My sex ordeal, by Fergie aide


The Duchess of York's former aide yesterday accused the lover she denies stabbing to death of violent sexual abuse.

Jane Andrews told the Old Bailey that Tom Cressman liked her to dress up in kinky clothes, phoned prostitutes from contact magazines and would tie her to the bed during love-making.

Hours before he died, claimed Andrews, the 39-year-old wealthy businessman seriously sexually assaulted her.

Andrews, her voice faltering, told the jury: 'He put a pillow over my head and tied me to the bed with my dressing gown cord. I was face down, he had his full weight on top of me, tied my left wrist with the cord and anally raped me.'

Andrews, 34, said she could not tell police about the assault when she was first arrested. 'I was so ashamed and so embarassed,' she told the court. 'I just couldn't talk about it.'

Fergie's former dresser - who allegedly stabbed Mr Cressman after he told her he would not marry her - also revealed she was the victim of sexual abuse as an eight-year-old, but did not say who abused her.

Asked by her QC, John Kelsey-Fry, to describe Mr Cressman, Andrews said: 'He was a wonderful person most of the time, 95 per cent of the time.'

But she said twice in their turbulent two-year affair he assaulted her - once slapping her across the face and on another occasion pushing her downstairs and injuring her spine, which required hospital treatment.

Cleethorpes-born Andrews, with her parents sitting in the public gallery and her lover's parents only feet behind her, then revealed intimate details of their relationship.

Asked in what way Mr Cressman was 'adventurous', Andrews replied: 'He would want to have anal sex with me and wanted me to dress up - kinky clothing. He liked to tie me up with his ties to the bed.'

She said he was also contacting prostitutes and her QC said police discovered two magazines, Desire and Stiletto Heel, during a search of Mr Cressman's £400,000 home in Fulham, where he was killed.

The ten women and two men on the jury heard she discovered a sexy e-mail sent by Mr Cressman, which was an account of an encounter on New Year's Eve.

Mr Kelsey-Fry said it mentioned a maid's outfit, black high heels and stockings and described a couple entering a room, opening a cupboard and discovering some ties.

'You tied one to each wrist and threw the ends over the top of the four-poster bed which was the centre-piece of the room,' part of it read.

The QC said the e-mail ended: 'Finally you said, arms outstretched, finish tying me up and rape me now.'

Andrews said she confronted her lover about the e-mail but accepted his explanation that it was a 'story he was writing for a dirty magazine'.

But in May last year, when Mr Cressman was away on a stag night in Berlin, she found two more e-mails on his computer which he was exchanging with an American woman identified as Deborah.

The first, dated February 2000, was a 'missive' from Deborah to Mr Cressman. Mr Kelsey-Fry read segments to the jury.

'So, have you booted your girlfriend or has she become like your favourite recliner - you can't just seem to get rid of her.' The message ends: 'I just wanted to send you kisses and licks in all the right places.'

The second e-mail sent in reply by Mr Cressman to Deborah was also read to the court. It said: 'Things have been a little crazy here. One. Her indoors somehow found the last e-mail I sent to you and the proverbial has hit the fan.

'Luckily, she came to all the wrong conclusions and thought I had sent it to a magazine in a naughty competition or something.

'The girlfriend is looking like that pair of slippers I can't throw away. In some ways it's good, in some ways it's bad. Not sure what to do or where to go from here. Sounds dumb but life is a bit of a compromise but I am really not sure what to do for the best at the moment.'

It continues: 'I will be coming to Vegas at the end of October for five or six days. I really do hope we can hook up then. It would be wonderful to see you and I am sure we could both do with letting off some steam. In the meantime a big hug, kiss and a lick.'

Andrews told the jury she felt angry and upset and confronted her boyfriend. 'He said I was being silly. It was just a bit of fun, one of his fetishes. He promised me it would never happen again.'

The court heard she worked as a freelance children's clothes designer for Marks & Spencer before getting her job with the Duchess of York in 1988.

'When that service was disposed with you felt the loss of that employment deeply?' asked her QC. 'Very much so,' she replied. But Andrews said the termination of her royal job had no bearing on the murder proceedings. 'None whatsoever.'

She said that since 1993 she had suffered from a hormonal condition known as polycistic ovary syndrome, for which she was prescribed a contraceptive to help regulate the condition. 'It would make me feel low, my self-esteem. I would be very tired, very lethargic on occasion.'

Andrews said she had been prescribed anti-depressants by her GP in 1996 and also the following year, after she left working for Fergie.

In the spring of 1999 she said Mr Cressman had arranged sessions with a private psychotherapist. 'It was to deal with my abuse as a child,' she said. 'I told Tom about it.'

