"Bitter At God"

by

Melody


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The following letter was written in response to a comment by a transgendered individual that she was bitter at God for all the pain and anguish that she was suffering.

Dear C......,

I was moved by your message to offer what little comfort I can provide with the written word. You are not alone at feeling bitter with God, for so many here have felt the same way. I sure know I have, and still do on many occasions. The Bible itself is a clear indication that many who follow the Lord have at many times been angry or bitter with Him. Take David and his many psalms. It's hardest, in my experience, for those with a background of abuse or neglect to envision how much our wonderful God truly loves us.

As humans we humanize the characteristics of God's love when His love is far greater than we can hope or imagine in this world. 1 Corinthians 13:12 clearly tells us this, after the beauty of how Gods perfect love is described in a picture that makes the heart yearn for something greater.

1Cor 13:12 reads: "For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known."

You see, we will have a skewed view of love until we are fully face to face with God. The amazing thing is that He yearns to have us fully know this love. As it states, "I have been", shows that God fully knows you and loves you as you are this very instant. Remember for God so loved the world He gave first. His only son as a ransom for all sin.

Trust me when I tell you I hurt and I cry. I yearn for that love for I have never experienced anything close to it in my life. But it doesn't make things feel less crappy at times. I ask myself why am I such an outcast, or why did my life have to be like it is? How can I be happy with such obstacles to overcome? Answers to those questions seem to be always just out of reach. Like the Bible said, I can only see that love dimly. But Gods promise is there for me to hold on to, with the hope He has given me that the faith I have will lead me to Him, for He sees when I do not.

I gain my confidence in this faith because it is not my own, but a free gift from Him, sealing His covenant of love on my heart. Ephesians 2:8 "For it is by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God." There is little doubt with these words that God does not want to shower us with His perfect love.

Please do not dismiss the power of these scriptures, for they were given to us to set us free. Free to respond to God with the unbridled emotion, desire, and will to love Him as unconditionally as He loves us.

God is so madly in love with you that He can't contain his joy when you turn to Him and allow Him to love you. It makes my heart leap with joy knowing that He is waiting for me with open arms. Looking at me with eyes that see past all my failures and pain. His eyes know my heart and He loves me. He waits for me to come and dance with Him and be in His embrace. I know He will shower you with His love, for that is His promise. A promise made in blood. A promise made in agony. A promise made in brokenness. A promise made in His perfect love.

I am praying for you.
Melody


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