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Japan

I’ve donated today to Episcopal Relief and Development in response to the devastating quake and tsunami in Japan. We’re four miles inland here in West Los Angeles, safe from anything short of the greatest tsunami on record. But my mother, in my aptly named hometown of Carmel by-the-Sea, received a “reverse 911″ automated call at 6:00AM today. She was jarred out of a deep sleep by a tsunami warning issued to all coastal residents in Carmel and Pebble Beach. My childhood home is just 400 meters from the high tide line, but up a fairly steep embankment. Still, my mother thought it best to stay away from the water.

Local news reports suggest damage as far south as Morro Bay in San Luis Obispo county, and genuine devastation in harbor areas near the Oregon border, particularly in the grittily picturesque Crescent City. Praying for Japan, but concerned too for the beaches and low-lying areas of my home state.

If you don’t want to donate to ERD, feel free to check out this piece at the Huffington Post. Lots of links to other good outfits doing great work on the ground.

Off until Monday

I’m off to the city of my birth for the weekend, marking my beloved step-mother’s 60th birthday and my first Father’s Day. Posting resumes on Monday, the third anniversary of my own Dad’s death and the first day of summer school.

Recent posts are once again open for comments.

Resolutions

As we say goodbye to 2008, let me wish everyone a happy 2009.

I do do New Year’s Resolutions, though I don’t always keep them. Here are three of mine for the year to come:

1. Grow comfortable with exercising less often. Most people resolve to exercise more, but I’ve had the opposite problem more often than not. Exercise is good, but not at the expense of other obligations. If I can work out four or five days a week, with only one of those workouts longer than two hours, I’ll still be fit but will have more time for others. And as long as I can control my anxiety about getting out of shape, I’ll make major progress.

2. Fritter away less time on Facebook.

3. Be better at friendship maintenance.

Feel free to share your resolutions in the comments.

Sick

I’m fighting off the flu — three days before the Pasadena Marathon, which I still hope to run. Posting returns soon.

A brief escape

One way to escape election anxiety is to disappear for a while. I’ll be out of the country again (briefly) from this afternoon until late Sunday night. No blogging until Monday, November 3.

Play nice in the comments sections, please. I think I’ll have some wireless access with an ability to moderate, but it will be intermittent.

And a reminder of my endorsements:

Barack Obama for President.

Yes on California Propositions 1A,2,3,11, and 12.
No on California Propositions 4,5,6,7,8,9,10.

Yes on Los Angeles County Measure R (transportation).
Yes on San Francisco Measure K (Sex worker rights).

Eighteen hour days and classrooms with no chairs

It’s always tougher for me to blog during summer school, and it will be especially so this summer. I’m teaching my usual load of three six-week summer classes, starting at 8:00AM and finishing around 3:00PM. What’s different is that the classroom in which I normally lecture (steps from my office) is undergoing renovations. I’m teaching my three classes in three separate buildings on campus, including a computer lab and a sprawling room in the main gymnasium. When I walked into my first class yesterday, there were no chairs in the room — my students had to sit on the floor, and the be-skirted had to stand. In my second class, I had 45 students enrolled in a classroom with a maximum fire code capacity of 40, and chairs for only 37. Life in the trenches indeed!

I’m not complaining, not really. I’ll be beginning my sixteenth year at Pasadena City College this fall, and this is my fourteenth summer session. My youngest students today were getting potty-trained when I started, and more and more these days, I learn of students whose parents are both younger than I am. Two days after Father’s day, I feel more paternal than ever.

This morning started at 4:45AM, as I wanted to get in a quick seven-miler before the heat set in. I’m participating in a volunteer event at the Kabbalah Centre in West Los Angeles tonight, so it will be more or less a non-stop eighteen hour day. I like busy, of course, except that it does give me precious little time to blog. I’ll see what I can squeeze in later.

And for those family and friends wanting an update, my wife called this morning from some remote jungle camp in Uganda, and is doing just fine. She’ll be home Saturday.

DMV

Very busy day, including a trip to the DMV to have my picture taken for my license renewal. I’ve got a post in mind about the reluctance of young people today to rush to get their licenses, which is a striking change from the experience of my generation. It will have to wait.

