'I will be in the prime of my ovulation...we can conceive a mini-Baldwin': The thousands of words of crazed ranting sent to Alec Baldwin by his 'stalker'

Speaking of losing battles.... I'm not driving to NY today, Marty is not available.

But regardless of that, he knows what I need to discuss,he agree and understand and we will do
it over the phone tonight.

I may had lost all the battles to win your heart over in the past 2 years...but Ive learn so much.

I learn even more about the magnificent man you are...about your objectives, your goals and your  MISSION.

I see clearly the path you are on, your quest, your challenges. I believe with all my hearth and soul I'm the best women to get you there! That's my only mission.

I got to know you so much better since those longs months without you and I know that words are not has meaningful to you then actions can be.

So stand by and be ready...I'm going to be fully available in only one phone call...Hope you will
finally be there for me, because nothing else matters to me.

I gave up everything for you, I've change my inter life for you and knowing what I know now, I. would do it anytime again to be with you. Only, I would do it faster then 12 years.

I really hope you will be there for me. My heart is telling me..yes!

If I go to yoga classes, it bother her, if I recycle she complain and put non recycling object in the bin to detroy the process.

If I talce care of my self, health and beauty she put me down.

If I love my car, my dog ...anything...she want it for her possession. She desire what I love.

If I demonstrate interest in weeding cake, dresses ceremonial ...she tell me loud she would never pay a cent for me...

If l am calme ready, learning and in peace with myself...she bring the full chaos on!!!

Her words to me are contant mocking,complain and putting me down...so before I've swallowed it to a point that only asthma attact could be a relief and then I've defended my self to a point that we could ended up physical toward each other...and now...I want out! I want something heathy in my life.

I know wisdom person can stay focus and center in a chaos and It's surly a learning that is important/valuable to achieve. I understand that well.

But it enough now...I need a reward of all my work and accomplishments. I need you to marry
me today and take me to USA.

Accept my proposal and I will take you strait to heaven.

There is many things I would do to you now in order to give you all kinds of delightful pleasure..

French are the best lovers in the world and I master my art.

Let me talce you to nirvana...now and for etemety

Can you see that all am asking is in fact for you, for your project, for your benefit?
You have nothing to loose, accept and start walking into your path NOW!

In order to get you there I need:
-Alliance in all aspect.
- a new house in NY and MTL.
-a new wardrobe, car and jewels ...all of what I need to fonction.
-the best ccm and care to up grade and maintain my youth, health and beauty.
-travels
-Financial security and independence
-your public, personal and sincere reconnaissance, commitment and respect.
-your fidelity.
-options to grow, learn, evolve and create.
-care for my mother ( so I couLd have peace of mind)...

Inreturn ...

I will become the most sexy, beautiful and exiting women you never had.
I will nourish you with my energy, power and magic...I will give you all.
I will take you where you need to be to become the man you dream of being.
and more...

I will make you so happy.

I will listen, observe and learn from you constantly, I will be aware, focus and very serious about all of this.

I will be highly fonctionnal in the security needs of your reality and I will be the best allies you
could ever have, you've train me to be aware and I've learn well, I am ready to start now.

But just before...

I need to rest few days with you by my side in order to stop this high tension mode, finally sleep, lost few pounds from stress and be radiant again.

I need to get my magical smile back, my sexy figure and sparkling eyes back for our project and
only your presence will fix it for me now.

Imagine a get away together on a beach with good healthy food, a lot of water, long walk, massages, beauty threaments... and a comfortable bed ...just you and I very privately.
I would then be the most beautiful/happy women alive.

That's truly what I want and need to be happy today and regain my beauty and health. So we could then start for real.

it is the begaining of spring in Montreal. The air, the grass, the nature..everuthing smell and feel different, new and alive now.
I want to be naked in your bed and make love with you all night and every mornings.
I want to feel you, taste you and make one with you for eternity.
I will be in the prime of my ovulation on this St-Patrick day and for me, the best gift from you above all, will be to conceive a mini-Baldwin on this Ireland national day.
The pleasures will be immense, unique..and absolute and the result will be perfect.
I'm burning of desire for you and Ican't restraint my body anymore.
I'm now totally all yours.

You when on and on, on a massive destructive war with Kim..and it will never end between you
2.
Do you wishes to establish the same type of relationship with me? If you do, you'll be surprise to realize that 'I'm smarter, more efficient, much more creative...and more ressourcesful then Kim.

If That prior war with KB was hard enough on you to ended up writing a book about it,
if you choose to maintain and escalade this conflict with me, instead of choosing reconciliation, then be prepare to write the Bible.

I want peace and I need it...but what do you truly need now? Tell me what you want??

This has been 2years of massive destruction for nothing. Now I might as well be constructively destructive, at lest in it, there is hope. I'm coming, be prepare...

