It certainly has been a while since i last updated here.
Anyway. I am not sure if i am happy with what i am, with what i have right now.
At this point in time, i feel quite frustrated & confused.
My heart has this constant doubt, and it feels heavy. I have no idea what to do to ease the feeling and perhaps that's the reason for being upset.
wth.
the lost cheerleader
This is my own personal writing space. I'm am free to write wadever i want, and to express meanings in my OWN way. So if YOU are NOT happy with anything i write, u can just close the window, and get out. peace.
Monday, October 10, 2005
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Life is REALLY boring
Life is really boring and monotonous right now.. School from Mon-Tue, Attachment from wed-fri. Field Assessments coming up.. good grief! When will Sept come??
Its scary how fast time flies. Before you know it, i would probably have graduated and be... SOMEWHERE.
Suddenly i don't wish to go overseas. Suddenly i want to stay in Singapore. There is something MORE in Singapore than overseas. If you get what i am referring to. Or rather, WHO i am referring to.
Anyway, i have to learn to be more positive and not keep whining abd complaining about work. But by doing so, it sort of releases the tension i have inside. I have to relaese it before all the stress and tension kills me slowly..
cos sometimes i just wanna give up..
Hmm.
And I would like to add, Sleep is a privilege.
Sigh. May i still remain sane at the end of this semester.
il&my.;
Its scary how fast time flies. Before you know it, i would probably have graduated and be... SOMEWHERE.
Suddenly i don't wish to go overseas. Suddenly i want to stay in Singapore. There is something MORE in Singapore than overseas. If you get what i am referring to. Or rather, WHO i am referring to.
Anyway, i have to learn to be more positive and not keep whining abd complaining about work. But by doing so, it sort of releases the tension i have inside. I have to relaese it before all the stress and tension kills me slowly..
cos sometimes i just wanna give up..
Hmm.
And I would like to add, Sleep is a privilege.
Sigh. May i still remain sane at the end of this semester.
il&my.;
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
hellooooo people!!
i know i haven't been updating here.. oopsie!
haha. Anyway, to siti and mag (in case u didn't see the tagboard) lets meet up soon!!! To catch up and talk and do some girl stuff!! =)
Anyway, i am soo happie!! i learnt parallel parking today! And its not as difficult as i thought it would be!! heh heh heh.
sooo exciting. My FTT (Final Theory Test) is coming up soon on the 22nd!! Hope i can pass it on my first try, so i won't need to re-register (and get a very late date, cause i am a private student and not from their school-UNFAIR!!!!).
Wish me luck!! n God bless u people!
Have a great time in school!!!!!
i know i haven't been updating here.. oopsie!
haha. Anyway, to siti and mag (in case u didn't see the tagboard) lets meet up soon!!! To catch up and talk and do some girl stuff!! =)
Anyway, i am soo happie!! i learnt parallel parking today! And its not as difficult as i thought it would be!! heh heh heh.
sooo exciting. My FTT (Final Theory Test) is coming up soon on the 22nd!! Hope i can pass it on my first try, so i won't need to re-register (and get a very late date, cause i am a private student and not from their school-UNFAIR!!!!).
Wish me luck!! n God bless u people!
Have a great time in school!!!!!
Monday, May 16, 2005
Cockroach Fears
Read if you dare
Was happily talking to Jolyn on the phone, minding my own business, when i spotted, or rather, HEARD something. You know, the "piak piak piak" sounds you'll hear when an insect flies and hits against the light? Yep. THAT sound.
I looked up and lo and behold, it was a GIGANTIC FLYING COCKROACH!!!!!!!!!!! *hair stands*
Alright. Now, i am perfectly okay with cockroaches that CRAWLS. As long as i avoid it, it will leave me alone. But it being in my house and not to mention, sprouting WINGS is another story altogether.
So i was using my cushion as a shield in case the cockroach decides to "attack" me. And i was "screaming" when the THING flew within a one metre radius of me. Told Jolyn i had to get off the phone and hide. IMMEDIATELY!
