The marriage that survived HIS affair but was destroyed by HERS: Sarah and Tony both cheated. But their break-up proves the sexes have very different attitudes to infidelity

  • Sarah and Tony met and married in their earlier twenties
  • He cheated after they had a baby
  • He said fatherhood was 'more oppressive' than he realised
  • When Sarah discovered his affair she forgave him
  • But years later he cheated again
  • She sought a fling to pay him back
  • Now the trust is gone on both sides they've split up
  • Experts agree emotional turmoil caused by a wife cheating can be greater
  • Both admit the thrill of an affair wasn't worth what they have lost

By Antonia Hoyle

PUBLISHED: 17:34 EST, 20 November 2013 | UPDATED: 12:32 EST, 21 November 2013

When Sarah and Tony Fulcher talk about the end of their marriage, their regret is palpable. She says that she still loves him, which reduces him to painful sobbing.

'I still love Sarah and will never get over throwing away the life we shared,' he says.

So, if the emotional ties are intact, what drove this couple apart? Superficially, the answer seems to be depressingly commonplace: infidelity. Recent research shows cheating occurs in over 40 per cent of marriages.

Broken marriage: Sarah and Tony Fulcher still love each other, but all trust has been lost

Broken marriage: Sarah and Tony Fulcher still love each other, but all trust has been lost

What makes this couple different, however, is that it wasn't Tony's two flings, but Sarah's 'revenge affair' that finally ended their relationship.

 

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What their sorry story highlights is that while many believe a man can cheat and think it 'means nothing', as Tony himself says, when a woman strays there is often a more powerful motive behind it.

The emotional turmoil caused by a wife cheating can be far greater and, as many experts agree, it is harder to save the marriage.

Sarah and Tony, who are both single three years after their split, have been left with nothing but bitter regret and a profound sense of loss. Their sons, Jake, 13, and Ashton, six, have had to adjust to being brought up in a broken home.

Young love: The couple met when they were both 22

Young love: The couple met when they were both 22

The couple started dating in November 1998 when they were both 22 after meeting through friends.

Sarah was drawn to Tony's sense of humour and the fact he was 'endearingly shy' when he was with her.

The relationship progressed quickly, with Tony moving into Sarah's two-bedroom home in Reading, Berks, within months.

'Not only did I fancy him like mad, but I felt far more relaxed with him than I had with previous boyfriends,' says Sarah.


'I started staying late at work and went out more as a means of escape. I found myself flirting with female friends. I just wanted to feel like myself again'

She proposed the following spring, with two dozen red roses and a note asking: 'Will you marry me?'

She insists Tony wasn't rushed into marriage: he got down on one knee in front of their family and friends at their engagement party.

'My parents have been happily married for 38 years and I wanted the same,' says Sarah, now 37. 'I'd been brought up to think marriage was for life and I took the commitment incredibly seriously.'

Tony says: 'Sarah was the love of my life. I was besotted by her ditsy charm and beauty, and had no intention of being with another woman.

'Nor could I cope with the idea of her with another man. I told her at the start of our relationship that if either of us cheated then it would be over.'

They planned to have a baby and within months Sarah was pregnant. They married a month before Jake was born.

Commitment: After Sarah initially proposed, Tony went down on one knee at their engagement party

Commitment: After Sarah initially proposed, Tony went down on one knee at their engagement party

Perfect start: They tied the knot and had their first baby

Perfect start: They tied the knot and had their first baby

For the first few weeks, everything was perfect. They left love notes to each other around the house. Tony ran Sarah candlelit baths and made her ice-cream.

'I was exhausted by the demands of looking after a newborn, but I still tried to be the perfect wife,' says Sarah.

'Tony was working for a building company and every evening I'd greet him, carefully made-up, with a home-cooked meal on the table. I didn't want to be one of those wives who let themselves go.'

But within three months of Jake's birth in July 2000, Tony was struggling to adjust to life as a father.

'Fatherhood was far more oppressive than I'd envisaged,' he says. 'We felt more like co-workers than husband and wife.

'I started staying late at work and went out more as a means of escape. I found myself flirting with female friends. I just wanted to feel like myself again.'


'A slim brunette sidled up to me in the bar and asked me to dance. I was too flattered to refuse'

One Saturday in September 2001, Tony didn't return home after a night out until 4am.

'I lay awake until I heard his key in the lock. As he got into bed, I could smell his breath was heavy with alcohol and I knew there was no point in trying to talk to him,' says Sarah.

'The next morning, before he left for football training, he kissed me with an urgency I'd never felt before. I was hit with the awful, instinctive realisation that he'd cheated on me.'

The wife of one of Tony's friends phoned Sarah to tell her he'd met a woman in a bar and had 'been all over her'.

'I felt stupid, angry and confused,' says Sarah. 'I confronted him straight away and he admitted he'd kissed her, but said nothing else had happened.'

