Well, it's been a solid two days of waking fucking nightmares, and also the regular kind.
So, let's talk about it.
I've actually had her blocked for a long, long time.
Definitely at least a year.
So, the fact that she was able to see these tweets at all,
to begin with,
means that she was namesearching *around* my block, specifically trawling for content.
Like, I blocked her because over the course of a couple years, her work became just
incredibly fucking triggering for me.
it's basically impossible to fully escape her stuff.
For a while, I also actually muted her name.
But here we are.
I feel like, after a certain point, she must have been watching *me*, very specifically,
later in the video,
she also quotes *this* tweet,
which got literally *five* fucking retweets in its *entire* fucking lifetime,
and also contains no big, hot, easily searchable keywords.
combing through literally *every single fucking mention* of "Olly" or "Philosophytube" or "trans people."
about Buck Angel's famously petty, spiteful act of transphobic violence against Lana Wachowski,
which, yes, could have *easily* gotten her killed,
and argues that we shouldn't care.
Because that "reminds" her of what "creepy stalkers who hate trans people do."
Buck's comments exist in the media
because he *sold them to the media*.
eventually reaching as high as Rolling fucking Stone.
He "exposed" Lana,
very, very publicly,
specifically to punish her.
Let me gush and gush and *gush* about your fucking "decades" of "good trans activism"
(with absolutely no specifics).
that he *did* do that,
a simple acknowledgement of the fucking harm,
is abusive and stalker-ish?
she asks the audience,
"How can you tell the difference between a trans anarcho socialist with an anime avatar,
"and a Nazi *pretending* to be a trans anarcho socialist with an anime avatar?"
"Anonymous is anonymous is anonymous, whether it's on 4chan or Twitter."
Because literally none of those things apply to me?
I don't specifically identify as *any* particular political micro label. I just don't really find it useful.
It has *always* had my name on it.
This is something I drew in, like, 2015,
when I was playing around with a bunch of different brushes in FireAlpaca.
you didn't fucking censor anyone's avatars in this video.
Not even the ones that actually *are* real people's actual photos.
to a *million* people and counting,
*immediately* before saying I might be a Nazi
*and* a fake trans person.
How about that?
How about stalking the tweets of an autistic trans person with 600 followers,
screencapping them out of context,
broadcasting them to a literal fucking *million*
of your own fucking fans,
and also maybe not even really trans?
How about fucking that?
all of this is fucking bullshit.
'Cause you haven't changed gears at all.
I'm still the last person you quoted,
you're still in the same "bit,"
and you're still responding to the thing I brought up.
a) People take what you're saying at absolute face value
and cheer you on as you take down the faceless fake trans person you've turned me into,
b) They Google the tweets you so, *so* helpfully provided the *full* fucking text for,
find my actual Twitter page,
and then, whoops, all of a sudden, I have Contra stans on my Twitter page.
let me lay this out.
Those tweets in the video have all been up for two months already. They've been up.
They've been out there.
They've been seen.
They're old news, more or less.
Yes, I got abuse.
Yes, I even got other big YouTubers, reactionary dipshits like Peter Coffin and shoe0nhead,
"liking" posts that talked shit about me.
I've been in protected mode for two days straight.
Nothing's ever done that before.
Nothing's ever been that bad.
Not till this.
Not till you.
result in a noticeable uptick in abuse and harassment directed my way?
And I was soon as I went protected on Twitter, it started flowing over into my Tumblr.
Were they going to get my phone number?
Fun, fun things I have to live with now.
or this hypothetical thing she's created adjacent to me,
"Shut up and go back to K*w*f*rms,
"where you belong."
Let me tell you.
I've never checked, because I know I wouldn't be able to handle if it I did,
but I wouldn't be surprised if K*w*f*rms actually *had* a page about me.
I don't *know*.
I don't *want* to know.
But I wouldn't be super fucking surprised.
I've always been *very* online, growing up,
and for pretty much my entire fucking life (at least for the chunk of it that I can actually remember),
I've had groups of people trying to goad me into suicide.
I wouldn't be surprised.
"I'm saying this in the c*ntiest way. And they deserve it! They deserve the c*ntiness!"
I might come back and talk about that Olly thing we put a pin in later.
Or I might just go on protected again.
We'll see how this shakes out.