From: Liliana (12-239-184-39.client.attbi.com)
Subject: I guess you didn't read my post from the other board before it was deleted
Date: June 1, 2003 at 8:28 am PST
In Reply to: I though... posted by Keegan on June 1, 2003 at 7:24 am:
I never thought I had anorexia b/c I do eat- a ton. Usually I have three big meals and three snacks too. But apparently you can eat a lot and still have anorexia. I have most of the physical symptoms (the heart problems, the low blood pressure that changes when I stand, being more than 15% below normal weight, having lost weight, etc.) and most of the mental ones as well- fear of gaining weight, guilt after eating too much, etc. (I didn't count calories religiously, but if anything, that was the problem b/c I thought I was eating more calories than I actually was). I also cut my food up into small pieces, take an eternity to eat, and drink lots of water... oh and I am a perfectionist and control freak. So when I searched online and on every site, found that I had basically all the symptoms, I had to face reality (I still don't like the way my cardiologist treated me, though. Even my nutritionist and pediatrician think that she could have treated me with more respect and all).
As I said in my other post, I am sorry for lying and saying I didn't have an ED, but I was lying to myself, too.
-Liliana