It is only now, 12 years on, that Tony finally admits the truth.

'A slim brunette sidled up to me in the bar and asked me to dance. I was too flattered to refuse. To my great shame, we started kissing and went on to have sex.'

He insists it 'meant nothing and I didn't particularly enjoy it'.

Marital therapist Andrew G. Marshall, the author of How Can I Ever Trust You Again?, says husbands straying after their wife has had a baby is not unusual.

Shock to the system: Tony admits fatherhood was tougher than he expected and he and Sarah became more like 'co-workers' than man and wife

Shock to the system: Tony admits fatherhood was tougher than he expected and he and Sarah became more like 'co-workers' than man and wife

'Men tend to feel isolated at this point, but they don't air their feelings,' he says.

'When another woman shows them the attention they crave, one thing can lead to another. They don't set out to cheat: it's a knee-jerk reaction.'

Though she stormed out of the house after Tony's confession, Sarah thought twice about ending their marriage.

'Common sense took hold. We had a 14-month-old baby, so I had to try to make it work,' she says.
'When I returned home, Tony was full of apologies and told me he still loved me.'

Sarah tried to forgive and forget, but admits: 'I felt too disgusted to have sex with him - the thought of another woman's hands on his body made me feel sick.'


 'When we made love I was sure he was thinking of someone else. I drove him to and from work. I confiscated his phone. I hated the way I was behaving, but couldn't help it'

This lack of physical intimacy compounded the marriage crisis. Within five years, Tony had slipped up again, blaming his wife's continued rejection.

'It boils down to feeling desired again for the first time in years,' he says. 'A woman at work started flirting with me and though I didn't find her attractive it was a thrill after having been rebuffed by Sarah for so long.'

Again, Andrew G. Marshall says this isn't unusual: 'Men equate love with sex. If they aren't having sex, they don't feel loved, so they're less likely to feel that they want to be in the relationship.'

Tony swears the betrayal was confined to explicit text messages - 'I sent them when Sarah was asleep or I was in a meeting; any time I needed a boost to my battered self-esteem' - but he couldn't convince his wife it had not gone any further.

Her suspicions having been alerted by him wearing a new aftershave and insisting on keeping his mobile in his pocket, she had managed to get hold of his phone and so discovered the texts.

'There was a message from someone describing how wonderful kissing Tony felt. Stunned, I called the number. A well-spoken woman answered. I hung up, furious.'

She confronted Tony and though he admitted to flirting, he insisted nothing physical had happened.

Sarah didn't believe him. She kicked him out, bundled his clothes into bin bags and flung them in a skip.

Thrill: He couldn't resist when women flirted with him but Sarah forgave his two affairs

Thrill: He couldn't resist when women flirted with him but Sarah forgave his two affairs

'On the way home from throwing away his stuff I tore off my diamond engagement ring and hurled it out of the car window. I stamped on his phone and threw it down the toilet. I was furious, but utterly numb with shock.'

Tony says being thrown out was a wake-up call: 'For the first time I was filled with remorse for the way I'd behaved since we married.

'All I could do was obsess over Sarah, Jake and the family life I hadn't realised I would miss until it was too late. I was overwhelmed by a sense of failure.'

He begged Sarah to take him back.

'I was torn,' says Sarah. 'Tony seemed to be making an effort to sort himself out. He appeared to be genuinely sorry. But how could I be sure he wouldn't do it again?'


'Any satisfaction that I'd given Tony a taste of his medicine was over-ridden by revulsion at my own behaviour'

Six months later, she decided to take him back. Within two months, she was pregnant with Ashton.

This time Tony worked hard to be a better father, making sure he was home for bath and bedtime. But Sarah found it hard to trust him.

'If Tony came home late I'd panic,' she says. 'When we made love I was sure he was thinking of someone else. I drove him to and from work. I confiscated his phone. I hated the way I was behaving, but couldn't help it.'

Then she says that something inside her snapped: she found herself longing to pay back Tony.

'I wanted to feel the excitement he'd got from other women,' she says. 'And I wanted him to suffer as I had.'

So, she set out to have an affair - which would prove to be the final straw for their marriage.

It started with Sarah responding to flirty messages on Facebook in early 2008.

'James and I met through mutual friends,' says Sarah. 'He'd moved away from Reading a few years earlier, so the distance made flirting feel safe.

'I confided in him about my problems with Tony. He built up my confidence and soon every time I went online and saw a message from him my stomach flipped.'

Weeks later the inevitable happened when Sarah 'bumped into' James on a rare night out with friends. She insists she hadn't known he would be in town.

They ended up going for dinner and, as she says, 'emboldened by drink', Sarah agreed to go back with him to his friend's house.

