'There was many a time I thought of it': James Arthur reveals he considered suicide after being dropped from Simon Cowell's record label

He's gone from triumph to disaster and bounced back again in the space of four years.

And X Factor winner James Arthur has revealed that at his lowest ebb he even considered suicide, after being dropped from Simon Cowell's record company Syco.

'If I was ever near a balcony, or in my car, I'd have an image of me jumping over or driving off the road,' he told The Mirror

Lowest ebb: James Arthur says he contemplated suicide after being dropped from Simon Cowell's record company

Lowest ebb: James Arthur says he contemplated suicide after being dropped from Simon Cowell's record company

'But then I'd think, "Don't do it, you've got sisters, you're the man of the family". But there was many a time I thought of it.' 

After his victory in the 2012 TV contest, the 28-year-old hitmaker was dropped by SyCo after a number of fallouts over lyrics and his behaviour on Twitter. 

James made headlines in 2013 after making homophobic slurs at rapper Micky Worthless during their infamous feud. 

The controversial character wrote a rap about the star slamming him as a 'f*****g q***r' and urged him to 'shoot himself'. He later apologised and said he was 'extremely disappointed in himself'.

Triumph: James, pictured back in 2012 after being informed of his X Factor victory 

Triumph: James, pictured back in 2012 after being informed of his X Factor victory 

Hitmaker: James belted out his UK number one hit Say You Won't Let Go during Sunday's live X Factor show

Hitmaker: James belted out his UK number one hit Say You Won't Let Go during Sunday's live X Factor show

James has since admitted he has grown up during his time away from the spotlight, explaining: 'I look back on the character that was then and I’m embarrassed about how I behaved and how negative my perspective was, and how I handled the pressure.

'I went from absolutely nothing to a lot of people judging me overnight and it was really tough for me.' 

James has completed an astonishing comeback - performing live on Sunday's X Factor and seeing his single Say You Won't Let Go take the UK number one spot. 

The comeback kid! James walked straight into the arms of adoring fans as he left the Fountain Studios after his performance 

The comeback kid! James walked straight into the arms of adoring fans as he left the Fountain Studios after his performance 

After the show, the singer was mobbed by adoring fans outside the X Factor studios, who he gladly embraced in tight hugs and gleeful chit chat as he made his way home. 

James later wrote via Twitter: 'That was the most nerve wracking thing I've ever done so apologies for the pitchyness and incorrect lyrics, but thank you so much everyone.' 

During the second instalment of the live shows, Simon Cowell praised James' return: 'He's someone that has done it his own way. He’s the comeback kid.' 

For confidential support call the Samaritans on 116123 or visit a local Samaritans branch, see samaritans.org 

Apologies: The 28-year-old later blamed the incorrect lyrics and pitchyness on his nerves

Apologies: The 28-year-old later blamed the incorrect lyrics and pitchyness on his nerves

 

 

 

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