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[17 Jul 2005|10:31am]
Yeah... I am home again and severely (sp?) missing several people ;) Or maybe just one person ;) A bit of a bugger that I missed Sez's party, but we'll do something together soon.

I am rekindling my love for eBay and this is good.
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[13 Jul 2005|08:00pm]
Tell me this guys... why is it that we have friends who can't be bopthered maintaining a relationship until they actually need you? I'm a little tired of it, but I put up with it.... not sure why, I just do.

Mmm. I think that's all I should say.
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[13 Jul 2005|05:40pm]
1. Full name: Lisa Maree Holbrook
2. Nicknames: Lis and other variations... Frizz, Free...
3.shoe size: 8 and 1/2
4. Height: 158cms... well, I think ;)
5. Hair: Multi-coloured
6. Siblings? Matty (17) and TJ (9)
7. Do you sing in the shower? sure damn do
8. Do you like to sing? yeah
9. Birth date: 19/1/1986
10. Sign: Capricorn (molto crespa capra merde.... not even sure whether that's rigfht, but hey, so year nine!)
11. Lefty or righty? right handed
12. Do u hav any piercings? Yah.... my lobes and my left ear... well, everyone knows where I mean
13. shoes or sandals? shoes
14. Coke or Pepsi? diet Coke :P
15. What do you want in a relationship? Everything rach said... love, trust.... yeah, make me laugh :D
16. Have you ever cheated? nope
17. Marital status: uhhh.... dating? :P
"FAVOURITE" QUESTIONS:
18. Song (right now)? Is it cos im cool? Umm... Angels by Robbie Williams, but hey, it's always changing
19. Cologne & perfume? Anything like Coconut or vanillia
20. Movie: So many... American Beauty, Thirteen, the Pies, Sister Act, Bridget Jones, Sabrina, A Walk to Remember....
21. Number? 17
22. Card game? Oh, well, I get addicted... Billionaire and Gin Rummy
23. Radio station? Nova (oh my love!) No more than two ads in a row!
24. Sports? Ice skating:?? :P
25. Food? Belgiorno's pizzas
26. TV show? BB, neighbours and the Simpsons
27. Cartoon: Simpsons! Family Guy!
28. Character: Homer, hehe
29. Colour? Currently pink, but open to suggestions
30. Do you plan on having kids? Yup :P
31. How many do you want? 2 or 3
32. What's something you can't wait to say? ;) Never you mind ;)
33. Get married? Yeah, 4 sure
34. Would you have kids before marriage? Nope, no way
35. Have a b/f or g/f? Uhhh, yes
36. Do you have a crush? Don't think I need to answer this one
37. What hurts you the most? When people ask for your advice, but don't listen to it
38. Music/TV: Music
39. Guys/Girls: Guys :S
40. Green/Blue: Blue
41. Pink/Purple: Pink
42. Summer/Winter: SUMMER
43. Night/Day: McNightime
44. Hanging Out/ Chilling: Does it matter?
45. Dopey/Funny: funny
46. You know I'm around when you hear: Are you serious? Really? Yeah, for sure! Righto, thanks luv
47. What school did you go to? Grant High (blurg)
48. Do you enjoy what you do? Yeah :P
49. What's a major turn on for you? People who smell nice and who doesn't have 'ghosts of their scent' (Springy and Keish know what I mean. Musos :P
FRIENDS:
50. Who Are They? So many! Dylan :P Terri-Berri, Sez, Larni and Flemo, Springy, Keish, my little black goth muffin, veronica (haha, couldn't leave her out!), matt, steve and I guess I'd better say Richie as well
51. Most blonde: Sarah :P
52. Nicest: Too hard to decide
53. Funniest: umm... Larni and Jess in their own weird ways
54: tallest: Mmm, Richie I guess
55. What's the worst thing a friend could do to you? Bitching about u to everyone
56. Is it right to flirt if you have a g/f or b/f: Nope, no way
OTHER RANDOM QUESTIONS:
57. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? Leaving Adelaide :( And missing my girls
58. What's something about guys/girls you don't get? There's never two the same!
59. What do you want right now? Ummm, to be abe to live in Adelaide with everyone I love from MG there as well
60. What's one thing you can't live without? JC and my camera
61. Love or Lust: love
64. Silver or Gold: silver
65. Diamond or Pearl: Both, ooh, buy me both! It just depends
66. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset
67. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? Nope
68. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yup, eeyore and "Christmas Dog" and my big pink bunny. I do have a double bed to fill up
70. What colour underpants are you wearing right now: pink
71. What song are you listening to right now? nothing :D
72. What are the last 4 digits of your home phone: 2564
73. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon: Italy! Gold coast!
74. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? Ummm... I think he knows :D
75. What are some of the first things you notice about the opposite sex? Their laugh :D
77. What's the next CD(s) you are planning to buy? Not sur, that cheesy CD looks pretty kewl
78. Do you wear contacts or glasses? neither
79. What was the best advice ever given to you? Lots of Bible verses. 'Never marry a man!' (thanks mum)
81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? Funny
82. On the phone or in person? In person coz u get more snuggles that way
83. Hugs or kisses? Both! Or snuggles
84. What song seems to reflect you the most: A dodgy Avril Lavgine (sp?) song, In my world', 'White Houses' by Vanessa Carlton
85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? My fam and then people who needed my stuff most
86. Do you have any enemies? Oh... nah, I've moved on
87. Who was the last person to hug you? My parents and then Dylan :P
88. Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich
89. What time is it in Albania? Care Factor.... Zero!
90. What time is it where you are now? 5:28
91. Have you ever met Santa? Well, many times
92. Name something pretty: My bulbs and my girls
93. When did you last talk to the person that you like? Well, online... presently!
94. Do you have any pets? Not in Adelaide, but at home I have two dogs (hunny and benji), a bird (Coconut) a turtle, two bunnies (sweepy and pebbles) and some fish
95. Who was the last person you danced with? Ummm, robbie williams in my kitchen... Probably with Tez and Wade in Shads awhile back
96. Last time you were stressed: Aren't I always :P Sunday shift at work, although somewhat blissfully unaware
97. Are you an alcoholic? nope :P
98. who sent this to you: Rach
99. What do you think of this person? Love her!
100. Do you want people to send this back? I guess they can blog it!
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[12 Jul 2005|05:09pm]
innocent
You're an innocent hug


