The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me

01. Sowing Season (Yeah) 4:32
02. Millstone 4:17
03. Jesus Christ 5:18
04. Degausser 5:25
05. Limousine 7:42
06. You Won’t Know 5:42
07. Welcome to Bangkok 3:03
08. Not the Sun 3:09
09. Luca 5:09
10. Untitled 2:04
11. Archers 4:14
12. Handcuffs 4:11

Produced by Mike Sapone
Mixed by Rich Costey
Mastered by Emily Lazar at The Lodge, NYC

Recorded at Long View Farm Recording Studios, Sapone Trax and Cove City Sound Studios
Recorded by Claudius Mittendorfer
Assisted by Michael Mo Lapierre, Ben Slater and Kieran Pardias
Additional Engineering by Ross Petersen Mixed at Avatar Studios
Assisted by Jim Keller, Chad Lupo, and Justin Gerrish
Mastering assisted by Sarah Register at The Lodge, NYC

Additional Musicians:
Irina Yalkowsky: Theremin on “Luca”
Brent Arnold: Cello on “Handcuffs”
Margaret White: Viola
Ron Piscitello: percussion

Written by
Published by All Night Chemist Music/Gut Bloodfoot Music/Nah Brah Music/Phatty Hooz Music (SESAC)

Management: Ari Martin and Tom Gates for Nettwerk Management
A&R: Luke Wood
A&R Coordinator: Ed Alexander
Legal: Peter Lewit for Davis, Shapiro, Lewit, Montone, & Hayes

Booking: Andrew Ellis/Ellis Industries

Art Direction and Design: Morning Breath, Inc. Photography:
Jesse Lacey, Nick Prior, Justin Borucki, Brand New.

Sowing Season (Yeah)

I was losing all my friends
Was losing some to drinking and some to driving
I was losing all my friends
And didn't want them back

I am on the mend
And at least now I can say that I am trying
And I hope you will forget
The things that I still lack

Is it in you now,
To bear to hear the truth that you have spoken
Twisted up by knaves
To make a trap for fools?

Is it in you now,
To watch the things you gave your life to, broken?
And then stoop and build them up
With worn out tools?

Yeah

Nothing gets so bad
That a whisper from your father couldn't fix it
He whispers like a bridge
It’s a river spanned

Take all that you have
And turn it into something you would miss if
Somebody threw that brick
That shattered all your plans

Yeah

No time to get the seeds into the cold ground
It takes some time to grow anything.
Before it's all coming to an end

Before you put my body in the cold ground
Take some time and warm it with your hands
Before it's coming to an end

Do you miss the blend
Of color she left in your black and white field?
Do you feel condemned
Just for being there?

I am not your friend, your lover, or your family, yeah


Millstone

I used to be such a burning example
I used to be so original
I used to care I was being cared for
And made sure I showed it to those that I love
I used to sleep without a single stir
Cause I was about my father's work

Take me out tonight
This ship of fools I’m on will sink
I’m my own stone around my neck
If you’d be my breathe
There is nothing I wouldn't give

I used to pray like God was listening
I used to make my parents proud
I was the glue that kept my friends together
Now they don't talk and we don't go out
I used to know the name of every person I’d kissed
Now I’ve made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it

Take me out tonight
This ship of fools I’m on will sink
I'm my own stone around my neck
If you’d be my breathe
There is nothing I wouldn't give

Things that were heard at the scene of the accident:
"They never hit their brakes..."
"There was no time to see..."
"He just ran out in the street..."
"Does anybody know his name?"
"I think I recognize him..."
"He sure as hell paid for that mistake..."


Jesus Christ

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone that could save
If they don't put me away
It’ll be a miracle

Do you believe you're missing out?
That everything good is happening somewhere else
With nobody in your bed
The night is hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won’t know anyone

Jesus Christ, I’m alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Because this problem is gonna last
More than the weekend

Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die
But I’m a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot
Or do I float through the ceiling

Or do I divide and pull apart
Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark
This ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands?

