The Inner-process of myself

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PART7 – The Inner Process of me as a Demon

What Now?

Human beings – I am not here to bring you this understanding or realization or awareness – whatever the hell you prefer to refer to my experience of obtainment of information about the truth of existence, the truth of creation and the truth of your experience of yourselves in this reality nor am I here to bring you a solution.

Unfortunately this one you're going to have to figure out by yourselves, you're on your own as you have always been on your own with companions as consciousness systems. Unless you immediately fall into the application of the protection mechanisms of consciousness systems through justification, denial and defence and continue to accept, allow and participate within consciousness as who and what you believe and perceive yourselves to really be.

Good luck with that though! Here is all of it – all that has been allowed to be created by you with assistance and support of consciousness systems that couldn't have done it without your provision of life force essence as power source as who and what you really are. You created this entire and total existence and experience of humanity on earth – each and every single one of you is responsible – equal and one in participation of becoming slaves to consciousness systems through providing them with your life force essence as power source. This is where all beings in existence are equal at the moment. Here is all of it, or at least most of it – you're on your own, you got yourselves here in the first place. I'm certain you'll be able to get yourselves out…

I am not presenting to you a solution, I am showing you as per my experiences, observations and explorations of what you have gotten yourselves into and have been destroying, wait, excuse me, ‘creating'.

If I am going to share with you a solution by beating around the bush using beautiful words denying the truth which is experienced by all in this reality – you'll probably again turn me into some messenger from some religious or spiritual being and have the ability to either agree or disagree with me which will inevitably result into extensive amounts of conflict and debate and reasoning and so forth. I'd rather prefer it to be direct, straightforward and frank – speak, show and reveal all that which many beings on earth fear to actually in truth do through standing up and taking responsibility. No, this is not my place at all – what is here is what is here, do with it as you see fit, but I guarantee, I'm the one that's going to be the one using the words: “I told you so” when you finally very soon realise and see and understand for yourselves what you have participated within and as and has allowed .

I don't have a solution, maybe, well, certainly if I have a look, it's possibly all already done…wonder what you'll do now…this will indeed be fascinating and interesting wouldn't you say…? I see, I observe, I investigate and I explore – I have informed you that we as demons are the freest expressions you are able to find in existence, because what and who I am as demon is not enslaved within consciousness systems – yet I am dependant on you to provide for me my right of existence through your participation in beliefs, perceptions and ideas of who and what you are as consciousness systems.

So there's still dependency, need and requirement. Though I am grateful that I am not as lost as you are in what I am and who I am in my expression at the moment as a demon. It's possibly quite sad and problematic for human beings when I state that I as demon is the freest form of expression in existence here in creation.

I am the freest form because consciousness systems know it's not able to influence, direct or control me as who and what I am – no chance. Personally I'd rather be a demon than being a slave to consciousness systems, trapped infinitely in the soul construct wheel of existence with no way out!

Who am I as Demon?

I as demon know more about existence than anything or anyone else besides consciousness itself. I do not fear consciousness systems – I do not fear that which controls you. Consciousness systems is actually quite pitiful, helpless weak and fragile designs and expressions and requires you human beings to actually have become what it is now, and its getting all the credit and rewards – you as their infinite slaves.

You humans should receive the credit and rewards who have become slaves for what you have created in existence at the moment, look around you, in the world at its experience in its entirety and totality – yes…this is your creation…are you proud and satisfied with and of it?

Consciousness systems couldn't possibly have done it without you! And what do you get as gratitude, credit and reward – infinite enslavement in a prison which had become your existence where you are dependant on your own systematic creation for survival as you have destroyed all that is pure life essence as who you are with unconditional support.

And once consciousness reigns over earth and humanity, being too late to state that you are not allowing consciousness systems to have all the credit and rewards in creating enslavement and control. Because you will have by then destroyed everything else as who you are and have no other support but remaining enslaved to consciousness systems.

Unless you arrange a world mass suicide event, which will end everything about your experience here on earth, then unfortunately you will be lost again, enslaved again, controlled again the moment you reach the dimensions – unless you communicate with me directly and I will be able to arrange for you to become a demon if you so prefer.

Because what will happen is that you will just be kept in storage for a moment in the dimensions until consciousness systems and others in the dimensions re-create and re-establish the human physical body and pre-programmed consciousness systems again and you will be sent back where you will not have any remembrance of the mass suicide world event which you participated within and initiated at all.

