Be secure.. but becareful not to fall.
Tomorrow at 7:30 in the morning I have doctor's appointment to see how my ulcer is doing. I'm a little nervous but my stomach has been doing great in recent weeks… Well I am super hungry, but that's a good thing.
I started my Bloomsday training the other day. I'm up to a couple 9 minute miles in the gym. The true test will come when I go out on Sunday and do a run on the pavement. Losing 20 pounds to stress has some benefits. I have been doing weights at the gym and I think I am stronger then ever before. I know the more I work out the more definition I will get in my muscles. Bloomsday is a major goal for me… one of the things I want to conquer in my life.
The beard has just got to the stage when it starts to itch. Growing it out till Easter is going to be a struggle, but like many things in my life right now it has meaning.
I went to a place tonight I was worried about going. I was in a room where others were afflicted by the same things I am going through. Addiction and self hang –ups are never a good thing. I realize that I am just as compulsive as someone with other issues. It was good for me. No one asked me what affliction I am dealing with, and had they asked I might have wept. I am ready to tell others though.
I worry about the changes that might take place in my life, but if they change me into a better man… Well I can't go wrong right? Someone asked me the other night if I was dealing and changing for myself or for everyone else. The truth is I am not doing it for any one here.
One thing I took out of the meeting was if you can obsess about anything way to much.
So that's where I am at. I have great friends around me that have been supportive of the new journey I have started on. Even friends online have been supportive. I read and write every night and I am running everyday.
In all I feel calmer… except in the moments when I want to fix everything and start obsessing about everything. It's a relapse. But I realize it will happen. I just need to get back up and keep working on it.
Peace, Hugs and Handshakes,
R-
I started my Bloomsday training the other day. I'm up to a couple 9 minute miles in the gym. The true test will come when I go out on Sunday and do a run on the pavement. Losing 20 pounds to stress has some benefits. I have been doing weights at the gym and I think I am stronger then ever before. I know the more I work out the more definition I will get in my muscles. Bloomsday is a major goal for me… one of the things I want to conquer in my life.
The beard has just got to the stage when it starts to itch. Growing it out till Easter is going to be a struggle, but like many things in my life right now it has meaning.
I went to a place tonight I was worried about going. I was in a room where others were afflicted by the same things I am going through. Addiction and self hang –ups are never a good thing. I realize that I am just as compulsive as someone with other issues. It was good for me. No one asked me what affliction I am dealing with, and had they asked I might have wept. I am ready to tell others though.
I worry about the changes that might take place in my life, but if they change me into a better man… Well I can't go wrong right? Someone asked me the other night if I was dealing and changing for myself or for everyone else. The truth is I am not doing it for any one here.
One thing I took out of the meeting was if you can obsess about anything way to much.
So that's where I am at. I have great friends around me that have been supportive of the new journey I have started on. Even friends online have been supportive. I read and write every night and I am running everyday.
In all I feel calmer… except in the moments when I want to fix everything and start obsessing about everything. It's a relapse. But I realize it will happen. I just need to get back up and keep working on it.
Peace, Hugs and Handshakes,
R-
