CONTRIBUTOR . Exhorter . Facilitator . Mercy . Perceiver . Server . Teacher

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18. Profile of Contributor

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The module where you are conscious links together the Perceiver and Server modules; they get input respectively from the Teacher and Mercy parts. You get 'visions' from the Exhorter part, which itself links together Teacher and Mercy modules-you live, that is, at the very pinnacle of mental processing. Others find you extremely complex; they may despair of ever understanding you. You yourself often feel scattered, or fragmented.

You are strong-willed, even stubborn. When you meet someone else who is also strong-willed, there can be some real conflict. You use your stubbornness to decide things and to get things done.

You are very aware of small, personal expenses. You shop around for specials, trying to save a few pennies. Big expenses are numbers, they may not bother you as much; small expenses are real-they represent things you can feel and touch. You may drive your car around the block, for instance, to find a parking meter that still has some time left on it.

You are often comparing yourself to others. When you meet a new group of people, you quickly work out the correct 'pecking order,' and where you fit-you tell stories, you reminisce about past exploits, you demonstrate the 'right stuff.' You look for this quality in your listeners.

You particularly like a challenging mental problem or puzzle. If someone shares with you a riddle, you don't want to know the answer-you want to work it out for yourself. You may enjoy jigsaw and crossword puzzles and chess, for instance, if you think that you are good at them. You find these activities relaxing. You like proving, to yourself and to others, that you can do the mental work.

You are good at coming up with right answers, and winning an argument. Confrontation itself is not pleasant, of course-but you like a good verbal contest. An argument is a game; you like the challenge of winning. It tests your intelligence. You may actually switch sides to get something going. You might decide as you read this, in fact, that you will not be identified as a Contributor.

Losing affects your self-image and your confidence; you will refuse to compete if you feel that your chances of winning are too low. Fear of losing can actually cause you to sit back and do nothing at all!

Tell me, when is the last time that you ever apologized? It's hard for you to 'say sorry,' isn't it? An apology puts another higher in the 'pecking order.' It gives him an advantage. It affects your confidence. You won't usually risk that.

Often you specialize into some narrow area of expertise: "This is where I'm good. Don't compare me to others, except in this area." Here, in your chosen field, you become highly expert. Underneath that professional exterior, however, lies the same fragile self-image. You wish you were 'confident' enough to relax and to 'be yourself.'

You are one who makes long-range plans. You probably know, already, what you might be doing five years from now. Step by step, you make decisions to bring this into reality.

Your actions are always compared, mentally, to your goal, or 'bottom line.' You look for opportunities-things you can do to meet your goal. Perhaps you want to make money (the easiest way to 'keep score'); maybe you want to be well-known intellectually. Opportunities pop out at you; suddenly you notice them. You wonder: "Why are other people so blind?"

Faced with projects that originate from others-schoolwork or chores, for example-you can be unbelievably lazy. Literally, you lack the energy to lift your tiny finger. With personal plans, in contrast, the 'carrot and stick' of vision and conscience drive you to work harder. You feel guilty sitting around and doing nothing. You always feel that you could have done a better job.

You like to keep your projects secret until you know that they will succeed. You don't want others to alter your plan, or to start making decisions for you. You don't want your ideas stolen. If you are going to fail, you won't do it in public. If people ask you about your project, you won't give the details-you want to be responsible for your own success. When everything is ready, then you will unveil the finished product.

You actually 'see' yourself, in advance, doing your plans. It is the same ability that allows you to practice a task in your head. You can imagine skiing down a ski slope, for instance; you close your eyes and visualize yourself traversing every twist and turn. You can both fantasize, and control this inner picture.

The Perceiver thinks geometrically, but lacks your vivid imagination. Every picture for you, it seems, includes both a 'mental ruler' or metric, and the image itself. You have the ability to write in a straight line, for example, and to lay things out, without much help from rulers and yardsticks. It's there in your head. You are good at calligraphy or drawing signs and posters. When you wish, you can have a beautiful handwriting.

As you plan, you cover your bases. You try to protect yourself from possible failure. You think ahead of time, visually, of all the things that might go wrong and of what you would do in each case: "If this happens, then I would-"

Others may feel that you are a gambler, you disagree-as far as you are concerned, you have covered every possible problem. Whatever you cannot do successfully, you avoid in the future. Your plans improve.

