Xena: Warrior Princess

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Black Gryphon

Disclaimer: The characters, Xena, Gabrielle and all others found of the show Xena: Warrior Princess belong to MCA/Renaissance. The story itself is mine and permission is needed before copies or extensions can be made. This story also contains the love between two women, if this offends you, I suggest you leave, if not, enjoy.

Day 1: In Athens.

Gabrielle: Look what Xena got for me today, a diary! She said that she heard that these are good for getting frustrations out without hurting anyone, personally, I think she's trying to shut me up. Any case scenario, for whatever reason she bought it, I love it, she even had my name put on it. Come to think of it, I love anything that Xena gives me, like that little wooden lamb she got me for Solstice.

Something else odd today, Xena not only bought a diary for me, she bought one for herself as well.

This being a gift from Xena, I plan to write in it daily.

Xena: I wish I had the money to buy something for Gabrielle every day, the look on her face was worth the work, (And the money if Derek and Semel hadn't owed me a favor,) a thousand times over, at least. My one question is this, why didn't I have them put them put Gabrielle's name on both of the books? If I use this more than five times over the next month it'll be a miracle.

Anyway, the import thing is that Gabrielle is happy, and right now she's brighter than a fire.

Day 2: In Athens.

Gabrielle: I had a wonderful time in Athens this visit. I visited the academy, shopped around, mainly in the food area, and saw the sites. I do regret, however, going to the oracle. She told Xena and I something about canvas? I don't understand.

I've been trying to write a new poem for Xena, it's not going anywhere. I haven't been able to write one since my song from the last time we were in Athens.

Xena's downstairs right now and I don't think she'll be up until close to dawn, so, I hitting the hay.

Xena: I think Gabrielle's rubbing off on me, not only have I stopped killing and bedding men on a regular basis, but now I seem to have stopped drinking too. I had one port and then I decided to drink some kind one tea that Gabrielle like, pretty good too.

Look at her. So serene, so beautiful; who said 'that which you most desire is usually right under your nose'? Ironic, 'that which I most desire' probably knows. Every day I have to force myself to remember that she's not a virgin, that her love belongs to Perdicus and not to me. That I'm completely without a prayer to win her love.

Day 3: 1 day out of Athens.

Gabrielle: Dear Diary, you know, that never made sense until now, I spent most of the day trying to figure out what the oracle was talking about. I asked Xena about what she thought it meant , 'easy money' she said, probably right.

About noon we met up with Joxer, Xena managed to send him off on a wild goose chase, I know he's gullible and normally I wouldn't say anything because Xena's sly. Today is a different story though, the wild goose chase sent him on is just that, he's chasing a wild goose.

Now, I'm sitting in camp, writing this and watching Xena sharpen her sword. I'd give three years of my life to know what she's thinking. Probably something like this: 'Why is she staring at me? No, sharper. Maybe she wants to know how I liked the supper she made. That'll do, now for the Chakram.'

I might as well go to sleep

Day 4: 2 days out of Athens.

Gabrielle: Dull day today, killed an hour or two by telling Xena the story of Icarus, for the third time. I hate to say/write this but I wish something exciting would happen. Correction, something exciting AND peaceful.

Anyw* Xena's laughing!? If only that sound could be caught within an instrument! I'll be back.

Turns out that I hoard of squirrels stole my walnuts! Looks like I'll have to wait until the next time we go to Athens to have some. Athens is about the only place to get walnuts, and the only place were they don't cost a fortune. At least I got my excitement.

Day 5: 3 days out of Athens.

Gabrielle: Another dull day, Joxer came back and left again, Xena told him that he'd caught the wrong goose. This is honestly pathetic. How could anyone believe a story so obviously fake? I guess that he's in love with her, no, if that's the case then why am I not believing everything that she says. I suppose that Joxer is just Joxer, no one can explain him, anyone who tries just gets a headache. I know, I've tried.

Anyway, on to something else. I learned my lesson yesterday, don't wish for something, it'll come true in the worst possible way. I miss my walnuts. I wish, no, let me rephrase that, it's a pity that we can't go back to Athens. I'd ask Xena about it but I know the answer before I ask the question.

On the plus side, Xena told me that there's a good sized village that we can reach by the end of tomorrow. After we go there then I think that we'll be going to visit Cyriene. It'll be nice to see her again, I almost wish that she wasn't Xena's mother, then I could ask her advice about how to tell her daughter how I feel. Light at the end of the tunnel becomes visible for a split second before the cavern gives way and blocks it, so is the story of my love life.

Xena: Look what I found in the bottom of my saddle bag. I forgot all about this. I thought about it some more, and I have removed all doubt from my mind that this should have gone to Gabrielle. I wish I could see her face light up like that again, the Elysian Fields dim in comparison. If her face lit up like that whenever I came into sight.; the Fields don't even have any sway, in fact, if that were a blessing I could have, it would make the Fields look like pits of Tartarus.

I just got an idea, Gabrielle lost all of her walnuts to those squirrels last night. Why didn't I do something? It was funny, but Gabrielle had been waiting for about two months to have some. Anyway I just thought of a way for my bard to have her treat. It'll cost a lot, but it's worth it.

Day 6: In the town of Promad.

Gabrielle: Xena was right, this is a good sized town, not even close to Athens, but pretty large. I've never been here before, but Xena apparently has because she knew her way around and she says its only two days to Cyriene's. Well, we'll get there on the third day in the morning.

Xena's been acting a little strange today, she was gone for about an hour on "business," best not to ask I guess. Still I wonder what kind of business she went on.

