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Living with DID means living as an alter or an host. That this isn't a simple thing to do, might be clear. It also means a past with abuse and torture.
With each of us creating our own page we hope to introduce ourselves and our life.

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The story of our life	Meet some of us :o)
Karin's lil's page	Our Poetry corner
What is DID?	Eating Disorders
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	Books about DID
Chatroom/Bulletin Board	Webrings we have joined

UPDATE

It has been 2 years since I left my home country and started to live in the USA. It is amazing how much healing can be done in just 2 years. I am not "cured", but my life is so much better and most of all, my days are so much longer now than when I just started my healing journey. My partner says that she saw me maybe a couple of hours a day then. Now I still lose time, but I can live my life again. I can do things and plan things without being scared that it will already be over before I have the change to do it.

Another amazing thing happened about a year ago, when I integrated with Morning Wind. From that day on, I was amazed by all the colors that one can find in the world. It is needless to say that you don't miss something that you don't know, but after this integration I realized that I have never been able to see colors, or at least not to notice colors. I still enjoy this today, a year later.
Other integrations have taken place. This is for most part a good thing, although the memories also integrate to my consiousness, something that hurts badly.
Unfortunately, I still discover new alters and new memories. The good thing is though that I am not in a constant crisis anymore. As a matter of fact, last month I celebrated my "one year not in the hospital" anniversary!!!!!
I think the one thing that has helped me most during this difficult time in my life is the fact that I am loved. I feel deeply loved by my partner and I love her very much. We are planning to spend the rest of our lifes together and to show this we decided to get married, 9 months ago. We exchanged rings and vows in a very intimate private moment.
To all of you who are still hurting, please try to find some real-life support from close friends. I have been totally dependend on my cyber-friends, but it was not untill I met my real-life friend who later became my lover, that my life changed for the good. Lonelyness is great food for pain......

I wish you all much strength on this healing journey. Reach out to others, don't travel this journey alone. You can e-mail Me at any time! I will respond as soon as I can!

Liz

"Because I have seen your courage and strength, and know how hard you are working at healing, I am honored to present to you the first ever Hope In Healing Award. This award shows that in spite of all the hurt, heartache, distress, dismay, and discouragement that there is in healing...there is still hope. Your page and your life display this."
Thank you so much Song, I have no other words then; I love you

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