Farewell post. I quit cycling and this is (one of the reasons) why: First, I didn’t feel the need to let you know I’ve quit cycling, because, although I had some successes, last years I wasn’t racing often. Just one of many riders riding a bike. Now, I am writing this farewell, because I want to speak up. I have been too long ashamed of something that I had to deal with. Something that probably ruined my chances of having a successful career. Something, I hope, nobody has to experience, but sadly is very common in cycling and the society we live in today. I have suffered from anorexia. I have had an eating disorder for approximately 5 years, which went up and down, but the destructive thoughts were always there. When I was finally able to ease my mind, I could see things more clear again... I was saddened by the fact how many colleagues suffer too. Suffer from having unhealthy and unhappy thoughts, desiring unhealthy body and performance ideals and having to deal with body dysmorphia. Therefore, I am turning to you, look around and be aware! Dare to speak up, dare to ask questions and dare to ask for help! Above all, you never ever know where someone is silently going trough. Most of the times you don’t see when somebody is struggling mentally. The biggest gift you can give is your kindness, time and love. I am happy that I can say now: 'I am recovered' and finally can see how beautiful life is. I sincerely wish that for everybody who is struggling. Therefore, I decided to share my story, with you and with the world of cycling and elite sport. In 2023, I will become a proud ambassador of the (W)eetwatjedoet project that battles against eating disorders in sport and fights for healthy performance. I am looking forward to put my energy, creativity and recovered positivity into joining their mission. See the link in bio for more info.