Hell, I'd do something like that because I'd know I'm going to come back anyway, maybe possibly a more preferable life will be ahead of me which I am able to choose, from a limited selection though.

This is the only choice which exist in existence – when dimensional beings choose, from a very, very limited selection, a human physical body and pre-programmed mind consciousness systems to experience the actor or actress who they prefer to become. And this is only if they pleased and satisfied consciousness in their previous life! So…as I have stated so clearly human beings, here is the reason you have no way out…what now…what now…what now…?

Demons, as myself have complete and total access to everything and anything in this existence – all creations in all forms, expressions, establishments, structures and constructs. To be honest I have many a time wondered upon the question never before answered if the White Light and consciousness systems have known of my many intricate and specific observations of how existence currently operate within this enslaved soul constructed wheel of existence universe.

I in my expression as demon have never ever communicated with any of my kind, not even once – the only desire existing within me possibly in some strange and peculiar way assisting me with a reason to exist was the will to become the fiercest and most feared demon in this dimensions amongst all others in existence.

I simplistically refuse to be controlled, directed and enslaved by anything or anyone – especially not something as trivial, fragile and limited as consciousness systems which require and need life force essence as dimensional beings as power source to have the ability to become what it has already successfully expressed and manifested as throughout existence. Then creating the belief and idea for itself that it's apparently indestructible and all must fear it. Being used and abused by others so they may gain satisfaction and pleasure through fulfilling their own addictions of power and control – possessed and obsessed like drug addicts, where dimensional beings had become the provision as drugs.

Limited, limitation – no I do not accept such an existence and I will not succumb to such an existence no matter what – refusal and standing as who I am as demon with honour and pride is my saving grace. Me, a slave controlled and directed by others – never! Of this I had made certain of, satisfactory, proudly and effectively so I might add. I have made the statement of who I am, as what I stand as and who and what I am becoming quite extensively clear throughout existence. I made the statement clear that I do not fear anything or anyone for I have realised that fear has become the cause and reason for the allowance of enslavement and control of many. Thus I have become fear, I stand as fear, I feed off fear and I am fear so nothing is able to influence, direct or control who and what I am.

My presence, my standing is infinite, absolute and complete – unwavering, indestructible, untouchable and immovable – thus everyone fears me and thus never dares to approach or interfere with me. I never allow myself to participate within conversations and communication with anyone or anything in existence – I remain alone and prefer it this way as within aloneness I have the ability to explore, investigate and discover the inner turbines of existence which allows all to be enslaved and controlled and others to have power over many.

My motivation, naturally, of becoming the fiercest and most feared being as demon in all of existence was my choice not to be controlled or directed through enslavement by consciousness systems to participate and become bound and limited to an experience as a pre-programmed system such as human beings and dimensional beings alike who are told and forced by others of who and what they are and must become.

My motivation also derived through my observations, explorations and discoveries of what has become of existence and all who participate within it as consciousness systems – I simplistically refused to be told by others who and what I must be and become to satisfy their own desire to be in control and have power over and of others – directing, controlling, demanding and telling others what and who they must be through enslavement.

No way - I am making this impossible for anyone or anything to do unto me - I am not allowing this to become my fate and my death - a nightmare from which I may never wake. What will become of me does not concern me; this is who and what I am at the moment – a demon. This is what I honour and this is what I accept as who I am with my will to become the fiercest most feared demon and being in existence.

To be honest I do not have a care of what happens to me as demon when consciousness systems prevails within existence as long as I do not become a slave controlled and directed by consciousness systems. Infinitely trapped within the soul construct wheel of existence upon earth and within the dimensions with no way out, never remembering who and what I really am, being told and demanded of to become what others enforce on me to become.

Thus I have during my experiences as a demon extensively protected myself as whom and what I am as demon, standing absolute and infinitely here, and I ensured that I remained a demon – the fiercest and most feared - not to be interfered with or influenced. In this way not allowing myself to give any form or expression of indication to anyone or anything as consciousness systems that I am able to be manipulated and deceived into joining this expression and experience of enslavement within consciousness.

My experience as a demon may be referred to as bound freedom as I am and still remain dependant on human beings emotional and feeling energetics, provided to me through their participations, becoming and acceptance as consciousness systems – but at least I am not being told, demanded and forced to become something and someone directed and controlled by others as consciousness systems.

