am 18/02/2003 | ||||
Well first off i can start with Brian is back home. I have hung out with him bunches of times. Turns out he has a gf Leslie out in cali. or Nevada, where ever her father has taken her now. It also seems like a lot more happened too. It's a long story and not for everyone's eyes. It's a little too private i guess. Anyways, Brian and i have been having so much fun lately and i got to see Miles, Joe and Steve too. A few times there it was almost like old times. Than i think to everything that happened and where we all stand in our current lives. Nothing is the same anymore. Work has been crazy too. We are slammed and so totally busy over there. My boss hired this chick Kate from England. She's pretty nice from what i can see so far. Lora and i thought of maybe asking her to hang out with us sometime. Who knows though, we'll see how it all goes. The snow situation here BLOWS! There is way too much and no where to put it all. I've been snowed in for two days now. The town doesn't like to take care of my communities roads here. I wasn't able to get to work yet again today. My mom and sister are home here too. Which just makes this all the much worse. I need to get out of this house very very soon. I've been trying to spend a lot of time with my friends too. Doing something and anything to keep us all sane. Lora's house has been my safe haven for a while now. To just go over there and chill with her and her brother. To drink and smoke and have a good time. It's been helping me through this funk i've seemed to have gotten myself into again. I'd really like to kick it this time. I guess i haven't been on the Prozac long enough for it to really help me 24/7. The doctor said it would take many weeks possibly a month or two. So here i wait. I've been talking to some really nice people lately. Some of them really kick ass. I've been trying to take some new pics of me,.. but it just seems i always look like shit. haha. I have a few new ones if anyone is interested. So, i woke up this morning with this funny msg on my AIM. It was an old rockstar friend telling me i'm Back. Of course i went to his LJ to see if he had written anything about it. I think my rockstar came home. I cannot confirm that just yet though. But i will when i hear from him again. Well i have alos been in the mode of thinking.. why am i hear? As in,.. why am i living here in Jersey, the one state i cannot stand. Also why am i here with my mother. haha. My father is one thing, we all know i love him to death, but my mother,.. i dunno i could do without her bitching and whining. I think this is enough updating for now. I promise once again that i will try to update often. Even though i never keep the promise. I hope no one hates me. |
||||
| Read 2 - Post | ||||
discontent| He emailed again.. it's been months.... | ||||
| 03:12pm 28/01/2003 | ||||
talk to you later brian **** So what does this mean for me and my future? I have so many questions, so many comments and thoughts. I've never been the same since this all. What to do? |
||||
| Post | ||||
| 12:33pm 13/01/2003 | ||||
OK, Sunday i was able to finally get my spoiler put on that my parents got me for my birthday over TWO months ago. It took a long time to get it, and than my uncle had to paint it for me. So my dad and i went down there to get it all put on. It looks great. It really evens out the look of the car. I'm very excited about it. I'm at work right now so this won't be a huge update. But i just wanted to drop something in here for now. I hate how i've neglected this journal. I was so excited to get it at first. And now it seems like a chore to update it and let everyone what's going on. I'm always available by email too you all know. Just check my info and you can get it there. Well i'm off for now. I'll update more later. I swear! |
||||
| Post | ||||
busy| Wow... | ||||
| 11:32am 09/01/2003 | ||||
First was christmas time and family things. I did a lot of working as well. I'm trying to get enough money to pay my taxes come this spring. I got some cool stuff for X mas. A lot of the things i had asked for. Among the coolest of the gifts was my radar detector. Hehehe.. It's so bad ass. So i did the whole family holiday's thing and delt with all the crap that comes with it. To be honest i spent most of the time in a drunken daze. X mas night i got a 24 hour flu bug. It was fucking nasty, i thought i was going to die. But than i got better and was able to continue the rest of my short time off from work. Than came New Years eve. I did nothing. I sat at my house all alone, in my room, with my 12 pack watching the Young Ones DVD set i got for X mas. If you don't know who the Young Ones are go here and buy the DVD set haha. http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B00006AUH9/qid=1042129412/sr=8-1/ref=sr_8_1/002-8221906-6431208?v=glance&s;=dvd&n;=507846 My boss took Lora and me out to