'I'll end up like Mom': Bobbi Kristina's tragic last messages reveal she feared she'd die like her mother Whitney Houston

  • Friend Daphne Barak tells of tragic last plea from 22-year-old and boyfriend
  • Message from Bobbi Christina and Nick Gordon said: 'Please come get us'
  • Watched pair lose control in 'dangerous world full of money, drugs, booze'
  • She was working on documentary tribute to her mother before she died 

It breaks my heart to hear my friend Bobbi Kristina’s voice. 

She was laid to rest yesterday, but before she died she had started narrating a documentary I was working on – a tribute to her mother Whitney Houston.

We started the recording on a cold day in February 2014, on the second anniversary of her mother’s death. Last week I played the tape again. In a shaky, childlike voice, Bobbi Kristina – or Stina – talks about her mother. 

‘I miss her like hell,’ she says on the recording. ‘Once you have met this woman, you are attached to her for ever. It was her heart, it was her smile, it was her face. It was the way she talked, it was the way she did things. She was so very lovable.’

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Tragic: Whitney Houston and daughter Bobbi Kristina together in 2011. The 22-year-old confided in friend Daphne Barak that she feared she would die like her mother

Tragic: Whitney Houston and daughter Bobbi Kristina together in 2011. The 22-year-old confided in friend Daphne Barak that she feared she would die like her mother

When we stopped recording, Bobbi Kristina confided that she felt she had to rush through life, as if she feared she would end up like her mother. I will never forget her disturbing words. Sadly, her premonition came true.

Whitney was found dead in the Beverly Hilton hotel in Los Angeles in 2012 aged 48. In an eerie portent of what would happen to Bobbi Kristina, a coroner ruled that Whitney had accidentally drowned in the bath. Heart disease and cocaine use were listed as contributory factors.

 I miss her so much, it's painful. She was a royal. We were raised like royals
Bobbi Kristina on her late mother Whitney Houston  

Stina was found face-down and unconscious in a bath at the home she shared with her boyfriend Nick Gordon, 25, in Georgia on January 31 this year. She never regained consciousness and died last Sunday.

I’m haunted by a message she sent to my Twitter account, but that I didn’t pick up until it was too late. It said simply: ‘Please come and get us,’ with flowers and heart emoticons. I torture myself that I didn’t see it in time.

I first met Bobbi Kristina at the beginning of 2014 after I was passed some video footage of her mother’s marriage to Bobby Brown. Stina immediately accepted the invitation to narrate the tape, telling me: ‘Nobody can talk about my mother, it has to be me. If there’s a film about her, I would want to play her.’

We never had time to finish the tribute to her mother, who had been visibly pregnant with Bobbi Kristina as she walked down the aisle.

From the first time we met in Los Angeles in January 2014, I immediately liked Stina. She may have been born into showbusiness royalty – she would always tell me: ‘My mother was royal, we were raised like royals’ – but her life had been troubled because of her parents’ problems with drugs. And I could see Stina, too, was beginning to take refuge in drugs.

Downward spiral: Bobbi Kristina and boyfriend Nick Gordon were co-dependent in a very dangerous world full of money, drugs, booze – and very little else

Downward spiral: Bobbi Kristina and boyfriend Nick Gordon were co-dependent in a very dangerous world full of money, drugs, booze – and very little else

She was born into one of America’s greatest singing dynasties – her mother remains one of the bestselling soul singers in history, her father had a string of hit records, her maternal grandmother is the soul legend Cissy Houston, and Dionne Warwick is a cousin – with all the money and privilege that brings.

But Stina was adrift: she had no mother who could reassure her or tell her how special and beautiful she was. 

Bobbi Kristina with Daphne Barak. The pair were working together on a documentary tribute to her late mother

Bobbi Kristina with Daphne Barak. The pair were working together on a documentary tribute to her late mother

Far from the glamour and the fame of being Whitney’s daughter, all she really wanted was a middle-class life – a little house, a husband and kids, and a dog.

It soon became clear to me that both she and Nick Gordon – who she constantly referred to as her husband even though they were not married – were addicts.

She called me as soon as she got off the plane from her home in Atlanta and told me: ‘Nick and I arrived sick, very sick. We need a doctor.’

I arranged for someone to drive them to a doctor, but only Nick got in the car. Bobbi Kristina told me: ‘I am too famous to go. Nick is going to the doctor for both of us.’ 

The plan was to go for lunch and then watch her mother’s wedding footage together. But after Nick joined us with a prescription, Bobbi Kristina’s attention was only on one thing – to get hold of the drugs.

I assumed they were anti-flu pills and suggested they give the prescription to the concierge of their hotel, but they both resisted fiercely. Nick and a friend who travelled with them drove from one pharmacy to another while Stina stayed with us. 

She chatted happily about her plans for the future: ‘To start recording. To learn how to be a woman,’ and then talked about how missing her mom was a pain she couldn’t express. 

She looked lost. She kept repeating, again and again: ‘I can’t go into the pharmacy with Nick. I am too famous.’

My suspicion rose further when she began to ask every few minutes: ‘Where are they? Why does it take so much time to get the pills?’

Finally Nick and his friend emerged. He opened a bottle of pills and asked her: ‘Is that what you wanted?’ She nodded and the three of them rushed into their hotel room, while she was shouting: ‘We will see you later, yes, Japanese… Dinner… I love you.’

