On Running…

September 25th, 2012 | Ann

First and foremost, thank you for your input on my poll last week. Here are the results….

I was curious about who was wearing what shoe after switching to the Mizuno lightweight trainer. I’m happy to report, I’ve logged a few miles and enjoy the way they feel on my feet! So far, so good!

In addition to the lightweight trainers, I’ve been fortunate enough to participate in Mizuno’s Mezamashii Project:

The Mezamashii Run Project is an effort by Mizuno to help create a more euphoric running experience — a more “brilliant” run — for more runners everywhere. The word “mezamashii” means “eye-opening” or “brilliant” in Japanese — it’s a word that captures the euphoric feeling of a brilliant run.

The Mezamashii community will continue to receive brilliant run inspiration from Mizuno in the form of early access to product launches and other exclusive Mizuno events. Over the course of the remainder of the year, Mizuno will give away thousands of shoes to runners who are looking to experience more euphoric, brilliant, mezamashii running.

(From the Mizuno Running News site)

I picked out Wave Rider 15′s and received them in the mail just a few days ago and I love, love, LOVE them!

A quick spin on the treadmill.

Now…. how do these new shoes align with my running goals?

Honestly?

I’m not planning on running any big races anytime soon. After dropping from the Twin Cities Marathon, I took a long, hard look at running races and my strengths and weaknesses. And without going into too many details, the weaknesses outweighed the strengths by about 10-to-1. I don’t enjoy running races, I’m self-conscious about my size and being in public to train, I feel like I’m not fast enough, and I honestly don’t have fun while I do it. I get anxious, stressed and worried about races (despite my positive attitude) … and right now, it’s not the right thing for me.

Working through the Whole30 challenge has allowed me the flexibility and freedom to discover what I really love – eating whole foods; Being in tune with my hunger cues and listening to my body. It also relates to exercise… If I am miserable and I absolutely hate doing it, then I am not likely to continue. The challenge (and the success) has come in finding things I enjoy doing – running (for fun!), biking, yoga, classes at the gym, and walks with friends.

The purpose of the Mezamashii Run Project is to create a more “brilliant” and “euphoric” run – and for me, that means running to enjoy it – without the pressure of a looming race; without the constant comparisons of pace and time and distance; without the stress of how I look or how other people might see me. I’m using this as an opportunity to focus on ME – my running, my experience, and my successes.

I know I eventually want to run more races – I want to be a really great running. But for me, for right now, it’s about enjoying what I’m doing – being happy, healthy and active in a way that brings me joy.

7 Responses to “On Running…”

  1. Falon says:

    HECK YEAH ASICS!!! Oh Ann it makes me sad to think that you’re self conscious about being in races or training outside. You are such a beautiful, strong and positive lady. That being said, do what is right for you, lady! If you decide you don’t want to RUN Chicago we would still love to have you come and hang out and spectate. We have a few folks working on babies, so you probably would not be alone there. xoxo

  2. Tarable says:

    There has been a post very similar to this swirling around in my head for a couple of days. It’s crazy the things that happen during a Whole30 that you wouldn’t even expect. Something such as this which is not entirely food related but a realization of what you want to do and what you enjoy. You should definitely go forward with what makes you happy.

  3. Ruby Leigh says:

    I hold a special level of respect for people who run with without races… I’d be a complete couch potato if it weren’t for external threats.

  4. Ann, I know how you feel about races. I’m still in that boat, but I keep doing the little ones for now. For me, it’s more about accountability. It’s easy for me to say, “I don’t feel like working out today”, but if I have a 5k coming up, I CAN’T skip my runs… ;-)

  5. lindsAy says:

    i have been feeling like this about running lately myself. kind of a bummer. i think sometimes it’s just our minds telling us we need to slow down, take a break, do a different thing, enjoy life. at least, in my case i think that’s true. i love the sounds of the mezamashii run project though. i think it’s great you’re figuring out what works best for you!

  6. Raymond says:

    This post made me sad. I will get back to that in a bit.

    First of all, I wanted to thank you. I started my weight loss journey (again) last August. I had the goal (again) of just losing 10 lb. My goal was to get back into my “fat” pants so I didn’t have to go shopping. It had been 15 years since I was at my ideal body weight. Exercise was a distant memory. Drive thru’s were part of my everyday life. I was on cholesterol medication. I should have been on blood pressure medications. I was officially “obese”.

    I “knew” that I could never reach my ideal body weight ever again. I was too old and my metabolism too slow. And I didn’t really care.

