People in Crisis
So, here's what I'm thinking...
I've never been the most sympathetic person in the world.
Tell me you have cancer, and I want to tell you how it's a learning experience
for you. Hmm...well today my neighbor told me she has pancreatic cancer.
Before this, she had ovarian cancer and she doesn't smoke anymore because
she could get lung cancer. Of course, she hasn't told anyone else this.
Only her husband knows, she said. So why is she telling me, you are thinking?
I'm thinking the same thing. I don't really know. I did NOT tell her it
was a learning experience, or anything stupid like that, so don't worry.
But I haven't quite learned the art of sympathy yet. I try to act concerned
and I say things like, "Wow, that must really suck for you."
That is my way of saying, "That must be difficult for you."
Well, duh...of course it's difficult! It's never ceases to amaze me some
of the difficult lives people chart for themselves. Of course I know that
they are learning at a rapid pace by putting so much tragedy on themselves,
but still...that is a lot cancer for one person. I did offer to read her
cards if she would like, but she was too afraid of what it might say so
she declined and I did not push the idea.
So, while I am still contemplating the WHY's
of my neighbor's situation this evening, I get an instant message from a
friend who tells me that his best friend is in the hospital and his brain
just froze from cancer. So, this friend is obviously dying. Did I mention my husband's
best friend's mother just died of a brain tumor? Do you see where I am
going with this? It is like I am suddenly surrounded by the reality of
people's shitty situations with cancer. I wonder if this is all leading
up to something. I didn't really want to be in the business of counseling
people with cancer or the loved ones who don't understand why this has
happened in their family, but I feel like this is a message for me of
some sort. Like I better learn to be sympathetic and help these people
some way, or I will be taught a real-life lesson about it. I don't want
a real life lesson. I have a feeling I'm about to be hit with a whammy
situation. I don't see how I am going to learn it otherwise. I hope I
didn't just type up my fate. Hopefully, this is all a fluke. I don't want
....well you know what I don't want. The same thing everyone doesn't want...tragedy
in their life. But it's been quite some time since there has been any
real, good-old fashioned tragedies in my life. I hope I am not due for
one now.
Well, I just read my cards since I was getting so worked
up over this. I hope it was accurate because it sounded good. There was
no indication of anything terrible happening to me. In fact, it may be
that I'm supposed to talk to people about what I KNOW instead of what
I FEEL which is a good thing, as I am not very good at expressing myself
emotionally. The outcome card did suggest though that I will soon have
to act as someone who is ...well forget it. It could be talking about
anything. Just for your (and my memory's sake) I will say it was the Princess
of Hearts. Maybe someday it will mean more to me. I think it was suggesting
that I should use my intuition when speaking to people who come to me
with their problems. I suppose that would be an excellent idea if I could
figure out how to do that. I just get overwhelmed sometimes and I don't
have a clue where to begin. So that's it then...intuition and dreams.
That reminds me that it is almost 5:30am and I am not in bed yet. I will
ask for insight into this situation in my dreams tonight. Goodnight.
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