In the meantime, I realize that I am wearing the same shirt I had on the last time I had my license photo taken. I may like me my fashions, but I do get a heck of a lot of wear out of the clothes I buy.

Tired and busy

There is no sense on my part that having an extra day this month means more time for anything. It’s a very busy Friday, and I’m exhausted from the week, so this is all the posting I can manage. I finally sent off a submission for the Yes Means Yes anthology, and have some new writing ideas floating around in my head. And what I really want to do is lie on the couch and see if I can find the Cal-Washington State women’s basketball game on TV.

Not much today…

The substantive blogging will return later in the week… I’ve been writing too much lately, perhaps, and need to take a very short one or two-day break.

And I’m tired. I had one of those nineteen-hour days yesterday: up at 4:45AM for boxing class, four classes to teach, meetings to go to, student email to return, and — of course — blog posts to write. Last night after giving a midterm, I went home; my wife and I had a good friend over for dinner. The three of us stayed up late talking, catching up, eating absurd amounts of hummus — and we were up late enough to watch raccoons and possums appear in our yard. Bed was well after midnight.

And the alarm came awfully early this morning. I have midterms and letters of rec to write and more meetings to go to and neither the time nor the inclination to write.

So many people I know and love have had their lives turned upside down by these fires. The smoke is everywhere this morning, and several of my students with families in the burn areas have already told me that they won’t be coming to class. They are very much in my thoughts and prayers.

Monday morning

I’m in the office early; I met my boxing trainer at 5:30 this morning instead of the usual 6:00. It was a late night last night for us as well; we spent the day with my stepmother and sister in Santa Barbara. Lots of traffic coming back to Los Angeles, and we had “chinchilla duty” awaiting us. (With seven chinchillas, playtime takes an absolute minimum of ninety minutes a night.)

We stopped by the Santa Barbara cemetary yesterday morning. My father’s headstone is at last in place, and as I had expected, I became a bit tearful at seeing it for the first time. In the afternoon, we walked around the lagoon at UCSB where I had first walked with him as a toddler nearly forty years ago. It was a lovely, breezy, warm day. And though people always say this sort of thing, nearly a year and a half after his death, I still can’t believe my father is gone. Except that in some important sense, he isn’t.

And at Inside Higher Education, an expanded version of my post from a few weeks back on “educrats.” I changed what I thought were the weakest parts of the piece, but kept the polemical tone in place.

More to come.

Urinal chat: UPDATED

This morning in between classes, I slipped into the third floor faculty men’s room for a quick pit stop. We have just two old-fashioned urinals there, and one of my least favorite senior colleagues (I’ll call him “Manuel”) was stationed at one of them.

I’m not fond of this man; he and I have waged several ideological and pedagogical battles over the years. Nonetheless, I’m a cheery ENFP, and as I joined him to do my business, I said “Hey, my friend! What’s up?”

My colleague zipped himself, flushed the urinal, turned to me, and replied in a cool tone: “Why are you calling me your ‘friend’, Hugo?”

A bit stunned (and still busy with the task at — or in – hand) I slipped into the standard WASPy mode of cheerful, teasing, aggression: “Why, Manuel, are you saying we aren’t friends?” I threw in a wink.

Manuel made his way over to the sink to wash his hands, saying sharply as he did so, “I haven’t got time for your insincerity.”

As he headed out the door, I couldn’t resist an even-more exuberant, “You have a great day, buddy!”

Sigh. It’s true, I do address virtually every casual acquaintance as “buddy” or “my friend”. (My close male friends I call “my brother” or “brother man.”) I picked this habit twenty years ago, while spending two college summers working with the Public Works department in my hometown, hanging out with plumbers and carpenters and janitors. I suppose it does come across as frightfully insincere to some folks, and perhaps even aggressive to others.

And perhaps Manuel is right. I can come across to some folks as glibly insincere. And my standard response to hostility is to become even more polite and jovial (it’s violence, OKOP-style). I need to work on this.

UPDATE: Some folks have suggested that my use of the phrase “my brother” or “brother man” borrows from black culture. I picked up the former from all-white coworkers more than twenty years ago, and “brother man” has been in my vocabulary since I first read “Cat On A Hot Tin Roof” in high school — where it is used by whites to refer to an affluent white man.

