'I give so much of myself to people': Distressed Courtney Stodden pours her heart out in tearful Instagram videos... after revealing depression battle
She opened up about her battle with depression and anxiety earlier this month following a series of troubling Instagram posts from the star.
And early Saturday morning Courtney Stodden, 23, proved she's still struggling with her emotional health as she posted tearful videos to Instagram, revealing her heartache to her 256k followers.
In the first clip the blonde beauty is seen walking down a street, seemingly after a night out, as she tells her fans 'this isn't attention seeking, this is real sh*t'.
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Distressed: Courtney Stodden posted two emotional videos to her Instagram in the early hours of Saturday morning, weeks after revealing her depression battle
'I allow them to abuse it': The 23-year-old star is seen walking down a street alone as she talks about giving too much of herself away to people
Looking visibly distressed as she films herself, Courtney explains: 'I give so much of myself away to people and I allow them to kind of, like, abuse it'
She continues: 'So I have to learn to stand on my own two feet, you know, and like I just want people to know that it's important to do that,
After telling her fans she loves them Courtney adds: 'I just wanted to show you the ups and downs of my life, it's not all sexy and beautiful and perfect and happy.'
The video was posted at around 2am (local time Los Angeles) on Saturday morning and in the caption she wrote: 'Being a sensitive soul and allowing yourself to love is f***ing hard'.
'I have to learn to stand on my own two feet': Courtney says as she films herself
Solo: Courtney looks like she's walking home after a night out as she sports an off-the-shoulder top and diamond jewelry
Personal struggle: In a second clip Courtney appears to be home but is still distressed
In a second clip Courtney appears to be home and is still crying as she looks into the camera and explains that she won't delete her emotional posts because they're 'real'.
'I'm too sensitive' she says while wiping away tears.
'People should see the real side of sh*t on social media, it's not all f*cking beautiful' Courtney, who rose to fame when she married The Green Mile actor Doug Hutchison when she was only 16, adds.
The accompanying caption reads: 'It’s not all beautiful ... life. I hate social media being a platform for false illusions'
Just before Christmas the reality star let her fans know she has been battling anxiety and depression but saying she 'will get through it and prevail.'
Being real: The star told her followers she won't delete her emotional posts as she wants people to see the real ups and downs of her life
'People should see the real side of sh*t on social media, it's not all f*cking beautiful' Courtney explains in the clip
In a series of captions on Instagram, the star wrote: 'Depression is hard to kick. But I'll get through it and so will you if you're a sufferer.
'I feel too much. I soak up too much energy from myself and others. I love too deeply. I am extremely insecure. Terribly childlike and vulnerable.
'This is me and my struggle with depression. But I have faith I'll prevail. If you're a sufferer of anxiety or depression - know that you aren't alone.'
The looker also took to her Twitter account and admitted she is feeling lonely and needs someone to love her 'deeply.'
Open book: Just before Christmas Courtney revealed she is facing depression and anxiety
Tearful: In November the blonde beauty shared this photo but did not explain why she was crying
She tweeted: 'The loneliness that haunts me is miserable. Only thing that helps is someone to hold me ... and it has to be someone who loves me deeply ... or it's meaningless.'
Courtney called time on her marriage to Hutchison earlier this year. It followed a devastating miscarriage in 2016.
However, the former couple have managed to maintain an amicable relationship.
Speaking to Us Weekly magazine, she previously said: 'A split is really hard.
'Doug and I are on really good terms but it's just hard, you know, because we're trying to hang on to our friendship because we are best friends and we don't want to part in a disastrous Hollywood way.'
Stodden began in the entertainment industry by competing in a beauty pageant, the Miss Teen Washington USA pageant in 2010.
She then ventured into modeling.
After she wed Doug, she launched her TV career. She was on Couples Therapy, Celebrity Big Brother and Hollywood Hillbillies. In 2015, Vivid Entertainment released a solo sex tape created by Stodden.
Revealing: Stodden began in the entertainment industry by competing in a beauty pageant, the Miss Teen Washington USA pageant in 2010. She then ventured into modeling
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