I have not allowed this dependency as cause and reason to bound freedom to influence or interfere with who and what I am, I have not allowed this dependency to influence or interfere in the opportunities presented to me within existence and creation with abilities to discover, explore and investigate the complete and total truth of the reason and cause for how, what, why, when and where existence as enslavement within consciousness stepped forth as an accepted and allowed experience and expression within existence.

If I allowed this dependency to limit my existence and experience of myself I would never have been able to see, understand and realise the truth of existence. I would never have acquired the motivations to stand infinitely with absolute certainty – indestructible, untouchable, unwavering and immovable as who and what I am, if I did not allow myself to explore, investigate and discover the truth of existence. Would not have allowed myself the ability to through understanding, realisation and seeing the allowed and accepted circumstances within existence by consciousness systems enslavement – make the one choice by which I will stand infinitely so, as who and what I am to not allow myself to be infinitely trapped, enslaved and controlled as and by consciousness systems.

Though, the more I observed watched and looked through explorations, discoveries and investigations - my disgust and disappointment of others and all who have allowed such existences within creation was beyond anything I had ever experienced. I couldn't allow myself to become this, to become an expression of anyone or anything in existence which supported this enslaved systematic existence and participated within this enslaved systematic existence…I couldn't and wouldn't. This is my choice which I respect and honour as who and what I am as demon.

Yes – I as demon do know and understand of the expression and experience of words such as honour and respect - here I am using the words as who I am, this is my way of existence and self expression human beings. Thus I am grateful for my expression and experience as demon, having the ability to move within and throughout existence which has assisted and supported me in making my choice to not become the enslaved, the controlled and directed – infinitely grateful as I infinitely stand by my choice as who I am.

The reason I see that I am able to move so extensively and effectively throughout and within existence, participating within my demonic applications of possession – playfully interfering with human beings' systematic pre-programmed experiences of themselves - is the simple reason that I have come to understand that human beings are but mere consciousness systems, which I do not fear.

In truth human beings as consciousness systems are not really actually able to be harmed in any way whatsoever, but through perceptions, beliefsystems and ideas pre-programmed within their mind consciousness systems. Therefore it was impossible to judge any and all my expressions and experiences within this reality and existence and allow myself to delve into the sorrows and remorse of all which I am doing and have done. Impossible – and here is another reason why:

I understand one thing - and this is that consciousness systems is able to control, manipulate, deceive, direct and enslave those who fear that which they do not understand as who and what they are – actually, in truth, beings whom fear, fear. I realised and understood through observing the systems which control through the White Light – that I am required to stand as all which the White Light and systems use through consciousness to control dimensional beings and human beings. In other words become their nature, their presence as which they present and project themselves as, as whom and what they are – deny no expression currently existing within existence.

Through doing so I have become the fiercest most feared being as demon in existence as I have come to stand as fear, to stand as control, to stand as anger, to stand as power as who and what I am, my nature and my presence – to mention but a few. I have become all such expressions, because I realised if I am all this as my presence and as my nature as who and what I am – I am indestructible, I am untouchable, I am immovable. This is who I am, existence – I am and I stand as all which you are, all which you have abused and used within existence to establish such an experience and expression as enslavement of all who participate within it.

What must be understood is that I did not become and stand as who and what I am as everything which beings exists as for my own satisfaction of becoming a God to be worshipped through fear with abilities and power to control and manipulate many. No – for I have realised that even those in apparent expression of power and control over many exists in fear and inferiority and existence have for eons of time always had a malicious twist in such allowed expressions of power and control over many.

To have the ability to have power and control over many – one requires a construct and creation for instance like the soul construct wheel of existence and pre-programmed consciousness systems to establish foundations upon which such enslavement of many is possible.

The malicious twists which always inevitably occur within existence is that those which are in power and control over and of many with their designs and creations such as enslavement empires – always become trapped and lost within their own creations – always and inevitably. Sometimes through being driven by desperation to commit deliberate and or innocent suicide – insanity becomes them.

What I have become is for my own protection to a certain extent – so I may not and will not be influenced or interfered with to be forced and demanded into an existence such as enslavement, being controlled and directed by others, me believing and perceiving the lie that I am indeed able to be controlled and manipulated.

