Archive for November, 2008

So I'm Kinda Done

November 30, 2008 - 4:03 am No Comments

I’ll still do this whole NaBloPoMo thing, because come on. There’s only two days left. But I have no interest in doing any Learning to Love You More assignments today. So, you know, I’m not gonna.

Laini and I saw Twilight again today. Man. Okay, so the books? I didn’t really get into them at first, because I didn’t really like the writing style. I dug that the books took place in Forks, WA, because really? Nothing takes place in Forks, WA. However, you can totally tell that the author hadn’t been to Forks before writing the books.

I had a minicrush on the idea of Edward when reading the books. I am totally an Edward girl. But that was all.

And then I saw the movie. And I want one. This movie causes me to regress back to a boycrazy 14 year old. Laini and I giggled the whole time. Grandma made fun of us. It cracked me up. But seriously? The looks Edward gives Bella make me jealous. I want someone to look at me like that. To hold me like that. I know, it’s just Hollywood’s unrealistic view of what love should be, but I want it anyway. I want someone who can’t keep their hands off of me, and I don’t mean in a sexual way. Edward is always touching Bella in some way, a hand on her back, around her shoulders, protecting her. I want someone to feel protective of me.

We’re still here.

To My Lovely:

November 29, 2008 - 9:10 am No Comments

We’ll get through this, together. You’re stronger than you think.

We’re still here.

These are things I don't do:

November 29, 2008 - 6:52 am No Comments

I don’t get in the middle of other people’s relationships. I am happier when my friends are in relationships than out of them. I certainly don’t want to be responsible for breaking someone up.

I give input, and advice if asked, but that’s all. I don’t expect people to follow it. Heck, I’m no expert.

I don’t pretend to be perfect, and I don’t think I am above self improvement. I know I am seriously flawed, and I am constantly working towards becoming a better version of me. It will take me a lifetime to get there, but I’m blessed with patient people.

I don’t believe your lies.

I don’t party. I am not out at all times. I don’t do drugs or drink profusely. I don’t rebel.

What I do: I listen, I support, I grow, I stay at home, I put my pajamas on by 7pm, I play with my family, I try so hard to simplify, I learn to let go.

I’m pretty sure you can’t read this, but your words have no power. Your lies are not welcome here. I’m done giving you anymore energy. You aren’t worth the worry.

We’re still here.

Make a Protest Sign and Protest: LTLYM Assignment #34

November 29, 2008 - 2:55 am No Comments

Instead of protesting something, we chose to raise awareness. Here is Nini and I at the March of Dimes.

Describe What To Do With Your Body When You Die: LTLYM Assignment #51

November 28, 2008 - 7:29 am No Comments

When I die I don’t want to be cut open. I don’t want to be embalmed. I don’t want my corpse to last forever, that’s silly! I just want to be buried the way I die, quickly. Why drag it out?

When I die I want to be buried in my glamorous black dress that reminds me of Donna Reed. I want to be buried in pearls, and my red heels with the peep toe. I want my pretty red coat, in case the afterlife is cold.

I want my hair flat ironed, and I want red lipstick.

I want all of my friends to come to my funeral, but only the ones who really matter. I don’t care if it’s a small funeral, as long as the people who are there are people who love me.

I want to be buried someplace pretty.

After I’m in the ground, I want everybody to have a fantastic party. I want good food, and good music. It would be a plus if my mom could meet a man at my funeral. I’d like to be responsible for that. And I want everyone to dress up, but not necessarily in black. Just wear something super glamorous!

And a Happy Thanksgiving to you, too!

November 27, 2008 - 11:06 pm No Comments

So every year I say some variation of the same thing. I say: “I’m like Nordstrom’s, baby! No decorations till after Thanksgiving.”

Every year I lie. I mean, my house isn’t decorated or anything. I haven’t pulled out my N Sync and Christina Aguilera Christmas albums yet. But I have decorated my blog. Cause I’m silly like that. :P

But I waited until the day before Thanksgiving, and really? That’s good enough.

So today is the 27th of November. That means I only have to Learn to Love You More 4 more times. Fantastic! I have done today’s assignment, basically, but I need my laptop in order to post the pictures.

Next year Nini and I are going to do a NaBloPoMo challenge together. I personally am just stunned we both managed to do it on our own this year!

