'We're all so hard on ourselves!': Bachelor vet Jillian Harris speaks out about 'mommy guilt' as she balances newborn with reality TV career

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Jillian Harris balances bringing up a baby with starring on Love It Or List It: Vancouver.

And the former Bachelor and Bachelorette star is feeling mommy guilt already.

The beauty told this week's People magazine that she knows she's not alone: 'I think that everybody gets mom guilt, and as females out there, I’m sure we’re all so hard on ourselves,' said the star.

A lot on her plate: Jillian Harris balances bringing up a baby with starring on Love It Or List It: Vancouver. And the former Bachelor and Bachelorette star is feeling mommy guilt already.

A baby and a dog: Her on Leo was born last year; she also has a boxer

'Should I work? How much should I work? Do I leave him with a nanny? Do I don’t?' she said.

'I feel like one of the things I always worried about is what kind of energy would I have around him.

'I know that he senses that energy and I think, for the most part, if I’ve ever had a bad day or frustrating day or if I’m sad, I feel like I’ve been strong for him so far. I know that there’s going to be a day where I break down and he’s going to have to witness that.'

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She already had a scare. 

'He was probably 10 days old and we were at our Vancouver house setting up the nursery and I had him in one of those little like bouncy chairs. And he was sleeping. And I didn’t strap him in because I didn’t want him to wake up,' she said

'I went downstairs to grab some laundry and we heard some crying upstairs and we ran upstairs, and he had slid out and rolled over. And that’s before we even started him on tummy time or anything. It had maybe been like five seconds, but Justin was like, "Jillian! Why didn’t you strap him in?"'

Happy mamas: This week People magazine collected six former Bachelorettes for a photo shoot where they posed with their babies

Harris- who stars on HGTV's Love It Or List It - has son Leo (born August 2016) with fiancé Justin Pasutto, 29.

The 37-year-old competed on Jason Mesnick’s season 13 of The Bachelor in early 2009 and came in third place. She later became the Bachelorette for season 5 in mid-2009 and gave her final rose to Ed Swiderski. However, the pair ended their engagement in July 2010.

Also in the cover story are DeAnna Stagliano (season 4), Ali Fedotowsky-Manno (season 6), Ashley Rosenbaum (season 7), Emily Maynard (season 8) and Desiree Siegfried (season 9).

Former Facebook employee Ali has daughter Molly, who is almost aged one.

'There was one day that Molly would not stop pooping in the bathtub — over and over,' said the blonde.

Proud: Ali Fedotowsky-Manno (season 6) welcomed a daughter last year

Happy wedding day: She married star Kevin Manno

'As a parent, you talk about poop more than you ever could have imagined!'

She wed Kevin Manno this year and they reside in LA. On The Bachelorette in 2010, she chose Roberto Martinez, but they ended their engagement soon after.

Ashley, 32, who wed her Bachelorette pick JP Rosebaum, has son Fordham, aged two, and daughter Essie, born in November.

'It’s empowering knowing I can handle as much as I do,' she said.

'My son is all about sports. When Essie was born, I was like, "How soon can I put her in ballet?" I can’t wait!'

She also said: 'I think it’s funny that we used to stay out late, like we used to go to the reunions and party. And now we like all walk in with like bags under our eyes. We’re like baby-wearing, stroller-pushing.

'Last night, we were texting like, "Who wants to get together for a drink?" and everyone’s like, "Sure, if it’s at 5 p.m. because my baby’s in bed at 6 pm,"' said Ali.

Now a family of five: Emily Maynard (season 8) got married and had two more kids

True love: DeAnna Stagliano (season 4) wed Stephen Stagliano whose brother was on the franchise

Family of four: The couple have two young children

'This morning, we were on a group text on the way here and I’m like, "Who’s got extra diapers?" It’s so different than it would have been maybe two years ago. We would have been like, "Who’s got the booze?" and maybe we’re like, "Who’s got the diapers and the booze?!"  

'Waking up at 6 a.m. to play Old MacDonald and dance with my son is more fun than anything else in the world,' she added. 

Emily, 31, welcomed her third child, son Gibson (born September 2016), 14 months after giving birth to her second child — son Jennings, 21 months — with husband Tyler Johnson, 31. She also has daughter Ricki, 11.

Maynard appeared on season 15 of The Bachelor. The mom, who lost her fiancé, NASCAR driver Ricky Hendrick, in a 2004 plane crash, got engaged to Bachelor Brad Womack on the season finale. Their relationship ended in June 2011. She then became The Bachelorette in 2012 and chose Jef Holm, whom she became engaged to. They split months later.

Her joy: DeAnna has two kids. 'Sleep deprivation is no joke. I felt like a crazy person,' the 35-year-old said. 'It took a toll on our marriage, on me, on our family … it is a form of torture!'

'I’ve reached a new form of exhaustion,' she said. 'Once you go past two kids, it almost doesn’t make a difference.'   

In the 2008 season of The Bachelorette, Pappas eventually rejected single dad Jason Mesnick and accepted the marriage proposal of professional snowboarder Jesse Csincsak. Their relationship lasted a few months before the engagement was called off. 

DeAnna, is married to Stephen Stagliano, 33, the brother of a Bachelor contestant Michael. Michael competed on season 5 of The Bachelorette, competing for Jillian Harris’ heart. The Washington native later competed on Bachelor Pad in 2012. 

Another one: Ashley Hebert with JP Rosebaum and kids

DeAnna has two kids. 

'Sleep deprivation is no joke. I felt like a crazy person,' the 35-year-old said. 'It took a toll on our marriage, on me, on our family … it is a form of torture!'

But it's all worth it. 'The way Austin looks at me, it’s like he knows I’m it. I’m the woman in his life. When he gets married, I will cry!' 

Desiree, who wed her Bachelorette pick Chris Siegfried and has son Asher, aged six motnhs, said:'Our lives have changed — and our priorities have changed — in the best way possible. Just seeing my son’s face makes me happier than anything. 

'He has been so great, really taking care of me so that I could take care of Asher. Parenthood is a test for couples, if you can be strong for each other.'