Call the FBI and tell them that by tomorrow I'll be in front of the Devonshire building,the Eldorado just in case..., both Yoga vida studios, the Silvercup studios...,weekend in Amagansett. ..letterm all!!!

And I will buy expensive tickets to all events, evenings , gala where you will be...we will fix this
situation now! I'm coming to NY! !!! I'm packing my car now...

I'm not afraid of loosing all because I already decide I lost you 2 years ago.
Go ahead and trow me to jail... or simply .do better then KIM and help me kindly.

Ok, you put an end to this suffering or..I'll simply continue following my heart, not my head.

I'm ready to move to NY with or without your help but, for one reason and one only... Not the town, not acting, not the park.or anything this place got to offer..no,
My heart and soul is in NY because you are there!!!

So I now calculate that I could financially last 2 months and if things go accordingly to what I
expect money wise, I could last 4months/ 4 and 1/2 months before eating up my house equity ..

It's enough to accidentally bump into you fews times and make this all better between us.
l'ill follow my heart all the way to the last beat of it. It's not craziness or stubumess it's real true love and it hurt truly! !

I won't have income and l'ill spend it all to find a way thru you, thru your heart, simply because it's the right thing to do. I want lo do what's right! !

I'm leaving today for NY, will squat on friends coach and find a room to sublet...and  l'ill find you and fix thing between us, no matter what it will coast me.

You can cal I the FBI and put me to jail or call me and help me out with this. I'm leaving for New York now!!!

I've got an easy access inside the Eldorado and the Devonshire building ( less then 6 degrees of separation ..like with my friend Peter Forbs)

I've got IEB adress ad road to get there and I've got many free Air Canada flight ticket to get there, plus free car rental to drive up there and wait.

I will change my name and take yoga classes you know where and I'll become HLT best friend, faster then you know...l'll use her ego.

I will use my very good contact in NBC universal to be INSIDE I will works in Silvercup studio and be INSIDE

I will get to you not to stuck you, hurt you or harm you in any way....but simply to straiten your
ass out, because you have humiliated me for the last time!! I'm coming!! thoughtless little kim basinger wanna be!

and the only valuable thing I'm not bringing with me in the big apple, Is a copy of all our e-mails and conversations we had since day one.

I've secure them in a safe at the bank, so your FBI and tile international press,could realize that it is a dance we did both dance together since YOUR first phone call...

I'll indeed forward directly those infos to many very good journalist friends of mine, in need of a scoop, if ever anything bad would happen to me, someone have the key double of my bank safe and the bank VP ( a friend) receive a letter from me giving access to this friend to my safe account and have instruction to give the info to our media friends.

Will you be ready now to negociate peace or should I go on with all of this?? Stop being a "monster like Kim" and be you for God sake...it time now!

It take an evil, twisted and very sick mind to Keep a father away from his child. Above all it take a selfish an narcissistic person to be insensible for years to so much pain,hurt..desperation.

I pity Kim for being such monster... But you are not like •that. It's now time to put an end to all this pain and move on into betters days together.

Prove me right by picking me up today, I can no longer stand on my    feet. I need your help now.

I'm getting myself invited on march 26 to the "The New York Philharmonic Spring Gala" !!!
I'm working on a magnificent dress and jewels loans with my contacts... I'll to die for!

I'll be there and I'll meet with you....luck enough, we could be sitting at the same table? Do you want this to happen in an non-cntrol place and time at any given moment like a bad surprise, in front of many people???

Or will you prefer to be the man I know you are and do this meeting in a much better,private and respectful way??

It's not my intention to draw medias attention into a public scene and argumentations with you...but I need to meet with you now and I haven't been successful any other way.

I'll do what ever it"s require to get this time to fix it with you and regain my self respect, a peace of mind.., above-all my dignity and the right to trust, love and live again..

Believe me I won't be a poor little girl treated as a stucker by you, coming at you defenceles on the 26.

No, the man inviting me is even more "big" and powerful then you are in the entertainement industry and you have many mutuals friends in common...he will be able to spread my side of this story on my behafe to those you both know, if any drama would happen there.

You will not be able to have security people mistreated me and trow me out of this Gala. We will then be on equal grown to negociate this peace.

Should I go all the way there and force you to be a respectful gentleman, or will you accept to do this in better circomstances??

BTW: he won't give my name as is date, I'll be name as his guess in the confirmation list...so I can keep the surprise and beLieve me , you will be surpriseD!! a lot!!
Then you will know what I'm really made of!

Instead of force and drama, pick a place and a time for us to meet tonight or tomorrow and I'll be fully and peacefully available to you in order to discuss, understand and forgive for all that happen between us. Then we will both leave in peace and move on.