You know, I'm quite tired of leading such a dog's life on virtual web. Sometime comes when I say how ill-omened I was to be born here. I don’t know how I can express my feeling on a polished considerate manner; accept my apology for being foulmouthed but believe me it’s really a pain in the ass.
I don’t know where else to turn, it’s gonna wear me out; my downloading speed is 4kb, let alone uploading. Every single news agency is blocked, I must use an anti filter, and now this would slow down my downloading more. I’m totally worn out by these bullshits.
You know handling a blog through a dial up modem is an absolutely crazy affair in Iran; you’re self-consuming yourself on behalf of the others. In the first place when I established my blog, I had some great thoughts for it, I look at it in a Utopian way, but now in the middle, I found it compulsorily unattainable.
You know I ain’t gonna be such kind of a puny enfeebled man who would surrender under any kind of, umm you say it, anything anywhere anyhow. But you see, when it comes to internet, here in Iran, I confess that there is not much left I didn’t try, not much I can do. Yeah ,my hands up, I gave up. Umm I don’t know, but every now and then I think of how inciting I would be or it would be… let it alone.
It does gonna be my unreachable dream of life time to surf the web through an unblocked free high speed internet, It’s a pity how infantile my life dream became. Never do I imagine it, some day, not long ago, my dreamy wish was to be a space traveler. Ridiculous but I think I’m gonna look forward to seeing it throughout the whole life time and then kiss it goodbye in my funeral ceremony. F...