Similarly, when we were kids my brother and I affectionately called each other “boo”. (My mother called me her “little boo” starting around 1967.) My brother and I started doing this in the 1970s, and were both stunned to find out, years later, that it was a standard African-American term for a lover! My brother is and always will be “my boo boy”; I will always be his. And we’re as white as can be and trust me, the use of “boo” in our family has damn all to do with cultural appropriation!

August anxiety

It’s a busy Sunday. My wife and I have family in town and lots of little errands that need doing, so I’ll be unable to do much posting over the next few days. I will get to the wage and gender issue (based on the Times article linked in the previous post) eventually.

August is a strange month. You see, unlike all but a very few of my peers, I have never not been in school. (I started Humpty-Dumpty nursery school in the fall of 1970, and have been in school ever since. I went from high school to college to graduate work to tenure-track teaching without a single semester’s break.). And after nearly forty years of “going back to school” in the vague vicinity of Labor Day, August is always my month of anticipation. I’m rethinking syllabi; catching up on reading I can use in classes; anticipating the coming of the Premiership and college football seasons; trying to get in some good “down time” with my wife, friends, and family.

It’s a time both soporific and anxious. It’s not the best time for blogging.

A note on being Hugo, one which contains a small Harry Potter spoiler

I have not read any of the Harry Potter books, and though I saw the first film in a theater and the second film on a long Emirates flight, I haven’t been keeping up with the movie versions either. I’ve got no objection to the Potter books on artistic or theological grounds, and mine is not an aversion rooted in snobbery. It’s just that I can always think of something else I’d rather read.

That said, I’ve heard from several people this weekend who excitedly report that in the epilogue to the final story, two central characters end up married with children — and they name their son “Hugo.” One young man I work with came running up to me on Saturday to inquire what my name “really means”, convinced that there was some deep symbolism embodied in Rowling’s choice. My name, depending on which source text you use, means “bright” or (I like this better) “bright mind.” This revelation seemed deeply satisfying to the sixteen year-old who was querying me, and he went off quite pleased.

I was named for my father’s side of the family. “Hugo” was my father’s father’s father. He came from a family of Moravian Jews who had thoroughly assimilated, and thus he and his brothers all had these very Germanic names (Berthold and Ludwig were other choices). “Benedict”, my middle name, comes from the first name of another great-great-grandfather. (My brother, Philip Arthur, was named for my mother’s side of the family).

I grew up hating my name. The teasing started early; some of my readers will be old enough to remember the character “Hugo, Man of a Thousand Faces” (a seemingly innocuous title that became a painful burden). One group of insipid children in third grade came up with the inspired “Hugo’s a go-go” (not that they really knew what go-go dancing entailed), and that monicker lasted throughout elementary school. I can remember wishing, at age ten or so, that I had been named “Mike”. That was by far the most popular boys’ name in my school, and it seemed just the sort of name that would act as a magical coat of protection against all sorts of insults. Once, while on the school bus, I tried to tell a new boy that my name was Mike, just to “try out” the new title; I was overheard and my deceit was greeted with cheerful howls of derision.

I began to appreciate my name in high school, largely because in my adolescence I began to value the very things I had been so ashamed of in my childhood. Where at nine or ten I had longed to fit in with all the other boys, at fifteen and sixteen I delghted in my uniqueness. I didn’t meet another Hugo until I was a seventeen year-old high school senior; I encoutered him at the California state Model UN convention. He was Hispanic, and when he introduced himself, asked “How did a white guy end up with a name like Hugo?” I was about to ask him a similar question; we had each assumed that Hugo belonged to a specific language group and were a bit thrown to discover that there are versions of Hugo in most Western European tongues.

I’ve met Dutch Hugos, Swedish Hugos, English Hugos and — by now — a great number of Hugos from Spanish-speaking families. Venezuala’s Chavez, with his infamy, has given the name a sinister touch (or, in the eyes of the fringe global left, a certain Fidelisque cachet). What I haven’t met yet is an American-born Hugo who doesn’t come out of a Hispanic background. I’ve corresponded with one or two, but haven’t yet met in person.