For me this day was a little long, not much at the stalls that was interesting. I did on the other hand fill up our coffers at the tavern downstairs, and I got this room for doing such a good job of attracting customers. This room, almost an impossible dream, one large bed, and its too warm tonight to sleep in more than a shift. I guess I'm allowed to dream.

Xena: From the looks of it Gabrielle did a good job of barding tonight. I know she doesn't realize what she's doing to me, but why did she have to get a room like this? Every time I look at her I'm torn three ways, one part says to leave her one night with a note explaining why I left, another wants her to melt into my arms, and yet another that I hate myself for tells me to take her then and there. Mind, heart and body, in that order, always fighting. At least the body part isn't too hard to resist, I've had too much practice for it to be a problem.

It's too bad I had to stretch the truth about that business thing today. What I was doing was finding a messenger who'd do me a favor. I needed to find someone who would ride to Athens, buy some walnuts, then get to my mother's the day after we arrived. A bag of walnuts usually costs two dinars, this little endeavor cost me four dinars now and eight on delivery, it's worth it. If I can make Gabrielle shine again I'd have paid triple the amount.

Day 9: Cyriene's Inn.

Gabrielle: Xena had a good idea on the road, don't waste space in the diary if nothing happened during the day. Well, here we are in Xena's old room, well, here 'I' am in Xena's old room, she's out in the tavern drinking. I wish she wouldn't do that, every time she does she wakes up with a horrible headache. Come to think of it, that last morning in Athens was different, she seemed fine. I guess it's one of the mysteries of the world.

I think that I will talk with Cyriene about me and Xena, she may be her mother, but her advice is worth its weight in gold.

Xena: I'm sure that Gabrielle's rubbing off on me now. I almost gave my mother a heart attack tonight when I asked for that tea.

I also learned that my mother is psychic. When I told her about how felt about Gabrielle she told me only one thing: "About time you admitted it, I knew you loved her for over a year now." She promised not to tell Gabrielle about it so I guess that's ended well enough, strange, I feel better having told someone.

Also, after Gabrielle went to bed the messenger I sent for the walnuts got here early. I like this guy, he even checked the bags to find the best one. I could have sworn I heard my mother snicker when I paid the man.

Why am I writing in this thing anyway? I'll have to give Gabrielle a stern talking-to about influencing me.

Day 10: Cyriene's Inn.

Gabrielle: Today went strangely, when I woke up Xena gave me a bag of walnuts, I don't know how she got them, then, like the idiot that I am, I ran up and kissed her. I was lucky, she took it that I really loved walnuts, which I do, and that I was just thanking her. I meant to hug her, but, I got carried away and our lips met, I enjoyed it, but I shouldn't have let it happen.

When I told Cyriene that I loved Xena she just smiled and said 'I know dear' and walked off. Later she said she would be secretive about it. I wonder if she knows I'm still a virgin? Sometimes I wish that I hadn't had that 'special' wine with the saltpeter mixed in at my wedding. Maybe I might have gotten pregnant and Xena would have volunteered to be a father-figure for the baby. Maybe something could have grown from there.

Why am I doing this to myself?

Xena: There's a saying my mother told me today; die now. It means life will never be better so quit while you're ahead. I think I safely say that today was the best day of my life. When I gave Gabrielle the walnuts she kissed me! A full, almost-passionate kiss on the lips. She'd just gotten up so I told her to get dressed, while she was doing so, I left and then fainted in the hallway. That's when my mother told me the proverb.

I used to be so strong, I still am, when I fight, but if Gabrielle wanted to, she could wrap me around her little finger so tightly that I'd have to ask her if I could breath, I'd be hapless against her. At least I fell for who I did and not someone like Callisto, that would be really bad.

Day 11: Cyriene's Inn

Gabrielle: Today was as it usually is at the inn, not quite dull, just, routine.

I am on the other hand embarrassed to even know Joxer's name, let alone him. He found us today, with another goose. This wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't fallen for the same speech again, and I mean word for word. I hate to say this, but, Joxer needs help.

I wish we could stay at the inn a while longer, but, the life with Xena, she heard about some kind of brigand group to the east about five days from here. We leave in the morning, I was asked if I wanted to stay, but, I love Xena, it's a stupid love but love her I do, if something happened to her and I wasn't there, I'd hate myself for the rest of my life.

Xena: I wish Gabrielle would stay behind for once, but I won't force her. She can take care of herself. Why don't I believe myself? I'm about to go to sleep and she's already been sleeping for an hour or so. I look at her and I see so much beauty, I'd give my life for her if she so much as asked for it. Gods above, you have achieved any goals you may have set to reach a perfect human, somehow you made Gabrielle.

Perdicus, you were the luckiest person ever to live, you were given two things that any sane king would have laid down his kingdom to possess either one. You were given Gabrielle and, more importantly, her love. I hate to ask this, but how did you spend your wedding night? How many times did you say 'I love you' or 'you're so beautiful? Or were you a complete fool and submit to sex immediately?

Gabrielle asks for so little and only wants thanks or love in return, she would make an ideal mother.

Day 13: 2 days from the inn, on the road.

Xena: I told Gabrielle not to write unless something happens, I should be heading the same advice. I have to get something off my chest one way or another.

Gods and goddesses, any who may hear my prayer or see this page, I wish there was a way that I could know exactly how Gabrielle feels toward me. I also wish that for one night that she would, no, forget that. Long ago I said I wouldn't ever force myself on her, this is the same thing.

Day 15: 1 day from the town.

Gabrielle: Not much happened today, well, I did finish off my walnuts. Tomorrow we go to the town that has the bandit problem. I won't wish for success, I learned my lesson two weeks ago, but I hope it goes well.

To Be Continued……

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