Kanye West thought Kim Kardashian was leaving him after slavery comments and admits contemplating suicide 'all the time'

Published: 18:36 BST, 25 June 2018 | Updated: 21:49 BST, 26 June 2018

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Kanye West called up family members asking if wife Kim Kardashian was leaving him after his controversial slavery comments.

The 41-year-old rapper got very personal in an interview with the New York Times published on Monday as he also admitted to contemplating suicide 'all the time.'

Kanye - who has kids North, five, Saint, two, and five-month-old Chicago - also revealed he feared his wife would end their relationship following his now infamous rant on TMZ Live in which he said slavery over 400 years 'sounds like a choice.'

Opening up: Kanye West (Pictured in Paris on Sunday) called up family members asking if wife Kim Kardashian was leaving him after his controversial slavery comments he admitted in an interview published by the New York Times on Monday

He confessed: 'There was a moment where I felt like after TMZ, maybe a week after that, I felt like the energy levels were low, and I called different family members and was asking, you know, "Was Kim thinking about leaving me after TMZ?" So that was a real conversation.'

The Ghost Town hitmaker - who suffered a nervous breakdown in 2016 - has now confessed to frequently experiencing suicidal thoughts.

He shared: 'I've thought about killing myself all the time. It's always a option and [expletive]. Like Louis C.K. said: I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options.'

Ouch: The 41-year-old rapper said he feared his wife would end their relationship following his now infamous rant on TMZ Live in which he said slavery over 400 years 'sounds like a choice,' as they are pictured together last week in Paris

Kanye subsequently revealed the extent to which he's considered taking his own life.

The Famous hitmaker explained: 'I'm just having this epiphany now, 'cause I didn't do it, but I did think it all the way through.

'But if I didn't think it all the way through, then it's actually maybe more of a chance of it happening.'

Kanye also tried to clarify his thoughts on slavery, having previously suggested it was a choice for many African-Americans.

Asked how he would frame his view if he was given the chance, Kanye said: 'I wouldn't frame a one-liner or a headline. What I would say is actually it's literally like I feel like I'm in court having to justify a robbery that I didn't actually commit, where I'm having to somehow reframe something that I never said.

'It's always a option': The Ghost Town hitmaker - who suffered a nervous breakdown in 2016 - has confessed to frequently experiencing suicidal thoughts, pictured in Paris on Sunday

'I feel stupid to have to say out loud that I know that being put on the boat was - but also I'm not backing down, bro. What I will do is I'll take responsibility for the fact that I allowed my voice to be used back to back in ways that were not protective of it when my voice means too much.'

Asked what he meant by 'back to back', Kanye added: 'Wearing the [Donald Trump] hat, because my voice is unprotected, and I believe that the black community wants to protect my voice. By me saying slave in any way at TMZ left my voice unprotected.

'So it's not a matter of the facts of if I said that exact line or not, it's the fact that I put myself in a position to be unprotected by my tribe.'

It is an interesting time in the hitmaker's life as he just finished releasing five seven-song albums which he released over the last five weeks.