There is pleasure in an unusual name, though it is a pleasure I had to learn to love. I like knowing today that if I hear someone yell “Hugo” in a crowd, it is almost invariably for me. Yelling “Juan” or “Michael” (or, these days, “Hunter” or “Dylan”) often leads only to confusion. I like that I am easy to google, unlike my good friend Jennifer Brown or my dear colleague Steve Richards. The names that my wife and I have tentatively discussed for our future children, should the Lord bless us in that regard, will be kept secret until after the small ones arrive. But I can say that most of our options are indeed unusual. I fully expect my future son or daughter to go through a stage where they wish they had been named “Emily” or “Daniel” instead of the far more unusual name they’ve been given.

I like to scan the popular baby names provided by the Social Security Administration. My operating rule is that no child ought to be given a name from the top 50. Obviously, names go in and out of fashion; the current trend for boys’ names seems to be to mine the Old Testament, and for girls it seems trendy to turn to the likes of Jane Austen for inspiration. I didn’t know any “Avas” or “Jacobs” in my youth, and it seems that names like Lisa or Troy (which were hugely popular among those of us born in the mid-to-late ’60s) have all but vanished. But while one cannot predict long-term trends, one can predict what will be popular on elementary school rosters a few years from now. And it seems wise and good and right to pick with an eye towards the unusual, the ancient, the meaning-filled. Even if such a choice will lead a child to curse her parents when she is nine, she will surely rejoice in what is nearly uniquely hers when she is older.

I am a very happy Hugo Benedict.

All manner of things will be well

I’m home briefly between errands, a lunch date and a coffee date. When I can’t work out, I feel compelled to fill my social calendar as much as possible. If I can’t indulge my endorphin addiction, I can at least meet with folks who help me indulge my ENFP need for conversation. I’m counting on being past the contagious stage.

I’ve got this feeling of awe today, the sort I’ve had in the past right before God does something unexpected and surprising in my life. It’s a strange mix of anticipation, nervousness, gratitude — and the absolute certainty that no matter what, no matter what, it will all turn out for the good.

Why I’m not posting today

There’s some interesting discussion going on between both the DC Madam and Male Sex Drive posts below. I’ve got a post in my head that deals with lust, fantasy, fidelity, feminism, and the discourse of uncontrollable male sexuality, but it will have to wait until tomorrow.

Big bonus of being vegan (and, largely, raw): I need less sleep, as my body isn’t so tired from digesting meat, dairy, corn solids, and so forth. I’m now good to go on six hours a night on a consistent basis, and this makes me very happy, as it means I can fit more into my day.

Today I woke up at 5:00, did my morning meditation and journaling, had a cup of coffee (that’s one thing I have no intention of giving up) and headed out for a great 11-mile run. I’m now starting to ramp up training for July’s San Francisco Marathon, and that means one long run on Sundays and a “mid-length” run on Wednesdays. If I can get my mileage up to around 50 a week by the middle of the month, I’ll feel pretty good. By the end of the month, after my birthday, I’ll be ready for a little speed work.

Now I’m in the office, getting ready for office hours — I have several students coming, most to go over their midterms. At 10:25, I lecture on post-Napoleonic Europe and the rise of Nationalism; at 12 noon, I’ll discuss the rise of the Roman Republic and the Gracchi; at 1:25, I have my “dysfunctional family” humanities course, and we’ll be talking about Ibsen’s “Doll’s House” and the role of Christine Linde as proto-feminist hero.

After school, I have some student journals to finish marking. Then it’s off to the gym for some quick lifting, home for a quick shower and snack, and off to Wednesday night youth group. Then it’s home by 9:00PM for some chinchilla time, and some (Lord willing, quick) work on a proposal for some workshops I want to teach on men and sexuality. I’ll make my lunch for tomorrow, and lay out my clothes for the morning. And when all that’s done, my wife and I will sit down (she with a glass of Cabernet or Pinot, me with a glass of Gerolsteiner), and we’ll “de-brief” and laugh together. If all goes well, we’ll be lights out by midnight.

It’s gonna be an awesome day; I feel blessed beyond words to have the life I do. I don’t give a darn if I sound like a caricature, describing my day. This is an eponymous blog, after all.

More posting tomorrow.