What kind of hug are you? (complete, with images)
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[12 Jul 2005|04:57pm]
Love
What Kind of Kiss Are You? (for guys & girls)

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[12 Jul 2005|04:49pm]
Here with Me - Dido

I didn't hear you leave,
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing,
It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends,
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed,
Risk forgetting all that's been

Oh I am what I am,
I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep,
I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide,
I cannot be, until you're resting here with me...
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[12 Jul 2005|03:36pm]
Well... another blog.

I'm home, back in the Mount for as long as I want. I'm actually quite happy to be home, but nonetheless, there are things in Adelaide which do... well, keep me there. I love my kids at Scott Creek, hanging with the YITSers (well, the select few I do see) and well... *blushes* getting to know Dylan better. And that makes everything good again.

I'm a little tired of living between two places, although I love being back at my parent's house and seeing my bros, who aren't home this week :( It's hard being two people, here I'm like... an outsider in a lot of ways. I'm now 'The Friend from Adelaide' rather than a girl coming back to her semi-hometown. In Adelaide, I guess I feel like I belong a lot more. I blend it and I don't feel so... left of the middle.

Another thing I hate about being here is that everyone treats me like I'm this little rebellious fifteen year old. They love digging things up from the past that I've dealt with time and time again. That's the one thing I hate about (kinda) living here.... every mistake you make is something like at bitch fight on BB, it's brought up over and over again.

Nonetheless, I love seeing my friends (well, my friends I have left :() here, going out with Terri (and Wade, but who knows how long that's gonna keep going) and spending time with my family.

I don't feel like I'm living the best of both worlds, but the first time in... well, ages, I actually feel something other than numb.
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[07 Jul 2005|12:22am]
I am back in ADELAIDE. Don't know whether this is good or not.
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[07 Jul 2005|12:03am]
I am back in ADELAIDE. Don't know whether this is good or not.
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Snapshots... [13 Jun 2005|01:03pm]
Up until year eleven, I didn't really feel like I had much talent. I could so a heap of stuff, but there was nothing that was just mine. I never could sing, play anything. I'd write endless poetry, but I couldn't share that with the world.