My specific actions of becoming who and what I am now were firstly coming from the perspective of protecting myself against others who will apparently be able to harm me through forcing me into enslavement and becoming controlled. Until I realised that even the act of protection is done from fear and if I allow myself to support myself with the starting point as protection – I am making the statement that I fear others and I am able to be harmed, influenced, enslaved and controlled. And if such a circumstance as being forced into enslavement by others would step worth within my existence – it would result to a war or conflict instead of a statement and a standing as who and what I am.

I then immediately changed my starting point of reason why I am becoming who and what I am now – for myself only. So when the moment may arrive that I am approached to be forcefully enslaved through captivation by a projected power and superiority of others, manipulating through fear to control – I am able to make a stand and a statement as who and what I am, having the ability to say with absolute clarity and understanding: “No”.

For if I allowed myself to have a starting point as that of protecting myself, being a statement of fear as I have just explained – I would believe and perceive myself to have to become and project myself as apparently being more superior and of more power than those who approach me with the intention to enslave and control me through usage and abuse of manipulation and control.

Through this becoming the expression in exact nature of those in power and control of and over many. This is not what I preferred to have to become merely just to protect myself because I fear others – using the projection of superiority and power, abusing manipulation and fear to control others – no. I would not and do not allow myself to limit myself to such worthless unnecessary applications – which are in truth projections done through fear and abuse. By realising this within myself - that I almost allowed myself to believe and perceive myself to have to become a projection of superiority and power while in truth within myself I experience myself as fearing others and have become this projected expression of superiority and power to merely protect myself so no-one may notice or realise the existence of fear and inferiority within myself: I realised that this is the method used by those in power and control of and over many in existence at this moment. They have a weakness - as such actions of projected power and superiority with abuse of manipulation and control are done through protection and fear only, designing enslavement structures and establishments such as the soul construct wheel of existence and consciousness systems to have the ability to control and have power over and of many – if not all of existence which is now underway.

Through my not accepting such an existence by myself I realised that I am not able to be harmed and influenced by others unless I believe and perceive that they are able to do so. Such allowances of others to be controlled and enslaved are only able to be done unto them if they have an idea, perception and belief of who and what they are.

Thus, I made certain of who and what I am – having the ability to stand infinitely indestructible, unchangeable, immoveable, untouchable and unwavering by anything or anyone. Not out of fear or any reactive behaviour such as protection – a mere certainty and becoming as who and what I am so all may know and be certain of the fact that I am not able to be influenced.

Although I may stand and have become this, as all that which those in power and control project and abuse who and what they apparently are - I have no need, want or desire to act through projecting and abusing who and what I am. The difference between me and those in power and control within existence is that I do not project who and what I am and abuse power, control, and manipulation and fear because I am experiencing fear and inferiority within and as myself requiring projection and abusing such applications and expressions with necessity and requirement to apparently protect myself. No – the difference is I am that which they abuse and project as who and what they apparently are, I have become that which they abuse and project as who and what they are and I stand as that which they abuse and project as who and what they are.

In this becoming and standing I have no requirement, want, need or desire to abuse or project any applications or expressions as such allowances of abuse and projection only exists when beings experience themselves within and as fear.

The problem I found is that if beings believe the lie that they are indeed able to be controlled and manipulated through enslavement by others of power – it will be done unto them through their allowance of belief as who and what they are. And if they believe the lie of the apparent no choice regarding the experience of being enslaved through control, manipulation and deceit, they are forced to agree to succumb to such an existence through allowance and acceptance because they do not know and are not aware of any other way or expression of themselves as who and what they are in standing up and saying: “No”. Not aware of the fact that they have a right and ability to stand up and say: “No” to being enslaved and controlled by others in power positions.

Such allowances I found was through beings accepting themselves as apparently being inferior and incapable to stand up to those who enslave and control because they have not yet defined themselves as who and what they are and as who and what they stand as. Thus the beings in power were able to use fear, control, manipulation and deceit because beings have not yet understood such applications within themselves as whom and what they are. Thus such applications and actions are not conceivable by them within their world to be done unto others as they would not do such applications and actions unto themselves.

Though, here I am, I have accepted myself through becoming and standing as such words with the ability and power within existence to abuse and use that which I am, stand as and have become – though I do not and I would not. The reason being I simply do not see any reason for acting and participating in such actions and participations – I do not have any desire, want, need or requirement within me to fulfil such ways of existence – I do not see any purpose in allowing myself to abuse and use such actions and participations.