Ran to my mum's room , and my mummy stirs in her sleep. I frantically announce that there is this HUGE FLYING COCKROACH and "begs" her to kill it. (DIE ROACH DIE!!!!!) She calmly took a newspaper and wacked the unsuspecting roach, who was by now, crawling on the wall.
Well, it didn't die. Probably the hit only caught it offguard. So, it dropped to the floor, behind the couch. And when we looked, (actually it was my mum who looked, i was still keeping my one metre radius. i merely peeped.)it was GONE! It had performed some disappearing act. My mum told me she couldnt find it, and although i was uneasy, i had no choice! i only hoped that it wouldn't find its way into my room..
Upon coming out of the shower, and attempting to continue where i left off at the computer, i spotted a movement at the corner of my eye. ta-daa! *cockroach appears* and it was in front of me!!! crawling on... (this is hilarious) the BAYGON spray can. Ha Ha Ha!!!
I yell. "Mummy!!! I found the cockcoach!!!" (Nothing to be proud of) and she comes out again. i was screaming, and she calls me: "XIAO".
Gosh, my mummy is so brave. *applaude please*
So she wacks it a second time, and it went somewhere! (Yet another disappearing act! Gosh is this roach a houdini in disguise or what?!) And my laptop was there!! I refused to go near it, and i HAD to shut it down, somehow. I ask my mum to search carefully! By then i was already preparing NOT to sleep, in case i wake up with IT nearer to me that i would have liked it.
Finally, she spots it at the corner of the kitchen door's wall. With one mighty SLAP she kills it.
*standing ovation*
*geri's evil MWUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA laugh*
You cannot possibly imagine how relieved and thankful i was at that moment.
It was REALLY HUGE lah!! Say, around the length of my thumb?? Eeks!! All brown, big & ugly.
i hope i don't get nightmares.
On a brighter note, at least i can sleep in my room!! =)
p/s. i cannot believe that i can write an ENTIRE entry on a cockroach.
p/p/s.
-i was rather tempted to take a photo of the dead creature-To emphasize on its SIZE.
But, number one, i hardly think you guys would enjoy such a photo. And secondly, you might think i am sadistic.
Correct correct???
so the dead roach is resting peacefully in the bin..
Was happily talking to Jolyn on the phone, minding my own business, when i spotted, or rather, HEARD something. You know, the "piak piak piak" sounds you'll hear when an insect flies and hits against the light? Yep. THAT sound.
I looked up and lo and behold, it was a GIGANTIC FLYING COCKROACH!!!!!!!!!!! *hair stands*
Alright. Now, i am perfectly okay with cockroaches that CRAWLS. As long as i avoid it, it will leave me alone. But it being in my house and not to mention, sprouting WINGS is another story altogether.
So i was using my cushion as a shield in case the cockroach decides to "attack" me. And i was "screaming" when the THING flew within a one metre radius of me. Told Jolyn i had to get off the phone and hide. IMMEDIATELY!
Ran to my mum's room , and my mummy stirs in her sleep. I frantically announce that there is this HUGE FLYING COCKROACH and "begs" her to kill it. (DIE ROACH DIE!!!!!) She calmly took a newspaper and wacked the unsuspecting roach, who was by now, crawling on the wall.
Well, it didn't die. Probably the hit only caught it offguard. So, it dropped to the floor, behind the couch. And when we looked, (actually it was my mum who looked, i was still keeping my one metre radius. i merely peeped.)it was GONE! It had performed some disappearing act. My mum told me she couldnt find it, and although i was uneasy, i had no choice! i only hoped that it wouldn't find its way into my room..
Upon coming out of the shower, and attempting to continue where i left off at the computer, i spotted a movement at the corner of my eye. ta-daa! *cockroach appears* and it was in front of me!!! crawling on... (this is hilarious) the BAYGON spray can. Ha Ha Ha!!!
I yell. "Mummy!!! I found the cockcoach!!!" (Nothing to be proud of) and she comes out again. i was screaming, and she calls me: "XIAO".