Somehow I ended up studying Photography in 2002. There was just something about it which I loved. I enjoyed developing my own prints, and working for hours to get the correct exposure. I entered a really random piccie of an old fashioned parking meter and won second place... I was estactic.

Year 12, it really took off. I took shots everywhere, and I guess once I won first place that year, I knew that this was my thing. That's why I went thru the same kind of course last year. Plus... all that free paper and a darkroom to use whenever I wanted.

I have my own camera now. She doesn't have a name, but I'm got some great shots with it. I'll never be a digital chick, because there's something rather rewarding about taking a great photograph on film. It's generally better quality and longer lasting.

I've been taking artistic photos for ages, I just hadn't really embraced it. When I wake up the the morning, I know that I could shoot whatever I wanted to and come out with some nice piccies. I'm not obessed, just proud of who I am and what I can do.

Lots of people sing, lots of people act. But I take photographs and that's the way I like it.
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[12 Jun 2005|12:21pm]
Question of the day: Which events have shaped the person you are today?

Now... I know, y'all thinking it's probably the car accident. That much is true. But I thought I'd write about a very... shall we say... random part of 2003.

As most of you guys know, I graduated in 2003. I hated year 12 because.... well, there's many, many reasons. I'm a firm believer in that you can't allow yourself to be educated unless you're in the right frame of mind. And I was not in the right frame of mind for most of it!

In August my Dad went away for a few weeks. It was pretty tough without him around. I spent money of food for my family and started doing housework instead of studying. This was before I drove, so I used to walk to Tenison and then back again. As stupid as it sounds, I really didn't mind any of it at all.

One Tuesday night I brought of my blanket and slept in front of the middle room fireplace. I wasn't sure why I did it, besides the fact that I love open fires. From that night on... everything was just different.

When you don't really have anyone you're close to to lean upon, you'll find youself. And that's what I spent six months of my life doing, spending time with me, and just me.

I put on a lot of weight during that time. And I worked heaps, bought heaps of stuff and just remained single. Even though I guess I didn't have heaps of close mates, it was quite possibly the happiest time of my life.

When we were younger, my friends, "the group" and I decided we'd all buy a big house in Adelaide while we studied. I'm the only one there, that makes me a bit sad, but I'm happy. I'm chasing my dreams.
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[04 Jun 2005|11:10pm]
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorius they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

CHORUS:
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Everytime I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

(We miss you, Big....)

It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Somebody tell me why...

On that morning
When this life is over
I know, I'll see your face

Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
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[30 May 2005|06:20pm]
romantic
You're a romantic girl. You're kind, caring,
loveing, and peaceful. You spend a lot of your
time dreaming and you're not afraid to express
deep emotion, whether it be in a poem, diary,
or words. You hope for love and affection from
your prince charming. I have a feeling he will
come around soon.


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[27 May 2005|10:04pm]
Well here is a thing I learned about relationships: Don't give women respect. If you give them respect, they'll think you're a 'nice guy' and soon start to fuck with someone else. Instead, treat them bad. Don't call them often. Cheat on them. Lie to them. Because secretly, they want a guy that treats them bad. All of them.

I found this on group hug... and really, I have to say it's true! Look at who I've liked, or dated or... whatever...

I know from a counselling perspective that it's incorrect. In fact, we are drawn to people who are like our dad or mum. This scares me because... I love my dad, really, I do... And now that I've reflected a bit, I guess what Sue said is right after all...

scariness.

I like who I am.
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[27 May 2005|09:30pm]
I'm sitting here having one of thse most.... open wound converstaions with one of my friends. Guys... it's so painful. I never want to have a similar convo with any of you.

And I pray it doesn't have to happen again....

FV
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[27 May 2005|09:30pm]
I'm sitting here having one of those most.... open wound conversations with one of my friends. Guys... it's so painful. I never want to have a similar convo with any of you.

And I pray it doesn't have to happen again....

FV
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"This fridge ain't big enough or the two of us!" [27 May 2005|06:18pm]
That's what my Cruisers just said to Jem's cask of wine. I haven't had a proper drink in awhile since spraying our "cooking" wine across the kitchen.