It really bothers you when other people help you or do things for you. You feel indebted to them, and under their control, until you can 'even the score.' It is no problem, of course, if things are part of a business deal. Every interaction, though, must balance out; you like to be self-sufficient. If others have given to you and you remain obligated to them-for success in particular-it can affect your self-esteem.

You make a sharp distinction between what is yours, and what belongs to someone else. You have a strong sense of ownership. Every object is connected in your mind with some person: "This belongs to me, that is yours." It does not mean that you do not give-you know precisely, though, when something stops being yours and starts belonging to someone else.

At the same time, you like to join in partnership with others, sharing the profit and the risks. You respect those who can make decisions; you want to work with them. Each of you has control over part of the project. If you took total control, then the others wouldn't be your partners; you couldn't respect them as equals. As a result, control is shared. You may have had a bad experience with partnerships; if so, then perhaps you now avoid them.

Optimization is a major part of your planning. You do things as quickly as possible; you try to get rid of unnecessary steps. Once you have improved your method as much as you can, then you will no longer change it.

In particular, you eliminate social 'small talk.' Perhaps you tell stories, this has a goal-it lets others know about adventures you experienced, deals you won, or enemies you defeated; it gains their respect. Maybe you talk about the weather or sports with sales prospects-again, this has a purpose. But if you were ever to sit down with your marriage partner or children, just to talk, about nothing, they would probably be suspicious: "Alright, what are you trying to get from us now?"

You go out of your way to give to people who are in need. You want to help them so that they can stand on their own two feet. You do not worry about your peers-they can fend for themselves. The homeless, disabled, retarded and poor, though, need your assistance.

You hate, though, to see your tax dollars going to support the 'bums' on welfare. You don't want the government to take money that you have earned and give it to people who have not worked for it-even if they are poor. You give money to those in need, but not to those who could work and won't. You probably feel that you could do a better job of giving the money away than the government is doing.

You likely have a large home, and perhaps, if you can afford it, a second cottage in the country. Your home is your castle, and a center of hospitality. You love to have friends over for dinner.

Deep inside you, hidden away, is a darker side to your person. You experience real fears and anxieties: "The airplane will crash. I will become mentally ill. In some way I will lose control." Others express their fears, your anxieties are generally very private; you share them only with close friends and family.

You probably enjoy reading mystery, suspense, escape and possibly horror stories. These play with your fears and your curiosity. You read them to relax, after a long day's work. You enjoy searching for the villain in a whodunit. You like to see characters in an escape story faced with a challenge: "How will they respond?" Real problems are being discussed-you can learn something, at least you can sharpen your skills.

You are particularly attracted to challenge and adventure. Danger, for you, is the spice of life. There must be the possibility that something could go wrong-it plays with your fears. At the same time, you must be absolutely certain that you have guarded against accidents, and that nothing can go wrong. You plan carefully, and then-you climb the mountain, fly the balloon, race the car, or perhaps, join the space program. You explore, everywhere, the outer limits of experience.

You travel more than others, and enjoy the experiences that come with travel so much that you could handle living out of a suitcase, and sleeping in a different bed each night. You love to see the world, and how other people are living. Travel allows you to escape from pressure; you could easily spend a good part of your life visiting one country after another. When you return, you may tell stories about the experiences you have had. You show souvenirs and pictures to friends.

You live at the top levels of thought; the rest of your mind is necessary, in your subconscious, to give you the tools you need to think and to be successful. You probably sense this need. If you are on good terms with your mind, then you may believe in a 'God' of miracles, who helps to make your plans successful. If in contrast you have shut out parts of your thinking, especially the Mercy part-"I will be my own God. I don't need help."-then you likely despise 'God.' You see him as a weak and sentimental being; he is waiting gently (as your subconscious Mercy part is waiting), in love, for you to turn to him.

If you feel confident and in control of your life, you may see the outside world as similar: you might believe in fate or predestination. If life has been less kind to you, then you are possibly more superstitious, or a believer in 'luck.' In both cases you 'believe'; you are often a person of real 'faith.'

If this sounds like you, then you could have the traits of a Contributor.