Press Play.

I made a choice that I regret. Now what I see, is what I get.



In the last few weeks, I've bought...

5 x games
6 x books
3 x movies
1 x Mp3 player/usb card
1 x headphones
1 x PSP
1 x 2gb Pro Duo card

The funny thing is, I began this month saying to myself, "I'm not going to spend money on anything I don't need."

My plan was to save a good amount of money and upgrade the T.V. in my room.

It all began so simply.

Oh, look, preorder bonuses with this game... limited supply. Buy.

Oh... a new volume of the Twelve Kingdoms and Kino no Tabi is finally out? Well, I might as well buy the other books I've been wanting too while I'm at it to save on shipping. Buy.

Oh... I got this coupon in my mail for $20 off $80+ purchase... mind as well buy that PSP I've been wanting. Buy.

Oh... look at this awesome patapon poster, and the game is only $19.99 new? What a steal. I should buy Crisis Core and Wild Arms too so I have something to play on the PSP too. Buy.



Oh... I'd need some memory... mind as well buy this pro duo card and some headphones to get some good sound going for my DS and PSP. Buy.

Oh... I mind as well buy a small MP3 player so I can carry it with me where ever I go to use with the awesome new headphones. It doubles as a usb storage device for plug and use storage? Nice. Buy.

Oh... wait. Now I'm broke.

Damn it.

Why do I suck so badly with money!!!

Every time I see a good deal, I tend to spurge and go for it even though it's not something that I really wanted in the first place. Put that together with the fact that I frequent many "deals" websites like Cheap Ass Gamer, Slickdeals, Techbargines and Fatwallet daily and you've got a recipe for one broke-ass man with a lot of crap he doesn't need.

That's it though. I won't spend any more money on things I don't really really really want or need for the rest of the month!

Seriously!

I'm super cereal here!!


A few days ago, I got the chance to watch this documentary.



"Taxi to the Dark Side is an Academy Award winning 2007 documentary film directed by American filmmaker Alex Gibney, and produced by Eva Orner and Susannah Shipman.

The film focuses around the controversial death in custody of an Afghan taxi driver named Dilawar. Dilawar was beaten to death by American soldiers while being held in extrajudicial detention at the Bagram Air Base.

Taxi to the Dark Side also goes on to examine America's policy on torture and interrogation in general, specifically the CIA's use of torture and their research into sensory deprivation. There is description of the opposition to the use of torture from its political and military opponents, as well as the defence of such methods; the attempts by Congress to uphold the standards of the Geneva Convention forbidding torture; and the popularisation of the use of torture techniques in shows such as 24.

The film is said to be the first film to contain images taken within Bagram Air Base."

- Taken from Wikipedia

It was a movie that defined the term "thought-provoking" to the very core. Although the information that that they give you should be taken with a spoonful of salt, the moral issues that they raise should be taken to heart without question.

The disturbing video recordings and pictures depicting violence and humiliation are definitely not for the faint of heart but I feel it that from time to time we must put aside our shield of ignorance and apathy and behold that which is reality. As much as it might hurt us emotionally, I believe it to be our duty as citizens- no, as human beings to be aware of what's going on to the fellow man around us.

It's true. It's difficult to look directly at something that you don't want to see. Something that may show that the beliefs and ideals you once held were a fallacy. It's only natural to want to protect your reality, but it's in our ability to adapt and change that our greatest gift lies.

Some people might say that changing your views and ideals as you grow older with more experiences is being a hypocrite or a flip-flop but I say that people who keep their views and ideals the same when they know something is wrong with them is just being stubborn and nothing more.

I urge you to watch this documentary if you are able and draw your own conclusions.

Me? My views haven't changed much but my thoughts and fellings that hatred only begets more hatred has been brought back into the spotlight.

How I long to sleep tight wrapped in my soft, warm blanket of lies dreaming about everything and nothing.

Too bad... it'll be many nights before I can sleep like that again.




Remember kids, don't smoke and play DS at the same time.


"Those who fight to live can never topple those who live only to fight."


By then, I should have my new shiny PSP in so I'll go into the gaming corner to talk about my toy and its library of games.

Also, this entry came earlier than usual. I'll try to make it once a week entry instead of once every one and a half/two week. Maybe... every Monday or something like that.

I could probably do that.

Probably.

Till next time....