all

on a bet

hell test

notes

disclaimer: i apologize for nothing. i believe mind (not necessarily yours) creates energy & matter and as much as this is labeled by the majority as idiotic, i think i'm believing it well, because it allows me to be happy here & now. read from the bottom up, time is irrelevant here. leave if it fills you with hate.

note: if you dig deep enough & on many levels you will find nothing. read now!




















2003-05-28 - 3:55 a.m.

> 360 x 3 1/2 <

wuz gonna keep this for
the party, but i feel i
need to get all this 'has
actually happened" stuff

outta the way to deal more
with stuff that happens but
it's so obvious to you it
can't. this one time i'm

driving thru the czech republic,
they have like one main freeway
that crosses the country rolling
up and down the hills, it's late

and it's winter and i'm getting
really tired and i don't wanna
fall asleep driving, so i pull
over into a truck stop, let the

engine idle to provide me with
anti freezing air and take a
quick nap from about 2am till
7am in the morning when i'm all

fresh and ready to complete my
drive to the border, i get up
to my usual 90mph (145kmph to
be dial accurate) and as i get

to the top of the 1st hill for
the day, guess what i see not
100 yards in front of me in the
so called fast lane? a frikkin

snowplough cruising along at
some velocity that looked more
like stalled to me, so by the
time i veer right and hear

a swoosh that lets me know i've
avoided the fatal impact, i'm
already sideways looking into
the woods. so now the time shifts

into lower gear for me, i have
time to wonder about some particles
of dust that seem to linger a while
in front of my eyez and as they

dance slowly, i see the center
divider now, but the dance is so
beautiful, the dust particles are
not turning around each other at

all, but their being suspended
like that right in front of my
stare seems eerie and there are
cars coming at me now and now

there's the woods again and my
dust particles seem to just
lazily spin around themselves
and everything is silent and

peaceful and there's that center
divider, cars, woods, cars,
center divider, the sound is
back, where have my dancing

dust particles gone and kaboom!
i hit the center divider at some
non-lethal speed it seems, but
there you have it, after dancing

with my dust particles round &
round & round the freeway like
that. turns out the front of my
car was blown to pieces, and

the radiator just a bit punctured,
but other than that, engine starts
and off i go after some perplexed
people in the cars behind keep

saying they've never seen such
spinning anywhere, including the
latest movies that feature car
chases & other extravaganza.

the moral of this story is two
fold, first, you can try to avoid
shit by doing the right thing, ie
pull over and sleep if you feel

tired, but if it's structured in
the moment, it'll catch up to you
just as soon as you think you have
everything licked, second, i'm not

so sure about this time slowing
thing, let's see, i've been thru
time slowing like that 3 times
in my life (all in cars that

weren't supposed to do that) and
once standing in front of the
bathroom mirror and i just have
a slight suspicion that when

this shit happens, planes are
shuffled underneath you, but i
won't get into that because
this is a holistic entry about

what has actually happened and
everyone could agree that it did,
by and large, so we'll just leave
it at the usual: it bends for me!

*note: the physical explanation as
of why i spun that much is because
i was going fast and there was slosh
in between the lanes, as long as you
kept a lane, you could go fast, but
if you tried to abrubtly veer right,
which i had to do in order to extend
my life briefly, you were airborne.

 

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