No going back: The mother believes her revenge affair was the final nail in the coffin to end their relationship

No going back: The mother believes her revenge affair was the final nail in the coffin to end their relationship

Echoing her husband's words when he described his affairs, she says: 'For a fleeting moment I felt vibrant and free.' But she adds: 'In bed, the feel of another man's skin on my own was wrong. As soon as it was over I fled. I wept the whole taxi journey home.

'The next morning I didn't feel powerful; just dirty and ashamed. When Tony asked me where I'd been, I lied. I said I'd fallen asleep on my friend's sofa. But I could tell he didn't believe me.'

Later that afternoon, Sarah logged onto Facebook at her mother's house to warn James that Tony was suspicious. As she did so, her mobile rang.

'It was Tony,' she says. 'He'd logged on to my Facebook page using my name and password and had accessed all my messages to James.'

Back home, there was yet another confrontation. This time it was Sarah apologising, but she still threw in the jibe: 'At least now you know how I felt.'

But far from enjoying her revenge, all she felt was distress. 'Any satisfaction that I'd given Tony a taste of his medicine was over-ridden by revulsion at my own behaviour,' she says.

Andrew G. Marshall says female infidelity tends to seem more calculated because women don't act on impulse as much as men do.

'Women tend to flag up their unhappiness over and over before doing anything drastic,' he says.
'When they're repeatedly ignored, they reach a point of desperation and that's when they might cheat. Essentially, men and women cheat for the same reason: they feel undervalued.'

Marshall says much of his work involves trying to help victims of infidelity not to have revenge affairs like Sarah's.

'Soldiering on without examining your feelings is the worst thing you can do. People try to bury their resentment, but it only explodes later on,' he says.

'They then tend to feel so bad they'll do anything to make themselves feel better - someone else wanting you feels like the answer.'

Angry as he was at his wife's cheating, Tony was keen to give their ailing marriage yet another try, but Sarah couldn't forgive herself. Her fling proved to be the death knell for their relationship and they split for good in April 2010.

Tony moved out, finding a home nearby where he could look after their sons three days a week.

According to Andrew G. Marshall, one reason why it's harder for a marriage to survive a wife's affair is because men give up more easily.


Paying the price

After an affair has been discovered, just one in three marriages will survive, according to relationship experts

'Generally, if a man says he's not interested, but the wife wants to continue, she will fight to persuade him. If the reverse happens, the husband tends to take his wife at her word and walk away.

'Interestingly, in this case, Sarah couldn't forgive herself, but her husband could. Considering they have children together and say they still love each other, perhaps they should ask each other how they could do it differently.'

But three years on, neither has moved on. While Sarah has been on a few dates, she says she feels 'too bruised and distrustful' to embark on another relationship.

Tony says: 'Any momentary excitement my affairs afforded me were simply not worth it. If I hadn't done what I did there's no way Sarah would have cheated on me and we'd still be together.'

Sarah says that though they are friends there is no chance of reconciliation and they plan to divorce when Ashton is old enough to understand.

'We are proof that no marriage can survive when the trust has been broken both ways,' she says. 'After I cheated, there was just no going back.'

Some names have been changed.

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There's an immaturity in British culture about having lovers, very repressed it seems, then on eg Tracey Cox articles so many Brits comment that it's normal for sex lives to dwindle after years of marriage. Not sophisticated, this couple should make a pact to embrace, ENJOY life. Puritanism kills the human spirit and it's childlike.

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Maybe Sam. One could argue it's childlike to indulge every whim too... I don't know if the French are more sophisticated in relationships, I think it's more of that they believe they are.

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Love how some women criticise men for thinking with their ***** but then, five seconds later, in the name of equality and revenge, say that women have the right to think with their ***** too.

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Did they ever think that their 13 year old son might be reading this? "I had an affair because my son was born". Yep, great parenting.

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If ever two people needed to grow up, this is embarrassing.

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What a sickening, sexist, appalling article. And where did you dig up your 'expert'. I think this article may finally be the push I need to stop reading this dreadful rag.

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Take me with you!

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Once the trust is gone, it cant be regained

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its different for blokes -

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Its quite funny on how you actually believe that nonsense. When you say that your "different" or "hardwired differently" you sound stupid and uneducated. We all went to school and attended Sex Education class, we are not stupid and stop trying to feed us this B.S. Men and their smoke and mirrors.

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'A slim brunette sidled up to me in the bar and asked me to dance. I was too flattered to refuse. To my great shame, we started kissing and went on to have sex.'...... SUUUURE, that's exactly what didn't happen! The poor dear though, how could any marriage survive a man who is so irresistible that he can't leave the house without falling privates first into some random woman?!

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i liked this comment mainly for the 'falling privates first into some random woman' phrase. hahaha, brilliant!

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She's a mug for taking him back the first time he did it,regardless of the baby.

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Feel more sorry for the kids. They still love each other but too much water under the bridge.

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