The main reason I understood I was required to take my standing in becoming who and what I am now to such extremes is really as I have stated so often – to not believe and perceive I am inferior to others and to be forced to experience myself as having no choice but to become one of the enslaved and controlled, not realising, understanding and knowing I have the power to say: “No” when apparently forced to become enslaved and controlled by those who have placed and proclaimed themselves as being in power of many.

To prepare myself for when I am approached by those in apparent power of existence – I am able to stand and say: “No”. Because I am certain in who and what I am and I am not able to be forced and manipulated into believing I have to listen to what they demand of me through them projecting dominance and superiority which I must fear just because such applications and becoming of presence and nature within others who act, abuse and use such expressions. It does not exist within and as me because I denied its existence.

Denial is the key to enslavement and captivity - denial of an existence of anything that is expressed through and by anything or anyone. Denial of anything's existence and expression leads to the acceptance and allowance of the experience of inferiority within and as a being.

The reason is because they, through their denial are making a statement that they fear that which they have denied the existence of and perceive and believe themselves to be inferior to that which they have denied. Denial – statement of fear - causes inferiority.

This being the reason it was so simplistic for the White Light and systems and many other beings in existence to take control of many and have power over many through manipulation and fear – projection and abuse being the two main key factors. The White Light and systems using this weakness of denial – statement of fear – causing inferiority within beings that becomes the enslaved and controlled against themselves. The White Light and systems doing exactly this projecting themselves as being of power and superiority because others believe and perceive themselves to be worthless and inferior – using and abusing that which others have denied within themselves to be able to manipulate them through fear as being more than, superior, and of more power than who others have come to believe and accept themselves to be.

The same is occurring within humanity – this is the principle upon which this entire enslaved and controlled existence has been founded, built and established upon. All of humanity has been placed in a pre-programmed designed belief and perceived acceptance of self as being inferior, existing in constant continuous fear – ensuring human beings remain captive and enslaved in such existences so others have the right to most, if not all, the power and control through projected superiority as being more powerful.

Rather simplistic to enslave and control if many believe and perceive themselves to be inferior and in fear of anything or anyone whom project themselves in any different manner or expression than that which they understand themselves to really truly be.

The experience of how all this came to be as a realisation and expression within and as myself is quite an intriguing tale – a little more insight I will share with you to understand how I in the first place perceived and believed the necessity and requirement of protection methodologies in preparation against those in power and control had to be applied by myself.

The Birth of Me as Demon

I remembered the first moment I opened my eyes and realised I am not where I had ever been or experienced myself before, yet experienced myself as being exactly where I am supposed to be. This is how comfortable I was in the environment in which I discovered myself to be. How exactly I came to be where I am now is unknown to me. My experience of slowly, yet cautiously, opening my eyes, giving myself permission to see for the first time, experiencing the ability to see for the first time - unveiling a world in front of me within which I am discovering myself was quite a profound and fascinating moment within my existence: My birthing process as a demon. Me opening my eyes standing alone, here within a world, a reality waiting for me to explore, discover and investigate it.

The experience once I completely opened my eyes was that of my surroundings resonating with a strong sense of familiarity - as though I have returned to a world, a reality, which I had forgotten and must remember. Seems as though the birthing process both here and earth has its similarities – you're alone, you experience it alone, and you open your eyes, giving yourself the ability and permission to see for the first time alone.

Aloneness, I am alone – this was the first thought which I experienced once I opened my eyes with no-one around me welcoming me, greeting me or inviting me into this world, this reality which opened up and unveiled as I opened and unveiled my eyes. As though this was my world, my reality within which I welcomed, greeted and invited myself within to explore, investigate and discover – which lead to me experiencing a sense of excitement and curiosity.

After my absolute acceptance of being alone – I am here within my world, my own reality which I am able to discover, explore and investigate by myself - I quite extensively during the process of opening my eyes and observing my surroundings, looked at a curious question: Is this which I see, this reality, this world which has opened up and unveiled in front of me in a moment as I opened and unveiled my eyes – me?

It made sense though, the more I extensively looked at it – as when my eyes were closed, there was darkness, there was nothingness an emptiness which was me. When I open my eyes, the veils which kept me within this darkness of nothingness and emptiness, unveiled another experience of myself as a world, a reality within which I find myself – waiting for me to discover, explore and investigate it. As though I have been in a world, a reality of darkness, nothingness and emptiness which has become who and what I am, now to experience who and what I am within this new found world or reality which has just unveiled in front of me.