This weekend... I am going shopping with Roslyn at Marion and having my ear pierced! I'm so excited! I didn't think I could because I spilt it in the accident... they'll just use a needle and.. well, pierce me!

Tomorrow night I'm volunteering a a drop-in centre for homeless people. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time... then Sunday I'll be having the choir rehearsal here and aftwerwards Keish and I are going to Paradise. It's nice to have friends here, besides Jem, who most likely loses much hair over my antics.

Am I interllectual?? I'm not really that sure. I know that I can write and speak fluently, that I do well in assignments... etc. I have no doubt that my emotional IQ is higher than my interlectual IQ.

Denessa (my fantab sg leader whom I love) thinks that I do well with the weird guys (I won't name names, but the YITSers will know who I mean!). I like it that I can... relate to people who are a little bit... different. Is that because I'm really nerdy or is it because I'm me???

I'm going home in two weeks (yeah, 14 days) from now. Being home is weird. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong there - then again, I never belonged there, so what's the difference? I hate more people than I like there... oh.. well, I try to avoid people who try and do this major guilt trip. Plus.. There's always the risk of running into He-who-must-not-be-named and I'm scared that if I do see him I will blast his head off and bring out the skewers.

Maybe I shouldn't talk about home anymore...

Random thoughs:

I don't like girls who whinge about how small their breasts are... get over it already...

I think my friends really piss me off a lot, esp. ones in the Mount. And one's who want to see me, but never end up doing it *coughRICHARD!cough*

I wish I could teach people who to use myspace. What's the point of having a space and blogging on entry?

I bought three CDs for thirteen bucks! Who is the best? It is me!

I really want another Cruiser, but will wait for tea time. I'm having damper coz there's no meat, no cheese... etc.

The one day I can do my washing it rains :(


Love you guys! (awww!)

FV
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This is not what I thought I had been praying for... [18 May 2005|05:16pm]
It's been a horrible, horrible week and I want it to be over soon. It was just a nothing weekend and I'd been pissed off with someone since Thursday night, so I was kinda... I don't know, all grumpy and stuff. I guess Danielle's death has really blew everything out of the water for me. Really... it has.

I've never been one to cry much over death or trauma... But I think this week... I haven't cried so hard in a long time. Because it was an MVA it's really shocked me back into reality. They can crap on about speeding fines and road rules all they want... it's not gonna fucking stop people from being killed on the roads. I wish that South Australia was a bit more like (the good state) Victoria. Sure there's roadworks always happening in Vic, but at least they're fucking maintained.

There's my anger again. I don't actually know what I feel anymore. I know who I am, but not what I should be doing or feeling or thinking. I don't feel numb, just.... damn moody!

A general comment about the YITSers. They have all came together so well. Like... even people I don't usually see or talk to are talking to me or giving me bear hugs... or whatever. It's painful because it's hurt, not happiness which draws the group together. I never wanted this to happen the way it has.

This is not what I thought I had being praying for... I don't know anymore...
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[15 May 2005|06:16pm]
This poem actually scared me a bit when I reread it... I wtote it in year 12 and details aren't really fair to disclose...

It's LIKE she doesn't understand you, it's like SHE is all screwed up inside/it's like she FOUND you, just someone to... turn to. You don't understand ME anymore... my feelings, nothing...

It's like... what we had f a d e d... into nothing but loving you is still EVERYthing to me. You took away my tears and made me better baby... That's why I'll understand you and she never will.
FreeVerse

I'm such a bitchy poet!
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[15 May 2005|03:14am]
Buy Now, Pay Later (Charlie No. 2)- The Whitlams

Charlie you're not my Charlie anymore
You're screwing it up
You're killing your soul with an audience looking on

If I hadn't left early last night
I would have made a speech to you
How you're not the only one you're going to hurt

If you don't believe me I don't believe in you
Makes it all feel better does it?
Makes you feel like heaven does it?
You loved it and you spent accordingly

You can't afford it now
You'll try and you'll fail
And love it like a little dog
And feed it on the scraps you find
And kiss it while you're still asleep
You buy now and pay laterp So where's the problem you can ask if you keep your head up
But the road is long and you're falling asleep at the wheel
Here's a girl going crazy about you and I'm not far behind
Can you care about your friends anymore?
You buy now and pay later
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