'It wasn't built on 100 per cent truth': Jay Z admits his relationship with Beyonce started 'publicly cracking' and reveals working things out was 'the hardest thing he's ever done'

By Rebecca Davison for MailOnline

Published: 01:42 EDT, 11 July 2017 | Updated: 04:32 EDT, 11 July 2017

Jay Z has admitted his marriage 'wasn't totally built on 100 per cent truth'. 

The 47-year-old rapper - who tied the knot to Beyonce Knowles nine years ago - admitted the 'hardest thing' he's ever done is having to face up to potential difficulties in his union and try to work them out. 

He said: 'This is my real life. I just ran into this place and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn't totally built on the 100 per cent truth and it starts cracking. 

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'It wasn't built on 100 per cent truth': Jay Z has admitted his relationship with Beyonce started 'publicly cracking' and reveals working things out was 'the hardest thing he's ever done' 

'Things start happening that the public can see. Then we had to get to a point of, "OK, tear this down and let's start from the beginning ... It's the hardest thing I've ever done."'

Jay - who has daughter Blue, five, and newborn twins named Rumi and Sir with his singer spouse - insisted his relationship had been more testing than when he was being shot at during his tough upbringing in Brooklyn, New York, and recalled one holiday where he begged her to stay. 

He said: 'I was on a boat, and I had the best time. I was like, "Man, this is great." Then she had to leave. I was, like, crushed. "Man, I don't even feel like this. What is happening to my body right now? I don't even feel like this. Did I just say... Don't leave?"'

Solo outing: His wife Beyonce just gave birth to twins and Jay Z was pictured heading to Soho House in Malibu, no doubt to wet the babies heads on Monday 

Solo outing: His wife Beyonce just gave birth to twins and Jay Z was pictured heading to Soho House in Malibu, no doubt to wet the babies heads on Monday 

The 4:44 hitmaker admitted the couple's relationship has been 'uncomfortable' at times due to being in the public eye, but insists the key to their union is honesty. 

Speaking in a video Footnotes for 4:44 to go alongside his latest album of the same name, said: 'We've been in that space where we just got to the place that in order for this to work, it can't be fake - not once. 

'I'm not saying it wasn't uncomfortable because obviously it was, but because we've been doing it for so long it was less uncomfortable.'

JAY Z'S APOLOGY LYRICS...  

'If my children knew, I don't even know what I would do. If they ain't look at me the same, I would probably die with all the shame.

'You did what with who? What good is a ménage a trois when you have a soulmate, you risked that for Blue? 

'I apologise, often womanise, took my child to be born, see through a woman's eyes. 

'Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles. Took me too long for this song. I don't deserve you.'

The video, which was released on Tidal, also features conversations with several stars, including Will Smith, Kendrick Lamar, Chris Rock and Jesse Williams. 

Jay's 4:44 title track features an apology from him to Beyonce, and speculation is rife that it is a direct reference to claims she hinted to him being unfaithful with "'ecky with the good hair' on her visual LP Lemonade. 

His lyrics include: 'If my children knew, I don't even know what I would do. If they ain't look at me the same, I would probably die with all the shame. 

'You did what with who? What good is a ménage a trois when you have a soulmate, you risked that for Blue? 

'I apologise, often womanise, took my child to be born, see through a woman's eyes. 

'Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles. Took me too long for this song. I don't deserve you.'

Day out: The rapper and Tidal mogul was seen leaving the members-only oceanfront club solo. He wore a blue t-shirt with blue and white track suit bottoms and a blue baseball cap
Day out: The rapper and Tidal mogul was seen leaving the members-only oceanfront club solo. He wore a blue t-shirt with blue and white track suit bottoms and a blue baseball cap

Day out: The rapper and Tidal mogul was seen leaving the members-only oceanfront club solo. He wore a blue t-shirt with blue and white track suit bottoms and a blue baseball cap

In another song he also appears to reference the infamous Met Gala 2014 incident in which he was attacked in a lift by sister-in-law Solange Knowles. 

He raps: 'You egged Solange on, knowing all along all you had to say you was wrong.'

Meanwhile, Jay Z headed out to no doubt wet his babies heads at celeb hotspot Soho House in Malibu . 

Going on the road: Jay Z has just announced a two-month North American tour for 2017 in support of his new album 4:44

Going on the road: Jay Z has just announced a two-month North American tour for 2017 in support of his new album 4:44

The rapper and Tidal mogul was seen leaving the members-only oceanfront club solo.

He wore a blue t-shirt with blue and white track suit bottoms and a blue baseball cap. 

Jay Z has just announced a North American tour for 2017 in support of his new album 4:44.

The rapper will start off the run of dates on October 27 at the Honda Center in Anaheim, California, and will conclude with a show at The Forum in Los Angeles on December 21.

Something to say: The hitmaker admitted the couple's relationship has been 'uncomfortable' at times due to being in the public eye, but insists the key to their union is honesty - pictured in February

Something to say: The hitmaker admitted the couple's relationship has been 'uncomfortable' at times due to being in the public eye, but insists the key to their union is honesty - pictured in February

The tour announcement comes a month after the birth of his twins with superstar Beyonce.

The couple also have a daughter Blue Ivy, five.

It was recently revealed that Blue Ivy raps on a bonus track called Blue's Freestyle/We Family on 4:44. 

Though some of the tot's lyrics are hard to understand, they include 'boom shakalaka' and 'never seen a ceiling in my whole life'.

Jay Z and Beyonce have been married since April of 2008.

Back at it! The 47-year-old rapper will start off the tour on October 27 at the Honda Center in Anaheim, California, and conclude with a show at The Forum in Los Angeles on December 21

Back at it! The 47-year-old rapper will start off the tour on October 27 at the Honda Center in Anaheim, California, and conclude with a show at The Forum in Los Angeles on December 21

 

 

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