I know you're coming in the night like a thief
But I’ve had some time, O Lord, to hone my lying technique
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up
So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try
I know you're coming for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories
We all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories
We all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine


Degausser

Goodbye to sleep
I think this staying up is exactly what i need
Take apart your head
Take apart the counting and the flock it has bred

Goodbye to love
It’s just a ride that will push you
Up right against the wall
Take apart your head
Chew it up and swallow it 

(Does everybody really need to know everyone?
Do you really think you're really a part of it?
And is your army really one of some thousands?
And will you declare war on the loony bin?)

Goodbye you liar
Well, you sipped from her cup
But you don't own up to anything
And you think you will inspire

(When I arrive will God be waiting and pacing around his throne?
Will he feel a little Old Testament?
And will he celebrate with fire and brimstone
Yeah, I admit, I am afraid of the reckoning)

Take apart your head
Take apart the demon up in the attic to the left

Take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
Please say, "I don't mind you under my skin
And I’ll let your bad parts in. the bad parts in"
When we were made we were set apart
But life is a test and I get bad marks
Now some saint got the job of writing down my sins
The storm is coming
Here is your storm again

Goodbye my love
You wait right here, and they will come and pick you up
I've been on pause
But I’m shaking off the rust
I’ve lost my charge
I've been degaussed
I've been degaussed
I've been degaussed

Take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
I don't mind you under my skin
I’ll let the bad parts in the bad parts in
Well, you’re my favorite bird and when you sing
I really do wish that you would wear my ring
But no matter what they say, I am still the king
The storm is coming
The storm is coming


Limousine

"K, here's your ride.
Get your petals out and lay them in the aisle
Pretend you are God, and grow,
And that it's your own day to wed
We have found your man.
He is drinking up.
He's all-American, and he'll drive
He has volunteered with grace to end your life.
We'll tidy up
It's sad to hold, but leave your shell to us
You explode, you firefly, you tiny boat with oars,
Feather oars
The world tilts back and pours and pours
And so, you satellite, you tidal wave,
You’re a big surprise
And I have one more night to be your mother"

Her signal was interrupted.
My baby's frequency not strong enough
Her head in my hands and smiling.

K, we will miss you but in time you'll get set up,
And we will write"

(Curtain)

Hey, you beauty supreme.
Yeah, you were right about me.
But can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me
In the choir, I saw our sad Messiah.
He was bored and tired of my laments.
He said, "I died for you one time, but never again"

Well I love you so much, but do me a favor baby and don’t reply.
Cause I can dish it out, but I can't take it.
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I'll never have to buy adjacent plots of earth
We'll never have to rot together underneath dirt
I'll never have to lose my baby in the crowd
I should be laughing right now


You Won’t Know

Hey, hey, hey, Mr. Hangman,
You go get your rope
Your daughters weren't careful
And I fear that I am a slippery slope
Now even when I lay my head down at night
After a day I got perfectly right… She won’t know
She won’t know

So pray little Kay, love is just God on a good day
And you can't blame your mother
She’s trying not to see you as her worst mistake
And I wish that I could tell you right now
But it looks like I won't be around
So you won’t know
You won’t know
You won’t know
You won’t know

So believe in me, believe in me, believe in me,
Believe, if you think I’ll let you down
Well I won’t
They can fire everything they've got
And when you think I’m sunk
I will float on and on
I have burned the bush that covered my light
Even though I’m scared I won't burn that bright
But you won’t know
You won’t know
You won’t know
You won’t know

We’re never gonna feel as full as we felt
So let's go outside and we'll play "William Tell"
Take your time drawing your bead
I’ll stand as still as you need
You’re so good at talking smack, you heart attack
But you're the apple of my eye anyway

My smiling face
That’s on my head
That’s on your silver plate


Not the Sun

Please don't be technology
Cause I can't turn off your love
Like some cold machine

Don’t feed me scraps from your bed
And I won't be the stray coming back
Just to be fed

Don’t be waves
Come to seal my fate, marine
Just pretend
That you want me
And be my babe

Don’t be that note I can't hold
Don’t be that joke that I told
And told
Till it got old
Don’t be that hand around my throat
So I can't breathe
You say you're my friend
But why won't you be my family?