Gosh, my mummy is so brave. *applaude please*
So she wacks it a second time, and it went somewhere! (Yet another disappearing act! Gosh is this roach a houdini in disguise or what?!) And my laptop was there!! I refused to go near it, and i HAD to shut it down, somehow. I ask my mum to search carefully! By then i was already preparing NOT to sleep, in case i wake up with IT nearer to me that i would have liked it.
Finally, she spots it at the corner of the kitchen door's wall. With one mighty SLAP she kills it.
*standing ovation*
*geri's evil MWUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA laugh*
You cannot possibly imagine how relieved and thankful i was at that moment.
It was REALLY HUGE lah!! Say, around the length of my thumb?? Eeks!! All brown, big & ugly.
i hope i don't get nightmares.
On a brighter note, at least i can sleep in my room!! =)
p/s. i cannot believe that i can write an ENTIRE entry on a cockroach.
p/p/s.
-i was rather tempted to take a photo of the dead creature-To emphasize on its SIZE.
But, number one, i hardly think you guys would enjoy such a photo. And secondly, you might think i am sadistic.
Correct correct???
so the dead roach is resting peacefully in the bin..
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Long Lost friend, where are u?
i was trying to search for my LONG LOST primary school friend on FRIENDSTER.. but i failed.
AHH! If only the searches could be REALLY specific, then i can list down all the details about her!! Instead of having to type in ONE sing pathetic detail resulting in hundreds of search "matches"
Well, actually i still have her home telephone number. i could ALWAYS give her a call (provided her number is still the same)
i wonder if she remembers me??
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Reading "Life of Pi" right now by Yann Martel.. Not bad! haha
AHH! If only the searches could be REALLY specific, then i can list down all the details about her!! Instead of having to type in ONE sing pathetic detail resulting in hundreds of search "matches"
Well, actually i still have her home telephone number. i could ALWAYS give her a call (provided her number is still the same)
i wonder if she remembers me??
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Reading "Life of Pi" right now by Yann Martel.. Not bad! haha
Friday, April 29, 2005
hot weather
In weathers like this, with rising tempertures, (or so it seems) i am thankful that my hair is short.
I think the weather is going to leave a "so-called" permanent scowl on my face.
Swimming today was not even considered a swim. The pool was being cleaned! Of all the days! These things only happen to me okay. *grumbles* And they sure took a long time to get it done. Sally & I were feeling so hot that we decided to just laze around in the children's pool. At least it was way better than waiting under the shade. Finally when the cleaning seemed more or less done, we jumped in. I think I am so going with them on Monday to chill out at Jurong..
I feel super sleepy, but sleep is the last thing on my mind. Sleeping now in my room without any aircon and breeze is purely suicidal. I'll probably wake up with a splitting headache or I wouldn't even be willing to wake up, "drowsiness" caused by the heat.
Showers no longer help, cos the minute I leave the bathroom, all I have to do is just to walk 10 steps, and in less than five minutes I’ll start perspiring all over again.
So, Sentosa anyone? Heh heh.
I think the weather is going to leave a "so-called" permanent scowl on my face.
Swimming today was not even considered a swim. The pool was being cleaned! Of all the days! These things only happen to me okay. *grumbles* And they sure took a long time to get it done. Sally & I were feeling so hot that we decided to just laze around in the children's pool. At least it was way better than waiting under the shade. Finally when the cleaning seemed more or less done, we jumped in. I think I am so going with them on Monday to chill out at Jurong..
I feel super sleepy, but sleep is the last thing on my mind. Sleeping now in my room without any aircon and breeze is purely suicidal. I'll probably wake up with a splitting headache or I wouldn't even be willing to wake up, "drowsiness" caused by the heat.
Showers no longer help, cos the minute I leave the bathroom, all I have to do is just to walk 10 steps, and in less than five minutes I’ll start perspiring all over again.
So, Sentosa anyone? Heh heh.
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