Former Royal aide tells of moment she stabbed lover

Former royal aide Jane Andrews gave dramatic evidence in the witness box today as she told of the moment when she stabbed her lover.

The prosecution allege Andrews flew into a jealous rage when Tommy Cressman refused to marry her, hit him with a cricket bat and stabbed him in the chest with a kitchen knife.

Andrews, 34, denies murdering businessman Mr Cressman, 39, in the bedroom of the £400,000 house they shared in Fulham.

Andrews described how Mr Cressman had fallen on top of her while she was holding the kitchen knife during a fight.

She said he was kneeling on the bed above her holding her hair and trying to hit her.

"I just picked it up because I didn't want him to come anywhere near me," she said.

She said she had no chance to tell him she was holding the knife before he collapsed on top of her.

"The next thing I knew he was on top of me, it happened. We came together and the next thing I knew he was on top of me."

Asked by defending counsel John Kelsey-Fry QC if she had known the knife had gone into Mr Cressman she said yes but she denied stabbing him or intending that the knife should go into him.

She said she crawled out from underneath him and said she tied her dressing gown cord between the door handle and the bannister to stop him following her and attacking her.

Andrews then ran up to the bathroom where she realised she was covered in blood and that Mr Cressman must be seriously injured.

She washed off the blood, pulled on trousers and shoes and left the house with just a jacket on and underwear.

She said she had walked past the bedroom on her way out and heard no sound from Mr Cressman.

Asked if she realised what that meant she said: "He was dead".

She said she panicked and got into her car, not knowing where she was going but did not think anyone would believe her if she tried to explain what had happened.

"It was all the arguments we had that day and the fight in the morning when he called the police and I had been ringing everybody, telling them that the relationship was over and that was it, that he didn't want to marry me."

She telephoned her ex-husband, she said in a hysterical state and then drove down the A3 where she pulled over and slept in her car.

In the morning she drove to Portsmouth and then headed west saying she still had no idea where she was going.

By Tuesday she said she had not seen any of the publicity surrounding the death but said a newspaper had called her mobile and left two messages.

At that stage she began text messaging her friend asking what was wrong and why the press wanted to get hold of her.

She said she still believed that no one would believe her story of what had happened and left text messages saying that Mr Cressman had not called her, and asking why.

After the messages from a newspaper, Andrews said she had bought 40 to 50 Nurofen and had taken a couple immediately.

She continued taking the pills while she drove and was found asleep in her car on Wednesday morning by a police officer. She was then taken to hospital for treatment for the Nurofen overdose.

Asked why she had taken the tablets she said: "Because I was in such a state that Tommy was dead and I just panicked.

"I was in such a state and I just kept thinking nobody would believe me."

She admitted that she had told police she did not believe that Mr Cressman was dead when she left the house and said she realised that was not true.

"It doesn't make any sense, I just kept thinking that no one will believe me," she said.

Asked again if she had tried to kill Mr Cressman she said: "No not at all".

Earlier, Andrews told the Old Bailey how her boyfriend committed a serious sexual assault on her just hours before he was found stabbed to death at their home.

Sobbing so hard she was almost inaudible, she told the jury that he had tied her to the bed during a shouting match, then laughed as he attacked her.

The couple were rowing after wealthy businessman Cressman had refused to see a therapist despite admitting he needed help for sexual and commitment problems and his "black moods", she said.

Andrews told the jury of 10 women and two men that he tried to strangle her, but then ran away to phone police while she continued to rage at him.

She told him she was leaving him and was going to tell his friends about his "dirty little habits".

"He started to grab at me and I was crawling to the top of the bed and he grabbed hold of my leg.

I was hanging on to the brass headboard. I was on my front.

"He then jumped on the bed and he was on top of me. I couldn't move.

"He was sat on top of me then he grabbed one of the pillows and put it on top of my head to shut me up.