dinner that night being as no one had any plans. So i really brought in this new year the right way. Drunk and alone. Moving right along. The past few weeks here at work have been busy and stressful. I was going to quit smoking with my mom for the new year, but there's no way in god's green earth that i can do that right now. I'd end up smoking way too much pot. haha. Also, my earing for infected the other day and it started to hurt. So i treated it the way i would any other of my peircings. But this time, it didn't wanna work with me. I had to leave work yesterday and go to the urgent care to be looked at and to get some meds. The infection wasn't very gross looking, it is all inside. And being as it's inside, it spread to my neck and my glands all by my ear. Doctor said if i had waited till the morning (like i was going to do) that i would have been in the hospital getting IV meds to fix me up. Good thing my boss yelled at me and told me to go. Also, i have been making scarves. It's lots of fun. I'm actually working on one for my dad for his birthday. Hopefully i will be done with it by the 24th. I mean it's already like 1/4 done now. I work on it everynight when i get home from work and stuffs. The shack closed, so now we all have nothing to do. We all sit at home and wish we could all be together. I would love to have everyone at my house everynight, but i think my parents would mind a little bit. My mom and i have been getting along lately, which is the weirdest thing going on right now. She has actually been treating me like i'm her child. Wow right? Totally weird i know! My dad and i are getting closer every week. We are at the point where we can drink beers together and just talk about everything and anything. If my 'rockstar' friend reads this post (lord only knows) i want to tell him hello. And well.. that i sorta miss him. And that it would be nice to hear from him. Oh in better news Elimu is home for the time being! He was done with the Navy and was living in San Diggity as he says, for a while. Things got a little crazy and he's back home now. Looking for jobs, and new friends. It's nice that he's home and can start over again. I missed him while he was gone. We are like those friends who never stop talking. We can go months even a year without talking,.. than call eachother and be like.. OMG how the fuck are you!? Ya know? Cause in all the time he was gone i was going through all my Brian stuff and moving home and all the wonderful junk. Speaking of Brian, i went past the house the other week, and still to this day no one is living in that damn house yet. I was thinking of calling Miles and all the old guys, but i don't know if Brian has talked to them all since i last heard from him. And i don't know what i would say to them. You know? It's kinda hard after everything that happened for me to be able to feel OK with just calling or stopping by. *Shrugs* Myabe that's a part of my life i'm ment to forget about and move on from. Well i guess that's about it for now. I'll try to keep updating more. |
||||
| Read 4 - Post | ||||
cranky| The Weekend... | ||||
| 03:46pm 15/12/2002 | ||||
|
||||
| Post | ||||
tired| 02:47pm 12/12/2002 | ||||
|
||||
| Post | ||||
| 12:49am 07/12/2002 | ||||
|
||||
| Read 2 - Post | ||||
high| Just a few quizzes | ||||
| 03:16pm 01/12/2002 | ||||
 What lesser-known Simpsons character are you?  Which My So-Called Life Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty |
||||
| Post | ||||
| Just a Funny Little Quiz,.. | ||||
| 04:30pm 24/11/2002 | ||||
 Who are you most likely to fuck brought to you by Quizilla |
||||
| Post | ||||
calm| Long Fuckin | |||
| 02:28pm 24/11/2002 | |||
| Well i was too fucked up to update!! YAYYYY!! lol. Well i just woke up a little while ago. It's kinda late now. 2:30ish. I'm sitting here drinking my orange juice, hoping to regain some energy or something. It's kinda sucky. But i had a ton of fun last night. So i now don't know what the hell to do. OK? The Boy is very nice, but i can't take him anymore. I'm at that horrid breaking point, and i don't know what to say to him. I think i might have to think of something, and try to tell him today. Last night i went to the shack, just assuming a night of drinking and smoking. But it turned into Sara going to the club with everyone, and drinking.. than smoking till i wanted to pass out. Even weirder, i feel life today. Well as fine as someone in my state last night could feel the morning after. lol. I have no hang over,.. so sick tummy,.. just kinda weak.. you know? Well i guess that's it for now. I'm going to go. But i'll update more when it becomes readily available to me! | |||
| Post | |||
| What a Saturday | ||||
| 07:34pm 23/11/2002 | ||||
|
||||
| Post | ||||
| Yay!! | ||||
| 02:31am 23/11/2002 | ||||
|
||||
| Post | ||||
|
angela_incendia |
||
|
Friends Info Calendar My Website |
||
| skip | ||
| Backward | ||