I finally learned what Rick Rolling is. Weezer, you are ridiculous. That is why I love you.

For those of you who are fans of the other NieNie, there was a very pleasant surprise on her blog last night! I am surprised at how good Christian looks. I expected worse.

I am having an amazing hair day today. I am so thankful for that. :P

You know, now that I come from a “broken home”, holidays are somewhat anticlimactic. I used to relish in Thanksgiving and Christmas, with both my brothers at home, and my parents doing the cooking thang. The last Christmas that things were really okay with my parents, Donovan and I were still together, which just added to that increased awesome of having your family around you. My grandma would be here, and sometimes relatives from California would come up as well. Or we would drive to Montesano and stay with my aunt and uncle.

Now Donovan is engaged to someone else, my dad is celebrating his holiday in Pt Angeles, and Bryan is stationed in California and could not come home. Grandma is still here, and Joe has been added to my family, but my relatives down south aren’t doing as well. And my aunt and uncle? Divorced. Brutally, messily divorced. We’re not even cooking dinner. We’re going to a restaurant, after my mom gets off work. I miss having my family around me, and it’s times like these that make me realize how much I do want my own family someday. I want to be able to create something that resembles what I lost. I don’t know if that’s “healthy” or not, but it’s honest. That’s all that really matters, anyway.

Oh bah. I’m off to go find something fun to do and be thankful for. Peace out folks, and remember to smile! We’re still here!


November 27, 2008 - 6:23 am 2 Comments

Record the Sound That Is Keeping You Awake: LTLYM Assignment #58

November 27, 2008 - 4:48 am No Comments


I too can steal memes….

November 26, 2008 - 7:07 am 1 Comment

Stolen from She She:

Round One

1. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?

Lots of people! But most notably, Laini, as we first waited around for Jerry to meet us at Bobbi’s, and then waited around for Jerry to tell me the webcam is in fact broken. Lame.

2. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?

Going to Nashville for New Years! Bryan coming home for Christmas! Getting my nails done on Saturday! :P

3. Who was the last person you called?

I called Laini. We are on the phone even as I type this. What can I say? I just can’t get enough, I just can’t get enough….

4. What were you doing at 12am last night?

Trying to calm down. That damn web cam made me all sorts of CRAZY! I was tense for days. Or, you know, a day.

5. What did you fear was going to get you as a child?

There was this Jehovah’s Witness who used to come to the door often, but only when my parents weren’t home. I thought that was weird. He gave me nightmares.

6. When did you last see your mom?

Sunday night, but only for a minute. I stopped by her house to drop off Joe’s pretend birthday present. Her dog was locked outside. It was freezing out. It was a fiasco.

7. What are you wearing right now?

UW sweatpants, my Fresno State hoodie, and a pair of turquoise grandma panties.

8. Where is your favorite place to be?

Geographically – At the moment, I would say Lake Quinalt. I really only think that in the fall, though.
Mentally – Placid.
Emotionally – Content.
Physically – With Richard.

9. Where is your least favorite place to be?

Um… work, I guess. OOH! No, commuting home from work. The I-5 corridor es no bueno at 5pm.

10. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?

Is it lame if I say Nashville?

11. Where do you think you’ll be in 10 years?

Happy. That’s all I can ask for, really.

12. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?

Lilli and her exhibitionist tendencies. She kept flashing me her butt because she knew I was filming her. Weirdo.

13. What cities/towns/villages have you lived in?

San Francisco and Fremont, CA
Fox Island, Ellensburg, Tacoma and Gig Harbor, WA

14. Are you a social person?

In measured doses. I can only handle so many people at once.

15. What do you like about winter?

Scarves! And hats and gloves and my new red coat….

Round Two -
Unconscious Mutterings:

I say … and you think … ?

Coverage – Full
Cynical – Negative
Gust – Winnie Pooh and the Blustery Day
Improvised – Fly by the seat of my pants
V – Vivisection
Guests – Be Our
Brutal – My Onnie
Grant – Laini’s hot cousin. I’m a pervert.
Pull – Push &
Streaming – Live

I tag: Laini, Melissa, Karianne and Carrie

Make A Paper Replica of Your Bed: LTLYM Assignment #16

November 26, 2008 - 2:21 am No Comments