beau’s growth of feelings is amazing, but can i also talk about yasha?

like. one of the rawest and truly scariest scenes in critical role to me is when yasha lets herself get beaten up in the fighting pit because she thinks she deserves it. it was indirectly very much self-harm. feelings of unworthiness.

but since return from hiatus, seeing how yasha has grown into the nein has made my heart so warm. she’s let herself be happy, be open. she’ll go where the nein goes.

she finally is letting herself let go of some of that guilt she built up from running when zuala died, and is even letting herself accept that she has romantic feelings again. and not just feel them, but be forward with them. all of yasha’s stupid little smiles when talking to beau hold this lightness and levity that not long ago yasha wouldn’t have allowed herself to feel.

that growth and sureness that she’ll be sticking around these people who make her better means so much to me.