Holidays.


XD Highly agree with you, Belinda. Highly agree. ;) Then again, I'm the owner of this site, of course I want comments. ^o^

So. The Christmas season. No, I'm not going to say "Merry Christmas" like everyone else has already done. I'm not into the holidays this year, and that's what scares me.

It's so heart-warming to see all these people feeling jolly and warm and saying "Merry Christmas" to everyone, but it's aggravating to feel absolutely nothing about the season. These people are so happy for the holidays, being with their families and feeling comfortable, and I have nothing to say bout it. Except "I love break! But I'm sick of my parents. :(" It's just soooo annoying to be grumpy this season. People around me are happy. Why can't I be too?

I can understand why I want to be all isolationist right now, I mean, being at school for hours around so many people gets hectic. I think it's reasonable for me to just want to be alone, but the cheerful people are making me feel bad about it. In any case, this is making me feel happy for the time when I'll be able to live on my own, because then I won't be hassled by my parents all the time.

And I won't allow others to hassle me without meaning to.

Today has been altogether good, though. No parents = lots getting done. It's sad that that's the case, but it is (and I wish my parents would realize that). I've even done some exercise! And I ate lunch with lots of different food groups so that my body could be happy with me again. ^.^ It's working, too. I feel very good about myself today.

I still want Wordpress. (Anyone... want... to give s.soapbox a database?)
Stephanie on 24.12.04 @ 01:51 PM PST [link] [2comments]

Sinful.


Sigh. I had to delete all my bookmarks & fun things with Firefox because the theme didn't work and I didn't know how to reset it. ;_; Pretty annoyed, but then again all the good bookmarks I remember anyway.

Typing is hard today too.

All right, so this is what I have to say. (Or the first thing I have to say.) People are my personal playthings, aka "toys". Nothing sexual because emotionally I am a four-year-old and therefore I am not interested in anything sexual. But I manipulate people to amuse me. Or something like that.

My "favorite toy" changes a lot. And currently my favorite is having problems with Internet access or something and is not online as often as I like. So I'm bored and restless and wanting to play with someone's head but it's not working. :( Which is making me grumpy. Kittens are making me grumpy too, but that's a different story.

And you know what's really funny? How people get the wrong impression. Manipulation is really funny. People think I hate my current favorite toy, when in actuality I really like to play with him. ;) It's fun to joke around with people, although boys are easier to joke around with because... I don't know why but they are.

Geez it's hard to type.

So, I've been slothful lately. My body is screaming at me, "Go out! Do something! Don't go driving, for goodness' sake! Go walking, biking, something to make me feel better!" I don't want to go out, but I know it speaks the truth. Everyone's been giving me chocolate for Christmas (and Chanukah, as it seems...). It's very annoying. All the candy around the house... I feel myself getting big. It's just scary. I want less candy. Um... yeah.

So I'm just around too much. But at least I'm not on an airplane headed to a funeral, huh? ^_~
Stephanie on 23.12.04 @ 02:12 PM PST [link] [onecomment]

Updating things.


There is a reason there are no longer any free hosts.

Pick-Me is too popular.

In any case, I've found one... or two, maybe... cool sites out of Pick-Me. Which is nice.

I've also severely updated Adolescent Memoirs, which doesn't want to work on United Net, cry.

I also want a new layout, and Wordpress. Thank you and good-night.
Stephanie on 18.12.04 @ 09:09 PM PST [link] [nocomment]

My shirt is cool, too.



I have nothing better to do than tame myself into posting more often, at this time of day. I have so many ideas of what to say sometimes but don't make myself write them down, so here I will.

Next we know, I'll be finishing off one of those sites tonight. Er, not. I want to read and write and do other stuff while I'm awake toooo... or not.

Yesterday I got to wear a cool shirt. Not a style of shirt I normally wear, but one of those shirts you'd imagine on one of those normal teenagers, you know, those tight-fitting shirts that show some skin.

It was green. V-necked. Tight-fitting. Kept having to pull down the shirt to stop showing the skin between it and my high-waisted pants. Oh no, my shirt is getting small. :( It has ruffles down the front. It's a cool shirt. And the way my hair laid out yesterday, I was pretty happy with the look. XD

No really, it was cool, no matter what you believe. :P

Say, I wonder how to get people to comment.

(And Real-Nerd.org has a fake nerd as an owner. I'm serious. The owner 1. does not look like a nerd and 2. calls her links page "My Whores". Since when has being a nerd been cool? I'm so out of the loop.)
Stephanie on 12.11.04 @ 10:32 PM PST [more..] [onecomment]

Listing.