I feared the worst. Sadly, I was proved correct. The next time I heard from them was three days later. ‘We are in Atlanta. We didn’t mean to disappear. We got sick,’ she said, adding: ‘Can you fly us to LA?’

I was already a sort of surrogate mother to Stina by this time. I was concerned about her and asked if they were addicted and what kind of pills they took, but all she would say was that they wanted to come back to LA ‘to stay with you’.

The following day I discovered a pharmacist’s receipt in Nick Gordon’s name. The prescription had been for Oxycodone, a synthetic painkiller similar to morphine, used by terminally ill cancer patients. 

I was so concerned I decided to tell Nick’s grandmother. She is a religious woman who has been very strict with him, and she wrote a long, no-nonsense letter to them.

She then told me Nick had put Bobbi Kristina on the phone and they both swore to her that they were not taking drugs. She knew better.

 I can't go to the pharmacy with Nick, I'm too famous
Bobbi Kristina on drugs 

I know Nick was angry with me, but Bobbi Kristina never mentioned my intervention and continued to call and text me. She had her own, inner, imaginary world where Nick was her ‘hubby’ – we could never get from them details about where and when they tied the knot. She once asked me if I could help organise ‘another’ wedding ceremony in California on Nick’s birthday.

She even told Nick’s grandmother when they visited his family that she had given up alcohol, drugs and cigarettes because she wanted to get pregnant. But even as she was saying it, she was tipsy.

Above all, she always said that she wanted to be part of a normal family. Something, of course, she had never experienced. ‘I want children with Nick. I am learning how to be a woman and want to have a dog, a house and a career.’

Her imaginary career included playing her mother in a film of Whitney’s life: ‘I am the only one that can sing like her.’

SWEET 16 FUNERAL ENDS IN CHAOS AS FAMILY FEUD OVER £12M FORTUNE 

Bobbi Kristina’s funeral ended in chaos yesterday as a feud between the families of her parents Bobby Brown and Whitney Houston erupted inside the church.

One aunt, Leolah Brown, was thrown out of the service after screaming abuse at another aunt, Pat Houston. Leolah later claimed: ‘Whitney Houston will haunt Pat Houston from the grave.’

She alleges Pat has been drumming up donations in Bobbi Kristina’s memory for her own foundation. Yesterday’s drama, which echoed events at Whitney’s 2012 funeral when her ex-husband Bobby stormed out in a row over seating, came as Bobbi Kristina’s family prepare to battle it out over her £12 million fortune.

Leolah Brown speaks to the media at Bobbi Kristina's funeral in Alpharetta, Georgia. She was thrown out of the service for screaming abuse at another aunt, Pat Houston

Leolah Brown speaks to the media at Bobbi Kristina's funeral in Alpharetta, Georgia. She was thrown out of the service for screaming abuse at another aunt, Pat Houston

The 22-year-old’s body had been carried in to St James United Methodist Church in Alpharetta, Georgia, in a silver casket as scores of fans turned out to pay their respects.

A wake was held at the home of Pat Brown, based on a Sweet 16 theme – traditionally a party to celebrate a girl’s transition to womanhood. A source said: ‘Bobbi Kristina never had a Sweet 16 so this was a way of giving her the party she missed.’

Whitney’s cousin, Dionne Warwick, had threatened to boycott the event. ‘Dionne felt the Sweet 16 theme was stupid,’ the source added.

Bobbi Kristina’s boyfriend Nick Gordon was banned from the ceremony.

She will be buried next to her mother in Westfield, New Jersey, tomorrow.

Nick and Stina were in touch with me regularly. She often spoke about ‘coming to LA to start my career’, but would then disappear for days.

Their lives were dominated by their addiction. It was so sad to see two co-dependents dragging each other down. Whenever I asked if she wanted to do something with her life, she would seize on it, saying: ‘Yes, yes, I am coming to record. Yes, I am writing all the time. Yes, I will show everybody was wrong.’

Did the couple fight? Certainly there were disagreements.

Once, when I returned a missed call from Nick, he answered, but sounded so weak it was clear he was under the influence. He kept saying: ‘I need help.’

Please come and get us 
Bobbi Kristina's desperate last Twitter message to her friend Daphne Barak 

I was trying to help them face their problems and asked about a recent TV appearance when they came across as ‘out of it’.

Suddenly Bobbi Kristina grabbed the phone from Nick, and asked me about the show. Then she started to scream at him, blaming him for the fiasco. He kept saying, ‘I need help,’ as she kept shouting.

From what I observed, it was clear she was in the driving seat.

I remember with sadness our last phone call, a few weeks before she went into coma. She was down. She talked about a programme about her late mother on TV.

She was upset not to have been asked to contribute. I told her that her there would be hundreds of books and films about Whitney, but her memories would always be special to her. Stina felt instantly better and repeated that she wanted to come immediately to LA to record.

From what I witnessed, Stina and Nick were in love. But they were co-dependent in a very dangerous world full of money, drugs, booze – and very little else.

I will always remember her sweetness and her dreams of a family and career success: a future cruelly cut short at the age of tender age of 22. 

Audio courtesy of Daphne Barak www.daphnebarak.com 

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