"I was trying to lash out at him and I pulled the pillow off. He grabbed my cord from the dressing gown I was wearing and I was still trying to stop him and he grabbed hold of my wrist."

Andrews sobbed and gasped for breath as she told how he had tied her down with her dressing gown cord.

"I couldn't move, he pulled my dressing gown up and then his trousers and I just knew what he was going to do and I couldn't stop him.

"He just kept laughing at me and said he would do something so I would really remember."

Andrews said the attack lasted only seconds before he let her go and she managed to untie herself.

Feeling physically sick, she ran upstairs to the bathroom.

Minutes later the pair confronted each other again in the study of the home they shared in Fulham, west London, where Andrews told her boyfriend: "If you were the last man on Earth I would never marry you now."

She said she had repeated her threat to leave him, but he had told her: "You are not going anywhere."

The killing is alleged to have happened in the early hours of Sunday, September 17 last year and the court heard that the sex attack had happened on the morning of September 16.

The jury heard extracts from sexually explicit e-mails between Mr Cressman and a woman in America where he wrote of sex fantasies and bondage games.

Andrews told the court that Mr Cressman had taunted her about committing suicide after the alleged sex attack.

She said she had threatened to kill herself before, and he brought two replacement Stanley knife blades into the upstairs study where she was sitting.

"He came in with two little Stanley knife blades, replacement blades, and started to say 'Oh, you're going to kill yourself, we will flip for it. Whoever wins the flip kills themselves first'."

Andrews repeated her threats to "ruin" him by telling his friends and business associates about what he had done to her.

She then confronted him with e-mails she had found which he had written to a woman in America, saying they would meet in Las Vegas later that year.

He refused to admit he had written them and eventually went back to his office, near their home.

Andrews said she then faxed copies of his e-mails to the woman's office in America but he came back while the fax was going through and flew into a rage, accusing her of ruining the other woman's life.

He left again and she said she was still confused about whether to leave.

"I loved him very much and he had never, never been as violent as he was that morning, ever, ever in our relationship.

"Always things used to quieten down after a few days and I thought they would."

Eventually she did leave that afternoon, intending to leave him for good.

Still angry, she posted copies of the e-mail to his mother and father, saying she still wanted to ruin him.

But then the pair had several telephone conversations and she decided to return to Fulham, despite claiming to be terrified.

"It was a very stupid thing for me to do, but he promised that he wouldn't do it again and reassured me that he was going to get help, and I wanted to stand by him, I wanted to help him," she said.

When she returned he kissed her and welcomed her home, but within hours they were rowing again after she broke a glass and told him she had ripped up photographs of them.

Finally the pair calmed down and went to bed together, but Andrews claimed Mr Cressman then tried to have sex with her again.

She pushed him away and tried to sleep on the sofa, but was frightened she would be in "more trouble" if she slept away from his bed.

He had earlier told her, 'As long as you're in my house you will sleep in my bed,' she told the jury.

Andrews said she went back to bed but took a cricket bat with her, adding: "I wanted it as a comfort and for my protection."

She left the bat on the bedroom floor but still could not sleep, and left the room again when he started shouting at her.

She went back downstairs, this time taking a kitchen knife before going back to bed.

"I laid it (the knife) on the floor for protection in case Tom did anything to me. I thought if I held it he wouldn't come anywhere near me."

Andrews appeared to be fighting back tears as she told how, exhausted, she had finally fallen asleep.

Earlier, Andrews said she had not seen the explicit e-mails about sex fantasies until after Mr Cressman's death.

The e-mails Andrews found recounted a sex session where Mr Cressman recounted to a woman about sex where he tied her to her bed and she begged to be raped.

Another described Andrews as "like that pair of slippers I can't throw away" and arranged a meeting in Las Vegas with the American woman.

Andrews worked for the Duchess of York as an assistant for nine years until her job came to a sudden end in 1997.

Previously she told the jury that her former job had no bearing on the case except that she had felt a great sense of loss when it ended.

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