I can't wait until break. I need it far too much. Since I'll have a computer and nothing to do, I'll be spending the first week working, I hope. I'm gonna create a list here of what I hope to do.

Ooh, me tired. And I took a nap. Er, wow.

Anyway - I want to make this place a purdy new layout. Because this just isn't working for me, and I just got a bootiful PSP9 and PSP9 wants to be used to create a new layout.
I joined an avatar-making site. Why not? I got asked to. Though the other owners know nothing about Sunbeam Soapbox and my level of skill. They just kinda asked ’cause I said I sometimes make avatars. Kinda amusing. So I want to make some more avatars. (http://www.avatarmegeddon.tk/)
Finish up the makeover of Adolescent Memoirs, contemplate killing it.
Open up Panthea, for goodness' sake!
Work on some new project ideas (I know what I'm talking about ;))

I'm pretty sure that's my list.

Say, you know what? I'm amused that Proud-Nerd.net is not nerdy. I mean, really. If you want to show off that you're a nerd, be nerdy! That was just a stupid teenager site.

There should be a collaboration called "Proud-Nerd.org", and my father should be part of that project. Although he seems to have too much to do already. But still. When asked for an occupation for school forms and etc., he's taken to saying "computer nerd". It's just about as amusing as Proud-Nerd.net not being nerdy.
Stephanie on 11.12.04 @ 04:51 PM PST [link] [nocomment]

No time to write,


I need a "Publish later" option. Badly.

Note to self: My shirt is a good topic.
Stephanie on 10.12.04 @ 04:53 PM PST [link] [nocomment]

Bad girl


Yesterday I did a horrible, horrible thing in the eyes of the teenage world.

This boy was calling me a name in jest, and so, because we were walking back to class from the computer lab, I decided to chase him to "get back at him". Then the perfectionist boy said to the boy I was chasing, "Ooh, no running in the halls." I hadn't chased him more than a couple of feet, but it did feel good to chase someone again. But then the perfectionist yelled. Took out the fun.

You know what really makes this horrible, other than me acting like an elementary schooler chasing people who call me names? The boy I was chasing was my friend's boyfriend. Aren't you not supposed to mess around with your friends' boyfriends, even if we were simply acting like squabbling kids? I don't know at all.

But I'm still doomed, darned and a disgrace. Oh woe is me, who would rather chase someone again.
Stephanie on 09.12.04 @ 02:53 PM PST [link] [nocomment]

I'm so weird


I'm a disgrace or something. Except that I'm not, because other people don't think of me enough to label me one. But if they did they would. Or something like that.

I'm not an American. I'm a U.S. citizen, and you can only use "U.S." as an adjective, so I used it correctly. I'm turning 16 in January. I don't want a driver's license, but unfortunately I am catching on to this driving habit far too easily. I don't want to be 16, either. I don't have a purely patriotic love of my country. I want California to secede. I went out today and yesterday in jeans, sweatshirt, and sandals. I don't wear sandals to be cute, I wear them because sneakers are so stuffy. I don't wear them to school because they aren't good enough to walk around in. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I want to learn so much more than I currently know.

Today I had a driving lesson. Today I did really well. Today was my first time driving. Today I scared myself.

Certain words in the English language look better in British English than "American" English, and so I spell them that way. Now why is it called "American" English, when Canadians use British English? Anyway, I have always spelled "grey" this way, and supposedly it should be "gray". I don't like the way that looks. Lately the words "saviour" and "savour" have looked better with the "u", but Microsoft Word tells me that I need to take them out. But to my eyes, "savior" and "savor" are plain odd. Will I get marked down in English class for it?

One week a while ago, I wore a different style of clothes every day. One day I looked "preppy", the next a little, well, don't know what to call it, the day after "cute", and after that "comfortable". Maybe that's not five days, but oh well. I wonder what they call people that switch styles around a lot. But I like to be different every day. It keeps people from labelling me based on what I wear, right? Or am I just a nerd anyway?

Today I wear a Train shirt and feel Californian. Tomorrow I will wear something else and feel stylish. I'm something new every day. I'm a different story to be told. I'm a fantasizing girl in wearing jeans and a shirt. I'm new and I'm gone. I'm a weird one.
Stephanie on 06.12.04 @ 07:55 PM PST [link] [nocomment]