Well, if you breed
Just don't tell me

Be my babe.

Be my serene
Tell me you know what I mean
You’ve set on me but you are not the sun
And you will not listen


Luca

When I disappear do you fear for the sister I took
When I disappear it is clear I am up to no good
I am drearily bloodletting this bedwetting cosmonaut
"Son, the last thing you'll realize you need is what you've already got"

So touch me or don't
But just let me know
Where you been?

Drop me a line with a hook and some raw bleeding bait
For I am uncaught and still swimming alone in the lake
Shimmering under a moon made in anger and haste
(I was the one who was always repeating it)
Shimmering like a penny out of reach in the subway grating
(Shimmering like a coin kept safe away, you never give in to anything)

So touch me or don't
But just let me know
Where you been?

You could never work well with our group
Not with flaws we found
So we've fixed you with cement galoshes
And no one can save you now
Even if you have friends among fish
There will still be no air to breath
You could drink up the entire ocean
But we'll still find someone to be everything we know that you will never be.

So touch me or don't
But just let me know
Where you been?


Archers

Who do you carry that torch for, my young man?
Do you believe in anything?
Or do you carry it around just to burn things down?

Meet me tonight on the turnpike my darling,
where we believe in everything.
If we sweat all these debts then we're sure to drown,
so let's strap ourselves up to this engine now
with our God who we found laying under the back seat.

What did you learn tonight?
while shouting so loud, you barely joyous, broken thing.
You are a voice that never sings, is what i say.
You are freezing over hell
You are bringing on that end you do so well
and you can only blame yourself, is what is say.

Oh, order your daughters to ignore me
think that will sort me?
and sweep me under the rug?
while you're beating with a book
everyone that book tells you to love.

There is an ember in the heart of this kiln
and it's burning hot with love.
Burning out my center till there's nothing but dust
then rolling me with care into your cigarette
cause the God i believe in never worked on a campaign trail.

What did you learn tonight?
You're shouting so loud, you barely joyous, broken thing.
You're a voice that never sings, is what i say.
You are freezing over hell.
You are bringing on the end you've read about
and you can only blame yourself, is what i say.

Who do you carry that torch for, my young man?
Do you believe in anything,
or do you carry it around just to burn things to the ground?
Handcuffs

I'd arrest you if i had handcuffs
I'd arrest you if i had the time
Id throw you down in the backseat
as if you'd committed a terrible crime.

I'd break into a town's worth of houses
and rob whole families blind
I'd do it to you like you'd do it to me
if you knew you would get away fine.

I'd drown all these crying babies
if i knew that their mothers wouldn't cry
I'd lower them down and squeeze real hard
and let a piece of myself die.

It's hard to be the better man
when you forget you're trying
It's hard to be the better man.

I'd arrest you if i had handcuffs
I'd arrest you if i had the time
I'd wait outside of the courtroom and taunt you
when all your appeals were declined

I'd drive my car into a bridge
if i knew that you weren't inside
With the pedal to the floor who could ask for a more
fantastic way to kill some time

You could lay on your back and be beaten
You could put up your fists and fight
You could try and be way off

It's hard to be the better man
when you forget you're trying
It's hard to be the better man
when you're still lying.


Coca-Cola

There are blood and feathers
on my dumb paws
Now you ain't nothing but a dead duck
and i still ain't nothing but a hound-dog.

You seep in the windows and vents.
I lay in the grass and i lose your scent.
Well if God gave me grace, then why aren't a graceful?
My joints are froze, and old and idle.

If it's by air
then i don't want to know
If we all don't take cover
then were all gonna fall back in love again

You work late and fight off your boss
Your patient dies and you take the night off

They've worked out
all the bugs
so now if you have enough money
you can buy love

You file out your reception seating
While i sing sing sing
these ten lords still leaping
the mark on your breast from your baby, teething.
Well, give him my name if he is needing.

If it's by sea
then I don't want to know
If we all don't take cover
then we're all gonna fall back in love again

"Bless your beautiful hide."
and curse your god when your friends die.