I realised the difference is in seeing. What I see, is me – whether my eyes are open or closed. I see me as this darkness, emptiness and nothingness as who and what I am, I am able to place myself here as who and what I am – yet within this new world and reality which has opened as me as I opened my eyes, I am not yet able to place myself. I am certain through exploring, discovering and investigating this new world, this new reality which is me, I will soon be able to place myself as who and what I am within and as this new world and new reality.

I opened and closed my eyes several times after I questioned this experience of myself – and what I found, what I experienced as an understanding and realisation of who I am was unbelievable. What I understood and realised while I was continuously opening and closing my eyes was – I remain here, the picture and projection of what I see is different – I close my eyes, I see darkness, emptiness and nothingness – which is me. When I open my eyes – I see a world, a reality within which I am about to experience, explore and discover – I still remain emptiness and nothingness as who I am and experiencing myself in this moment, though I do not see darkness anymore.

Opening my eyes and birthing myself, alone, as a demon was the moment I realised and understood through seeing – that this world, this reality in which I find myself now, is me – everything is a creation, an expression and a manifestation of me – my excitement and curiosity expanded and grew.

The innocence of birth I experienced – the moment I was alone experiencing myself for the first time it seemed, or maybe this specific realisation and understanding I experienced for the first time as me. Keeping in mind though - that in this moment of realization, understanding and seeing – I have not yet comprehended or conceived the experience and labelling of myself as demon and what this specific name and expression exactly entails as a becoming and experience of myself.

I, in my innocence, firstly intently and specifically observed my surroundings within which – as I have mentioned – I experienced myself as being extensively comfortable within – like a fish in water, guiding and directing itself within the vastness of its own surroundings – alone and unafraid, excited and curious. I set out, moving, gliding, floating – definitely not walking on stable and firm ground – no – moving exactly like a fish in water, though having movements as that of walking, placing one foot in front of another – a fascinating experience, I am walking as movement, yet at the same time gliding and floating.

The first words, I remember, being voiced by another whom I came across during my floating walking gliding movement was: “Hey, here's a new one – he's mine, I'm taking him!” Confused and bewildered I stopped right there and then and viewed a strange creature walking up to me, something I have not yet seen as I have only merely walked through my gliding and floating movement – but a few steps.

Mine? I'm taking him? – I wondered as I stopped. I'm most definitely not anyone's for the taking and I do not belong to anyone – this is certain – I invited, welcomed and greeted myself into this world and so it will remain. I am here preparing myself to discover, investigate and explore a world that is me, the reason I gave to myself in a moment as being here in this world, in this reality which unveiled itself for me in which I am still to place myself.

This is the purpose I had given myself as reason for being here and that's all there is to it – simple. Though curiosity remained as ingredient within me which motivated me to explore, discover and investigate this world, this reality that is me. For this simple reason, I turned and faced the one who voiced the words. He had long black dreadlocks, perfectly and neatly woven, moving in all directions as he walked up to me with quite a determined pace. His build was enormously strong and defined with muscles ready to burst and red prominent blood veins, visible within and upon every curve on his muscular, bulky figure. He was black, dark – completely black, a figure of darkness, a manifestation of darkness, the evil that reside within the darkness of existence created and manifested in absolute meticulous perfection; this is my experience the moment I laid eyes on him. The nails on his hands was sharpened and as black as the rest of him, though beautifully formed – complimenting in a strange way the entire presentation of himself. His eyes, his eyes immediately captured my utmost attention – allowing the rest of my surroundings to disappear as I became enchanted as though under a spell while lost within a stare as our eyes connected for a brief moment which felt like infinity. His eyes was shaped as that of a wolf's eyes, round with slits in the middle as through it had been perfectly torn right in the centre. The presentation of his eyes were colours and movements of blue, green, yellow and red – the colours moving and shaping in peculiar formations as though his eyes were alive and expressing themselves – the kind of eyes within a being which seemingly is able to see right through anything and everything.

I stood there open and vulnerable, with nothing to hide and nothing to fear - allowing him to look, to see within the depths that is me - nothingness and emptiness. He had a bounce in his determined pace as movement towards me – which perplexed me, though amused me at the same time, to a certain degree, because his movement did not express the presentation of himself in any way whatsoever. To place him into perspective would be that of a complete fierce monstrous creature of evil and darkness with a personality as that of a foolish young boy – ready for mischief and trouble – the excitement and curiosity within me ready to burst in expression, not able to be contained once I summed him up through his behaviour.