    But, for some reason, I got the courage to do a little more this time. Then a little more, and a little more. By February, I was back at Weight Watchers and down 50 lb. I was off my medications. I was back to my ideal body weight. I did go shopping-for smaller clothes.

    But I was not “fit”.

    Weight Watchers offered a little medallion for completing a 5k. I hated running. Could never do it. My knees were temperamental. I had exercise induced asthma. And I just didn’t wanna do it.

    But, half the members at my meeting already owned the little charm. I decided (unenthusiastically) to try.

    I got a “real” pair of running shoes from a “real” running store. Went out the door, and just about collapsed at the neighbor’s driveway. It was embarrassing.

    I trained on my treadmill (after I cleared off all the boxes) and only ran outside if it was dark out…since I didn’t want all the neighbors to laugh.

    Confidence and stamina grew. 5 weeks later, I ran a 7k. I had actually done a 9 mile run a few days earlier.

    I started thinking about doing a marathon. I told this dream to nobody. I again figured that they would laugh. Despite early success, I was still a fake. I was not an athlete, and that goal was beyond me.

    But I still dreamed. I switched to private browsing when doing google searches so nobody would know what I was thinking. I came to find that the Twin Cities Marathon was the big event in this state. And it was months away. Who knows, maybe…

    A link caught my eye, and it was to your site. There, I found inspiration and courage. Someone who had struggles with her weight. Someone who had some doubts but was doing it anyways. Someone who had done multiple races, a half marathon, Ragnar. But someone who reminded me of me, or the “me” I was hoping to become…

    I signed up for the TC Marathon that night…2 days BEFORE I even ran my first race.

    In reading your story, and of the journey and the goal, I did figure that there was a very good chance that one or both of us would not succeed. I figured you had the edge. You still had not completed your weight loss journey, but had travelled a long way. And you had a lot of racing experience. I had completed my weight loss journey, but hadn’t even participated in a single race. The odds were against me, but you gave me the courage to try.

    What happened after that was an incredible transformation for me. I ran a 7K mid-March, a Half Marathon in late April, and a full marathon in early June (Minneapolis Marathon). Ran the marathon in 4 hours 27 minutes. Couch to full marathon in 16 weeks. At some point in that time, I had given up the “I can’t” mentality. I knew I could succeed if I made the choice to do so.

    By the time Red White and Boom rolled around, I checked in with your blog. I was surprised and saddened to hear that you had decided not to run the TC Marathon. But, in reading your blog, it made sense. I originally thought that you had the advantage with your running experience over me. But, I learned a lot during this journey. With long distance running, you will likely NOT lose weight. You have to keep fueling your body (before/during/after each run). It also increases your appetite. It is very hard to lose, but fairly easy to maintain. I have met many marathon runners who started running for weight loss and just could not shed the pounds. When people ask me now, I tell them to lose the weight first. Shorter distance running may be fine, but to be careful since you are still putting a lot of stress on the knees, ankles and low back.

    Thinking about all of that, I felt that you made a very wise and difficult decision. You still wanted to follow through with your dream to run a marathon. But you would make sure you were ready, and would do it safely.

    Since the Minneapolis Marathon, I started doing triathlons. Did 3 since Red White and Boom, including a Half Ironman triathlon (1.2 mile open water swim, 56 mile bike, and then a 13.1 mile run in 7 hours, 23 minutes). Got a couple of century (100 mile) bike rides done as well. I then circled back to running and doing a taper down to next weekend.

    Every time I succeed at something, I think of the inspiration you gave me and wanted to thank you. I came back to your blog to do just that.

    That is when I saw this post. It made me so sad.

    You were so passionate about running. You can’t fake that. It was in your blood and you were doing great. You inspired and motivated me and countless others. But, somewhere, you lost your drive. It sounds like you had a setback and lost your confidence. You then used one of my favorite defense strategies-tell yourself that you never really wanted it or enjoyed it in the first place. Talk yourself into thinking that walking away is the best thing for you to do. Yes, you should focus on diet and weight first. But having a big goal down the road can motivate you. I have now set the goal of doing a full Ironman by the end of 2014. I truly believe that I will be successful. I will always be very grateful to you for that. And I would love to find out that you will be crossing the finish line at the TC Marathon with me next October, or the one after that. Just don’t give up on your passion, or talk yourself into believing that it never existed…

    Good luck!

  7. I just saw this post! And wanted to say that I love how you truly have channeled the “brilliant run” idea for what it means to YOU and now you are living that out daily!

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