She said it was 'sexual abuse' when she was eight. 'I don't wish to say who was involved but we are not talking about parental abuse?' asked Mr Kelsey-Fry. 'That is correct,' Andrews replied.

She was also prescribed tranquillisers and anti- depressants when she attended Hammersmith Hospital in December 1999 showing 'symptons of depression and a reported suicidal tendency'.

Andrews admitted in the early months of the affair she was jealous of Mr Cressman's previous girlfriends but she believed they would end up married.

She agreed her boyfriend was her 'whole life' and she 'almost loved him too much'.

She was shown a card her lover gave her during a romantic trip to the Cotswolds to celebrate their second 'anniversary' together.

It read: 'Jane, thanks for a wonderful two years, here's to the next.' It was signed with three kisses and 'All my love Tommie.'

Earlier, the jury had heard tape-recorded police interviews when Andrews described the moment her lover was stabbed to death in their darkened bedroom.

She insisted she lashed out in self-defence as he punched her and pulled her hair. 'He came at me. I was holding the knife and said, "Don't hurt me, stop it." He came at me and that was it.

'I didn't deliberately put it in him, but it just must have gone straight into him. I didn't intend to do any harm at all. I was just trying to defend myself against him.'

Andrews was heard weeping on the tapes as she added: 'I just should have walked away. I should have walked away a long time ago but I didn't. He used to dangle a carrot in front of me and pull the strings. Be nice one minute and horrid the next and pull me backwards and forwards.'

She denies murdering Mr Cressman after almost 36 hours of violent arguments between the couple that culminated in the fateful attack last September.

In the interviews, Andrews said they had rowed on and off throughout the day after returning from a holiday in the South of France, when she claims her lover pulled back from marriage.

At one time, Andrews drove off but later returned. But they began arguing again about holiday photos and posters and she claimed he started hitting her.

They eventually went to bed, she told detectives. 'He just curled up to me and said, "Jane, I want to have sex with you. You know you like it."

'I said don't be so horrible. I had always given in before. I didn't want to any more' - a reference, said Mr Kelsey-Fry, to anal sex.

'I just pushed him away and he sort of grabbed me. I was frightened. I didn't want it. He was being really so horrible. I just didn't want the hurt any more.'

She said she went downstairs and picked up a cricket bat and put it by the bed. 'I just wanted to protect myself,' she claimed. When she got back into bed, she says Mr Cressman woke up and kneed her in the back.

'I just went into the kitchen and took one of the knives. I just put it in my dressing gown and went back upstairs and just put it on the floor.

'I just thought if he hurt me any more or anything I would just say, "Look, don't touch me." I didn't know what else to do.

'I am too ashamed to go and tell anybody what he was doing to me. Eventually I went to sleep and the next thing I knew he just woke up and started hitting me. I got out of the bed on my side, picked up the bat and hit him.

'He was lashing out at me, pulling my hair out. He just tried to kick me.

I just sort of grabbed ... I grabbed the knife and he just came at me. I didn't, I didn't do anything. I just, he just came at me ...

'He punched me in the head with his knuckle and I just cracked and hit him,' added Andrews, who said she was naked by this time.

'I don't know what happened because it was dark. I just remember him falling down and I just ran out of the room. I was so scared at what had happened.'

Detective Inspector Stewart Ault, heard questioning Andrews on tape, said Mr Cressman was

not attacking her after she hit him with a cricket bat.

'He was, he was,' she shouted. She was angry, said the detective, because her lover did not want to marry her or have her children.

'Why, why would I want to hurt him?' she asked. Because he had rejected you, answered the detective. 'No, no. I would never hurt him,' said Andrews.

She did not phone for an ambulance. 'I thought there was a scratch or something. I didn't see a lot of blood,' she claimed.

At the start of her evidence Andrews admitted hitting her lover over the head with the cricket bat and holding the knife that killed him.

Mr Kelsey-Fry asked her: 'Did you, however, intend that Tom Cressman should be stabbed with it?' She replied: 'No.'

Despite their often turbulent romance, Andrews said she believed they would marry.

In one phone call, she said Mr Cressman told her: 'I am on the brink of asking you to marry me and you know that I love you very much.'

She replied: 'You are just saying that,' but said he added, 'No, I really do mean it.'

She told police she did not want to get married immediately. The night they returned from their French holiday, after they had briefly made up after another argument, she said she told him: 'You know, you silly boy, I'm not going to ask you to go down on one knee. I don't want to marry for a year or so, anyway.'

Andrews said that on the second anniversary trip to the Cotswolds, the couple had looked at possible country homes.

'Everybody kept calling us Mr and Mrs Cressman and he thought it was very funny. "I do like the sound of that." '

The trial continues.

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