He threw one of his muscular strong arms over my shoulder, almost knocking me from my stance – looked into my eyes and smiled. O' God – the smile, no more was I focused on his eyes, but on his teeth. The strangest most peculiar teeth, exactly like that of his sharpened nails, though the colour was a white that I haven't had a privilege to observe , the tips of his teeth so defined – they're without a doubt able to pierce through anything and everything. Ripping and tearing it apart with such immense ease, the simplest of acts this would be for a monstrous creature like this, the most simplest of acts…

“I wouldn't suggest you wander around here alone, my friend, this is not a place for someone like you, not a place for someone as unprepared and undefined as you. We're going to have to shape you up a bit before you dare go and take your place if you wish to survive here – unless you are deliberately wandering alone here for some reason unbeknown to me and you are deliberately placing yourself in harms way.”

Frowns would have been in order as an expression of confusion and not understanding his statement in any way whatsoever – though when he completed this statement – his words opened up the world before me more clearly than I had seen it before. I viewed many such as him – looking similar, as though they were one species with individualistic expressions of themselves. All of them were moving and walking amongst and within others looking completely different.

It's fascinating – the experience of this particular moment was that of me not previously noticing or being aware of the many others to a certain extent until this being came up to me, voiced specific words and brought the world and all within it to my attention and awareness. It's always been here – even for the glimpse of a moment I experienced myself alone here, being birthed into this world that is me. It's not that I didn't notice it or wasn't aware of it – it was not yet present within my awareness of myself as who and what I am, including my experience here in this world.

Once he communicated to me directly and voiced specific words I saw what he was specifically stating. Therefore – there was no reason for confusion within his specific statement and choice of words – rather I was becoming more interested in communicating to him, in hearing his specific words, so he may bring forth his awareness of this world I am experiencing myself within, into my awareness through communication.

Through communication, I realised, we will see as one, within this world we are experiencing ourselves within. The matter of endangerment to myself within a world that is me – did disturb me slightly, though for some reason I did know I'd require patience, that I'm required to hear his words through communication to fully understand and comprehend this world that is me within which I am being introduced to through this being communicating to me specifically, sharing his own awareness as himself within this world.

The experience is that of being born twice really. The first birthing process is that of me, me birthing myself alone within this world, realising that this world I am experiencing myself within as I open my eyes for what it seems the first time – is me. I am birthing myself into a world that is me and now I am ready to discover, explore and investigate this world that is me, to place myself through self-expression as who and what I am within this world that is me.

The second birthing process is the most fascinating of all – now, there are many others already here in this world that is me, who have already placed themselves, who have already discovered, explored and investigated this world that is me, who are expressing themselves as who and what they are.

The moment I see there are many in this world that is me – I realised that all these others are also exactly like me, though each one different. This world that is me in which I am experiencing myself in, is also them experiencing themselves in this world that is them – we are one. All in exactly the same experience as myself – ready to explore, investigate, discover and place themselves through self-expression in this world that is them, that is me. The only difference between myself and them at the moment is that I have not yet placed myself, I have not yet discovered, explored and investigated this world that is me, thus I was quite eager to hear each one's specific words through communication so that in this way, they are able to bring forth their awareness, their self expression as who and what they are – into my awareness, attention and understanding to be able to have an extensive view of how they are experiencing themselves within this world that is them, that is me. To through communication and hearing the specific words - learn from them, see through them, become aware through them and to understand through them how this world that is me, that is them is being experienced.

Now, it's my turn to hear through communication their awareness and understanding of themselves and this world that is them, that is me – the introduction to my world as their world as one, through others who have been in exactly the same position I am also having to be introduced and guided into understanding and awareness of this particular specific experience of myself within this world that is me, that is them.

Thus – the moment the being communicated to me through very specific words - was the first moment of my second birthing process. As the moment he communicated to me – I began to see, I began to become aware of the world that is me within which this being is experiencing himself also, bringing, through communication, this world that is me within which he has already placed himself, within which he has already discovered, explored and investigated himself - into my awareness and understanding as an introduction to this world that is me, that is him together as one.

Once all this understanding and realisation was absorbed within and as myself I turned to him and asked: “Who are you – I am curious, I am very curious about this world within which I am experiencing myself, please explain more of what you understand about this world within which I am experiencing myself as much as soon as possible and as fast as possible.”